The last two weeks were okay. He was still acting weird since the phone thing. I didn't want to pressure him to tell me but I tried to remind him I was here to help. I don't know if he got that though a so I just waited and waited.
I just felt like he was withdrawing from me. He would come in from work and go to bed and by the time I woke up he was gone.
To my surprise I woke up to see him today. He was sitting at the bottom of the bed quiet as I sat up. I quietly crawled over to him and sat behind him with both my legs on either side of him as I wrapped my arms around his torso. Maybe he wasn't ready to talk about it.
I laid my head on his back as he took a deep breath and touch my hands. For a second I was nervous he would move them but I relaxed as he intertwined our fingers. It all made sense once he spoke.
"It's her birthday" he whispered and my grip instantly tightened.
"My aunt told me she wanted to do something for her birthday two weeks ago and my mind just scattered" he admitted. "What do you want to do? We can go visit her if you want" "They decided to have a celebration at the house for her" "Do you want to go?" "I don't know" he whispered letting his hand run through his hair.
I knew he loved Michelle but maybe he didn't want to because it was still fresh. Going could be hard but I feel like he would regret not going too.
He didn't really want to be bothered with his family but he decided to go for an hour or so then go visit her. He kept quiet the whole time as he got ready and the drive there but, he said three words that made my heart flutter.
As we got out of the car, I quickly grabbed his hand smiling and he returned it . "Whenever you're ready to leave, let me know" I said and he nodded opening the door. He chuckled looking down at me.
"This was her favorite song" I smiled leaning onto his shoulder. "Your mom has great taste in music" I said as I recognize the song. As by Stevie Wonder.
"Cameron" Both our heads snapped to see a made a lady with dirty blond hair rushing over. She hugged him and smiled as he hugged her back. "It's been too long. How are you?" She asked pulling away.
"Good. Aunt Diane, this is Leah my girlfriend. Leah this is my aunt Diane" She gave me a hug and kiss on the cheek. "It's nice to meet you Leah" "Nice to meet you too" I said as a man came over smiling too.
"How's it going Cam" The man asked and gave him a hug. "Great. How are you?" "Just taking it one day at a time. You must be Leah" he said looking over to me and I nodded extending my hand as he shook it smiling. "This is my uncle David. My mom's brother"
"Okay well all of the women are in the kitchen. Let me introduce them to you" she said grabbing my hand and Cam grabbed the other one. "She's really shy. I don't want them to overwhelm her with questions and make uncomfortable" he stated in a hard voice.
"We won't. We just want to know more about her. Your dad told us amazing things about her though" she said and he looked at me as I looked at him smiling. "I'll be okay, catch up with your family" I said and he frowned a bit but gave me a quick kiss and nodding.
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"So how long have you and Cameron been dating?" About three months I said leaning my back on the counter a little nervous. They did seem really nice though. "Really only three months? The way he was toward you leaving him seem like what it was atleast one year" Diane said and I shook my head. "No we've been friends since he moved here but we made it official in April" she nodded.
"Short period of time but I guess you can't help love" Another with black hair said for taking a sip of wine. "I knew I wanted James the first time I met him we're 22 years strong. They can make it" Marie said smiling.
"No, I know that but do you know everything about him? What makes him happy, what makes him tick, what he wants out of life" She asked and I nodded. Of course I knew that. I knew that before we even decided to start dating. "What about his past?" She asked.
"Jen what are you trying to do here?" Marie asked confused. "Open her eyes to show her it's not just kisses and hugs with love. I just want to make sure she doesn't run when things get tough. I want what's best for Cameron, it's been hard for him" she answered and that actually pissed me off a bit. Maybe this is why he didn't want to be around his family much.
"We do too. He's been through a lot in these past weeks and she's been by his side through it all" Marie said. It was as if I wasn't even here anymore. Jen rolled her eyes looking back at me then going down my arm. "What's that on your arm?" I looked down confused and realize she was talking about my tattoo.
"Tattoo" "What does it day?" She asked. "And I never will" "Huh?" she asked confused. "Cameron has the other part" I whispered growing more nervous. I knew this wouldn't help our situation at all.
"Three months and a tattoo?" Jen asked a little displeased. "I think it's cute" Mary said. Diane and Marie agreed. I smiled giving them a low thank you as Jen looked at it. I was getting really annoyed by her.
"What if something happens? Then you're stuck with that?" I took a deep breath.
"No offense Jen, but your opinion about our relationship doesn't really matter. I love Cameron and he loves me. This wasn't even for our relationship, it was for our love towards each other. So even if this wasn't to work out, I still want him to remember I will always be there for him like he would be for me" I said quickly kind of regretting how I phrased it. I think I definitely could have said it a little better.
She wasn't too pleased but what else is new?
"You're too young to say that you love him" she stated. "I don't think I am. He's the most important person in my life. I'm happy and I know it's early but, he's the one I want to spend the rest my life with" I stated looking at all of them then back to her. "That's what we want. That's what we planned to do when we go to California"
"What about your parents? What do they think?" She asked. It has nothing to do with my parents. They like him but even if they didn't, I would still do what makes me happy" I shot back glaring. Why couldn't she just be happy? He was happy so what was the problem?
"Okay let's calm-" Jen cut Diane off. "We want what's best for him" she stated. "That's all I want too. I want him happy just like you. It's been hard for him and I'm doing all I can to show him I am here and make sure he's okay but, I would really appreciate if you didn't judge our relationship. Yes it's only been three months but I don't regret them. We've had a little rough days but they just need what we have stronger. I love him, he loves me and that's all that I honestly really matters. But, being happy for him and not giving him another thing to worry about wouldn't hurt" I said walking out of the kitchen.
I searched for him once I walked out of the kitchen. Maybe he was with his father and if that was true I would just wait. After a few minutes alone I felt a tap on my shoulder and I turned to see Marie smiling. I bit my lip looking down "Listen I know that was out of line but-" "Oh relax will you. She deserved it, she's the oldest so she acts like she knows everything but you shut her up" she said smiling.
"You kn -" "Yes I know you love that boy. We all do and we're happy he has you because honestly he was a lost cause back then" she said and I frowned looking around again to find him outside with his father but he didn't look happy. "I'll be right back" she said and I looked back at her smiling and nodding.
Once she walked away, I walked closer to the window nervous. He was pissed and it seemed to be directed all towards his father once again. Last time that happen, his anger got the best of him. I was hoping it wasn't the case this time but I wanted to be close just in case. I stayed near the window but out of sight from them.
"Cameron you need to relax. You're wr - " You just don't quit do you! It's her birthday and you have her with you the whole time?" Cam roared. I frowned and jump turning as someone touched me. I turned to see Diane with her hands up "Sorry" I nodded with a smile. "It's okay" "You seemed upset. I hope Jen -" I shook my head. "No I'm okay" I lied and she looked out the window as Cameron's voice got louder.
She sighed rolling her eyes "I'll go get them. We're about to say a prayer for Michelle anyway" I nodded as Marie called my name motioning for me to come over as they formed a circle. I quietly made my way over and grabbed her hand as Jen surprisingly grabbed my other. She looked at me and gave me a small smile "I apologize for interrogating you like that" "Don't worry about it" "I was hard on you when I can see he's better with you" I nodded "You don't want him hurt. It's understandable but that's the thing, I want the same thing-"
My mind instantly zoned out as I saw him walking towards the circle joining it across from me. All I did was stare at him but, he didn't look up and I could see he was still tense. I needed to talk to him.
"Let us bow our heads"