I know....it's been too long. I've just been really really busy. I know what's going to happen in this book, though, so when I get the time to write, I'll at least know what to say. Well, I hope you like it.
Pic on right is what Leesy and Adam were doing in the pool.
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DREW
I was laughing. Em had come home and found me at my computer in my room, trying to get a jump on the last part of our partner project assignment. She had helped me work on it, but had left to go talk to my sister. As I was calling it a night where school work was concerned, I heard my text message ringtone go off.
It was from Justin.
"Is Em the girl you're in love with?"
I couldn't help but laugh. This kid was too much. He reminded me alot of Em. If Em and I ever had a son, I wanted him to be just like Justin.
"You knew before I did, Buddy," I replied.
A few seconds later, he texted back, "Yes! I knew it! See you tomorrow for dinner."
I guess Em got us invited over for dinner by running off to help Ellie. It annoyed me that Ellie suddenly needed Em, who she rarely acknowledged, when her life was spinning out of control. Em's selfless response made her even more attractive to me. I could smack myself for believing I belonged with Ellie for so long.
I went downstairs to watch a little TV before dinner. Em and Elise were already in the kitchen fixing a meal. I gave Em a quick kiss on the head before sitting down at the table. Elise's phone beeped.
"Excuse me for a second," she said, leaving the room.
Em and I exchanged looks, but didn't have time to say anything. Elise walked back into the room a minute later. She looked at Em, then at me.
"So, that guy I'm kind of seeing?"
I nodded. "Mm hmm."
"Well, he's coming for dinner, too."
"Already? You hardly know him, Leesy," I said.
"Shh, let her explain," Em said, brushing her hand gently down my arm.
Elise sat down in the chair next to mine.
"Please don't get mad," she said, "but I'm seeing Adam."
What? She was seeing Ellie's potential baby daddy? Why? I tried to remain as calm as possible.
"Um, how on Earth did you end up dating him online, and aren't you afraid he's a dad?" I asked.
Elise cast her eyes toward the ground, looking ready to cry, so Em stepped in.
"If it makes you feel any better, Adam really likes Leesy, and Leesy's liked Adam for awhile now."
I was still working it out in my head.
"Please don't be mad," Elise said, wiping away a single tear that escaped and was running down her cheek.
I sighed. Em walked behind me, then bent down, wrapping her arms around me. Her breasts were touching my head, and for a split second I lost my train of thought thinking about how nice they felt against me.
"Give it a chance," she whispered, her breath causing me to shiver. Now I was really turned on, with no hope of a cure anytime soon.
"Okay, I won't be too hard on him," I said.
"Thanks," Elise said, looking at both Em and me.
"Don't thank me yet," I said.
"You're cute when you're agreeable," Em said.
"Oh, really?" I asked, pulling her onto my lap.
I turned her sideways and kissed her gently on the lips. She returned the kiss, then hopped off my lap.
"I might hurt you," she said.
She was so self-conscious, it was almost annoying. I put myself in her place, though, and I would have probably acted the same way. I reached for her arm, and pulled her back down again.
"If you hurt me, I wouldn't do this," I said.
I began kissing her again, thrusting my tongue into her mouth, making her moan. Her lips massaged mine, causing me to pull her closer. She jumped up suddenly.
"Um, I...I think you've had enough.... for now," she stammered, her eyes darting to my lap.
"Besides, Leesy doesn't want to watch us," she added.
Oops. She had felt the beginnings of my excitement, and jumped ship. Now that my brain was back at the wheel, it was clear.
"Sorry," I said, feeling a warmth start at my neck, then take over my face.
"You guys just need to go get it over with. I can feel the sexual tension from all the way over here," Elise said.
"We're waiting," I said.
Em smiled and sat down in the chair next to mine.
"Wait. You mean you aren't planning on....you know?" Elise asked.
"No. Not for awhile. Maybe not until we're married," I said.
"I don't think I can wait that long," Elise said.
"As far as I'm concerned, you're never having sex," I said. "Especially not with Ellie's maybe baby daddy."
Elise's eyes met mine, her bottom lip quivering.
"I thought you were going to be okay with this. If you aren't, I'll call and tell him not to come over," she said as her eyes teared up again. I felt like such an ass. Emily was staring at me, as if saying, "Fix this."
I walked over and hugged my sister.
"I didn't mean it completely. I just love you and worry about you. I would hate to see you caught up in this mess that he's made. Just be careful. Em trusts him, and I trust her. I'll behave tonight. Let him come over," I said.
She returned the hug.
"Okay," she said. "You'll see how nice he is, though."
"Yeah, he's so nice, he gave Em here her first kiss," I said, disdain evident in my voice.
Oops. Hadn't wanted them to realize that bothered me.
"Well," Elise said, "you were kissing her evil twin at the time."
"Touché, sis," I said.
Em was looking at me with a smile on her face. I loved that smile. I loved her. I wanted to take her out of this room for awhile and....
"Drew? Earth to Drew?" Elise yelled.
"Uh, sorry," I said.
