"Something wrong?" Cole asked me, after a moment.
"Uhm. Nothing." I said, staring out of the window.
"Are you still worried about Tyler?" He asked me.
"Yeah. A little bit." I said, staring at my hands which were on my lap.
"I don't even know what to do anymore. Like, Tyler wants me to take revenge from James. But I don't want to do it. And when I told Tyler that I won't do it, he said, he'll never talk to me again." I explained.
"Are you sure he loves you?" Cole asked me, and I looked up at him.
"I don't know. I've always shipped him with Jasmine. He should've told me that he loved me. None of the chaos would have happened." I said, looking out of the window again.
"What Chaos?"
"This whole James thing. This wouldn't have happened if I wasn't Jasmine and Tyler's friend."
"It's not your fault."
"It is."
"It isn't."
"It is."
"It isn't."
"It is."
"It is."
"It isn't."
Cole laughed out, and I made a face at him.
"Listen, if Tyler really loves you, then he wouldn't want you to blame yourself. "
I nodded.
"I've never been lucky when it comes to befriending someone." I said, and Cole looked at me from the corner of his eyes.
"You've got so many friends Xandra."
"None of them are actually my true friends. Not even you."
As soon as I said that, I felt my head hit the dashboard.
Ouch.
I rubbed my sore head.
Why the hell did he stop the damn car?
"I am not a real friend of yours? Why'd you say that?" He asked me, and I understood why he stopped the car so abruptly.
"Because you never support me on the right time." I said, still rubbing my head.
"What are you talking about?"
"Remember the fight I had with Kemma? Instead of supporting me, you said that I wasn't your friend. And let's not forget today. When Jessica insulted me so badly infront of the whole school, no one stood up for me. Instead, you went ahead and supported here just like Sam and Chase." I said, angrily I might add.
I heard Cole take deep breaths.
"I already apologised for both the things. How long are you going to blame me? Plus, I did not support Jessica. I was the one who told her to apologise to you." Cole explained, and I swear my sore head was hurting more than ever.
I opened the door, and walked out of the car.
We were on a abandoned road, nothing was there to notice though. There were Street lights on both the sides of the road.
Cole came out of the car as well.
As he walked towards me, his eyes widened.
He walked back to the car, and took out a first aid box with him.
He came near me, and told me to sit on the hood of his car.
I did as I was told.
Cole used some cotton and antheseptic liquid to clean my sore and now burning forehead.
"I'm sorry." Cole whispered.
"It's okay. I didn't know you asked Jessica to apologise to me, though she didn't." I said, before adding an 'ow' when Cole pressed the cotton deep.
"Remember you did the same." Cole reminded me.
A déjà Vu.
"Why did you exactly fight with Travis, though?" I could'nt help but ask.
Cole stared at me for a minute.
"Travis was kind of trying to make a bet with me, about who gets the new hot girl, you." He said, closing the first aid box.
Speaking of bet, I remember something.
"One more thing, you said, you really liked Bethany." I pointed out.
Cole took hold of my waist, and placed me down the hood of the car.
"I did."
"You didn't. She said, you were only using her to win the bet."
"Uhm...I can...explain..."
"Don't. Please don't lie anymore."
"I wasn't alone though. James and Christian didn't like her either."
"I know. I just feel bad that you didn't tell me the whole truth."
"I'm sorry about that too."
"It's okay I guess."
"Do you know, you're the only girl who has ever made me apologise more than once. In fact, I apologised three damn times today."
"Two."
"What?"
"Only two times, Cole. Besides, saying sorry doesn't make you a small person, it makes you the better person."
Cole nodded, as we both walked back inside the car.
$$$$
We finally reached home.
I smiled at Cole, who winked at me.
Now is the time. I should confess.
"I wanted to tell you something." I said, looking at him, only to find him already staring at me.
"Remember when you told me that you liked me..." I trailed off, not knowing what I should say next.
Damn, I'm stupid.
"I don't, anymore." He said, staring dead into my eyes.
My heart dropped.
What the fuck?
"That's because I--" He was cut off because of my phone ringing.
Mom was calling me.
Looking back up at Cole, I gave him a tight lipped forced smile, before excusing myself.
"I'm here mom." I said, before hanging up and getting out of Cole's car before I suffocate and die there.
Walking inside my house, I didn't look back again, I just shut the front door, making sure I slammed it.
Leaning on the door, I realized that I don't know what I am doing anymore.
My life is fucked up.
$$$$
Another day, another start.
I woke up with a bad start, when I remembered my conversation with Cole last night.
He doesn't like me anymore.
I pushed the thought in the back of my head, as I rushed into the bathroom.
I finally decided what I have to do.
Last night, I realized that I was the one changing.
I'm not the girl who used boys and just threw them away anymore.
I'm not the girl who used to prank on everyone anymore.
I'm not the girl who wasn't afraid of saying what she feels anymore.
Now, I'm the dumb girl, who just doesn't know what to do, even though I don't have blonde hair.
I've got to change that. I will become what I was. I don't want to be the helpless girl who is the most clueless girl in the whole world.
In fact, I know I'm the prettiest girl some boys would ever see. I don't need any boy helping me. I'm enough on my own. I don't need anyone helping me with this whole revenge thing, I'll have to help myself.
I picked out a red crop top, and a black little skirt as I got changed.
I wore my black boots as well.
$$$$
Can this be just anymore amazing?
Mr. Springs is absent today (again) and I was told to call the new teacher to our class.
Can't the teacher come himself/herself?
I pushed the gym door open, and sucked a breath in, by looking at the sight in front of me.
Ryder and Chase were passionately making out, not even noticing me.
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