The way he looks at me is very confusing , as if he trying to say something but he keeps changing his mind . I am usually good at reading people's mind but not with him .
My voice was shivering , it was so hard for me to start talking , and I didn't have enough time to come up with a lie .
" I ... Umm was wondering if there's any chance I can switch your class with any other acting class that has the same schedule ? "
His face has changed, he's no longer smiling , he wasn't ready to hear what I just said I think . I already regret it .
His eyes looked disappointed.
" I am afraid there's no other acting class with the same schedule miss Carey " he became more serious.
" The other class is for evening students " he added .
That doesn't fit with my work schedule since I work everyday from 2 to 9 pm .
Running away isn't a good idea apparently.
" May I ask you why ? " his eyes were blaming me.
Why? Because you're nothing but trouble to me . I can't keep seeing you almost everyday and not fall for you , I only knew you for one day and kept thinking of you 7 days after that. You have everything I need in a guy .and for once I've decided to think with my mind not my heart .
" Personal reasons " that was all what i said .
A long silence filled the room . He is looking at me and I am trying to look anywhere else . I know myself , I am weak , if our eyes meet ill be telling him all the truth without blinking , these eyes can kill .
" So you're telling me that you will no longer attend my class? "
This is a difficult question , I don't think I have an answer for it . Between my heart and my mind I chose my mind but ... between my mind and my dream what should i chose ? What will I tell Stacey , this was our childhood dream ! And this was the only affordable college in town . Please God help me .
" I need to think about it " i really do .
My answer made him feel somehow better I can see it , he let out a breath , stood from his chair and leaned on the wall behind the desk .
" Your performance today was phenomenal, I didn't had a chance to tell you , but what you did was amazing , couldn't keep my eyes off you and I'll be sad if a talented girl like you leaves my class "
My heart skipped a beat I felt very shy for a moment , why does everything he says have that impact on me ! How can I leave his class after that huge compliment he just gave me?
" Thank you Mr Alexander, what you...
" please call me Alex " he said interrupting me .
A little smile appeared on my face and I don't have any idea why .
" Thank you Alex , what you just said means a lot to me . I could've done much better , but Jacob wasn't helping that much . He was a bit scared and shy . And he didn't know the music as well , it was too much pressure on him " .
" I know it was obvious, his personality will get stronger with time " he said with confidence. " so the music was your choice ? "
" yes , It is one of my favorite piano music, it's called..
" La agonia de mi gato "... he quickly said with a big smile " it's my favorite too , I actually had performed a dance on this music , it was my final project before graduation " .
I am trying to get away from him and everything in this universe is pushing me to him why? When it is so wrong to fall for someone like him why do things like this happen ? I've discovered that music by mistake on youtube and fell in love with it and it turned to be his favorite music . I'll try to ignore all that and get back on track .
" And how was it" ? I asked trying not to
Focus on anything else .
He let out a very cute laugh and said :
" well , not bad but I did much better than Jacob I assure you "
I couldn't but laugh. Love his self confidence .
The silent came back again , was thinking of a way to break it but whenever he's next to me i think my mind just blocks .
He then grabbed his phone , I thought he's calling someone but instead our favorite music was on , I looked at him wondering what he's doing , he calmly walked over to me directly, then extended his hand and offer it to me
and said :
" May I have this dance ? "