It's been 4 months and I am completely over Cam.
Most of it has been being in a relationship with Ryan. Speaking of that he is the best boyfriend ever. He texts me every morning and FaceTimes me every night.
We did our project and got a 100 while Cam and Maya got a 0 for not doing it.
Also soccer season is finally over so I don't have to see them together all the same and it's nice
My brothers released their album and are going on tour in a week. I'm going with them because well it's an excuse for no school and they offered so it's fine
I'm packing right now and Ryan is over because I want to spend as much time with him as I can
Oh the boys still have no idea we're dating
"Do you really need all those clothes" he asks
"Um yeah I do. I'm going to be gone for 3 months"
"That's too long. I'm going to miss you"
"I know well we'll have to deal with it"
"What about time zone changes"
"I'll text you whenever I'm free and if you're free too good. It's going to be fine"
"What if you find a really cute boy and like him and talk to him and hug him and kiss him and love him and oh no break up with me and date him and move away to Australia with him and marry him and have babi-" he starts rambling and I cut him off with a kiss
"Shh. Stop talking you're the only boy in this world I find cute"
"Are you sure"
"100%. You're a hottie. Now stop interrupting and let me pack"
"Sorry can I help you pack"
"Yeah you see that small bag. Put my makeup in it for me"
"But you don't need makeup"
"Just put my makeup in my bag please"
"Okay okay im just being a good boyfriend"
"You'll be an even better one when you put my makeup in my bag"
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I finally finish packing everything and now we're just laying in my bed watching movies
My head is on his shoulder as he plays with my hair
I have a plan that if any of my brothers come in I'll just say I fell asleep on him.
I've fallen asleep on Jack in the same exact way so it's believable
As I watch the movie I feel something off. I look next to me and Ryan is staring at me with loving eyes
"What are you doing?" I ask
"Staring at you"
"Why" I laugh
"Cause you're beautiful and when I start looking at you I just can't stop"
"You're going to make me cry I love you so much"
"Wait you-you love me?"
"Yeah. Oh no you don't feel the same way. I am so stupid. Why do I always love people who don't love me back"
"Woah woah woah stop right there. I never said I didn't love you. In fact I am surprised you love me. I mean who am I to deserve your love"
"So you do love me?"
"Oh baby I love you more than I love myself. I love you more than I love food. I love you more than I love everything. You are my everything. I never want to lose you because I know if I do I will never be the same. So yes I do love you."
"Oh good cause that would've been bad"
"You're adorable" he leans down and kisses me softly
I smile and get closer to him by putting my head on his chest instead of shoulder
"By the way I love you way more than you could ever love me" I whisper
"Now that is impossible"