Its been 5 days since me and Essence talked, I talked to Ravenn about it a little to, she said pretty much the same as Essence. There like big sisters to me, so is Diamond and Olivia though
I decided to go ahead and tell Jacob my decision, and see how this is gonna work. I laid across my bed in the dark looking up while the phone rang.
"Hello?"
"Hey"
"wassup"
"I wanna tell you what I wanna do about me and you"
"Ok Hold on"
I heard the tv in his background fade away which means he left that room, it got nice a quiet.
"Ok Im listening"
"Ok I(gco)"
"Are you sure you dont wanna come talk face to face?"
"Its 10:30 pm"
"So, come talk to me.. just talk"
I sighed "Ok"
I hung up the phone and I hadn't changed yet so I went and got in my car driving to his house. When I pulled up he was at the door waiting for me. I should have told him over the phone so I wont have to worry about him staring in my eyes while Im talking. I got out the car walking to him.
"Hey"
"Hi" he hugged me, we walked on in and he shut the door.
"So were are we gonna talk?"
"the basement"
"ok"
We walked down stairs sitting on the couch looking at each other.
"Ok..." I saw him staring me dead in the eyes.
"Jacob"
"yes"
"can you stop staring me directly in the eyes while I talk"
"Why" he widened his eyes looking at me
I laughed, "because"
"Ok"
Why am I nervous? I've been knowing this boy for years.. This is crazy.
"first of all I was talking to a friend about this hole situation... My love for you is 10times stronger then for Ray. I feel like Ray just wants my body and to make you jealous. When it comes to me and you... We've been threw so much together, we stayed strong. The moment we got pulled away I thought I couldnt live with out you and my heart still inst complete with out you. I love you, I want to be back with you."
I saw Jacob smile. "I want you back to"
"What are we gonna tell Ray and Janelle ?"
"you can tell Ray what ever! But Janelle. I'll have to sit and just talk to her."
"So we're together?"
"We havent broken up with them yet"
"Can we just kiss?" I asked smiling
"hmm I dont kno(gco)"
I got on his lap kissing him with tongue, he kissed me back while wrapping his arms around me. We kissed for a minute before pulling away.
"I love you Jacob"
"I love you to"
We looked at each other,
"dam you've gotten so much sexier" Jacob said
"so have you!"
"we've been away from each other for to long"
"I know. Ray will try to fight you for me"
"I'll fight him for you,What ever it takes to have you I'll do it"
"aw"
"so I'll talk to Janelle tomorrow and you talk to Ray tomorrow"
"this is gonna be crazy, my moms gonna be píssed. Im not worried about her"
"dont no body care"
"your 21 now right?" I asked
"your kidding right?"
"No I forgot how old you are" I smiled
"Get out my house" he said playing
"Im playing, I know your 21" I laughed
"Whens my birthday?"
"in April"
"April what"
I looked around the room smiling acting like I forgot.
"uh"
"yea get out" Jacob picked me up throwing me over his shoulder taking me up stairs.
I was laughing "The 21st!" i yelled
"better have remembered!" he threw me on the couch
"but what if I didnt?"
"i wouldve thorn you out the door"
"no you wouldnt"
"yes I would"
"You would really do that"
"yep!"
"what ever!"
"Im just kidding, I wouldnt throw my baby out the door"
"I know, you love me to much"
"aye I aint say all that!"
I laughed, "you love me so much"
"words cant explain baby"
"I should go, its 11:30"
"Or you could spend the night here"
"not yet"
"aw :( ok"
I got off the couch and walked over to the door with Jacob following.
"bye baby"
"bye"
I got in my car calling Ray on my way home because he had called me twice.
"baby"
"yes?"
"why werent you answering your phone"
"I was busy, Im sorry"
"its ok, where are you?"
"in the car"
"at 11 something at night"
"Yea, Im leaving a friends house" i yawned in the phone "Im so tired"
"Go get in the bed"
" as soon as I get home I will and We gotta talk tomorrow baby"
"about?"
"you have to wait and see"
"I hope its nothing bad"
"I'll be coming to your house"
He sighed "Ok"
"bye"
"love you"
"love you 2"
I hung up and pulled in the drive way. I stepped out my car and heard something. My eyes widened, i closed the car door and locked it. I ran around the car headed for the door, it was something going on in those bushes but it felt like someone was in my presence. I was rambling threw all the keys on my key chain trying to find the right key. I found it and turned to the door to unlock it until I dropped the keys. Im about to die. I bent over picking them up finding the key again. My heart was pounding I finally got the door open and ran in shutting it fast and locking it. I ran to my room closing the door.
"The hèll was that" I thought out loud
I changed my clothes and climbed on to my bed. Ok how do I wanna put this? I'll just tell him I dont think this is working to good! NO I'll tell him I dont think he loves me like I love him. Or maybe just tell him I rather be friends now. OMG NO! I cant be close to him if I want me and Jacob to work out! I'll stick to what I said first. I thought about all the possible ways this can go down. I have to do it though! I got under the cover getting comfortable then falling asleep.
Lol Janelle...dont hate me ^.^