Elise looked at Em. "Watch your back. I think he might try to mount you in your sleep before you're married."
"Ew! Don't say that!" Em squealed.
Elise was being overdramatic, but the truth was, Em was more appealing to me, physically and emotionally, every day. I was overwhelmed when I thought of her.
I heard a knock at the door.
"Adam's here!" Elise said, jumping up to let him in.
She opened the door to reveal a smiling Adam on the other side.
"Hi," he said quietly.
"Hi," Elise said, tucking a stray strand of hair behind her ear. "Come in."
Adam came in and sat down at the table where Em and I were sitting.
"Hi," Em said.
"Hi," Adam replied.
"So," I asked, "any news from Ellie?"
He flinched, and I immediately felt bad. How was I any better? I had broken up with Ellie and was now dating her sister in secret.
"Sorry," I said, "that was wrong of me. I just don't know if it's a good idea for a potential father to be dating my sister."
"I understand completely," Adam said.
"Well, fortunately, it's not up to Drew who I date. Even so, he should be happy that I want to date someone so nice, and courteous, and sweet," she said, staring at Adam.
Geesh. She had it bad. If she felt for Adam anywhere near what I felt for Em, I'd have to lay off. No one would have been able to keep me away from Em. I didn't want to be the one getting in the way of Leesy's happiness.
EMILY
Dinner was actually sort of fun. It was obvious how much Elise and Adam were into each other. They were so fun to watch. I had to wonder if Drew and I were that cute together. Well, Drew was cute, no doubt. But me? I didn't think that was possible, no matter what Drew told me.
I really wished that things had never gotten so messed up. What if Mike hadn't made Drew and I kiss? What if Drew hadn't tried to sleep with Ellie? Or if he had actually slept with her? What if Elise hadn't stood up Adam? What if Adam hadn't walked in on Ellie when both of them were at their most vulnerable?
Ah, it was no use wondering about the what ifs. We had to deal with the here and now. Drew and I were in love. Adam and Elise were pretty close behind us. Ellie was possibly pregnant. Even Mike and Johnny had been affected by the whole ordeal. If Johnny hadn't seen Ellie and tried to get Mike up to see her, those 2 may have never.....gotten together. What a difference one stupid party can make.
At least the 4 of us were able to deal with it in a mature, comfortable manner. Drew behaved himself rather well throughout dinner, having only made that one snide remark toward Adam early on. I was so proud of him. He had come such a long way from the conceited, boastful jock he used to be.
Adam and Elise excused themselves to go swimming. It seems that Elise had told him to bring his swimming trunks. Drew and I stayed to clean up the kitchen, letting the new couple alone.
As we were cleaning up, Drew asked, "I was just wondering, have you thought at all about where this is headed?"
I looked at him. His face was bright red, and he wouldn't look me in the eye. His adorableness was killing me. Was he asking me about sex? Marriage? I wasn't sure.
"What do you mean?" I asked, walking closer to him and putting my arm on his shoulder.
"I mean.....can you see us getting.....married..... someday?" he asked.
"Drew, I love you, I really do, but do you think you're rushing things a little?" I asked.
His face fell, and he backed away from my touch.
"I guess so," he mumbled, opening the dishwasher and putting our dinner plates inside.
"Drew," I said, "please. I can totally see myself married to you. I just don't know if we should be thinking about it before graduation. What about college? Do you want to go to college married? To me, especially?" I asked.
I knew he loved me now, but I was sure that he would meet someone in college that he found more attractive, more exciting, who could offer him more than I ever could. If he married me after graduation, he would feel obligated to stay with me, whether he wanted to or not. I couldn't let him do that to himself.
"Pfft," Drew said. "I can't think about anything other than you. I can't lose you. Ever. We could go to college married. Alot of people do that. And who else would I marry besides you? There is no one else. There won't ever be anyone else."
"I think we should take things a little more slowly," I said. "Let's save the marriage talk for after we tell Ellie, at least."
"Okay," Drew said quietly, as he wiped the table off with a dish rag.
I walked up behind him, not wanting him to be so down. I wrapped my arms around him, and whispered in his ear, "I can't think of anyone I'd rather marry than you, though."
He turned around, and I attacked his lips with mine. He dropped the towel and pulled me closer to him. His tongue caressed my neck before he nibbled on my sweet spot. He knew just how to make me weak with pleasure. I moaned, and his kisses grew deeper, more fervent.
He somehow managed to turn us around, so that I was sitting on the table. He pushed me back, straddling me. As he bent down and covered my neckline in kisses, I couldn't help but let out a soft moan. I wrapped my legs around him, our bodies flush against each other. He leaned down further, his lips meeting mine. I could tell he was excited. As he began pushing more firmly against me, I thought we should probably cool it.
I sat up, saying, "Drew, we need....to stop."
He sneaked in a few quick kisses before listening. He was sweating, his hair was a mess, and he was still pressed closely against me. He eyes were locked on mine, unmoving. His breath was coming out staggered, uneven, and I could feel his hands around my waist, shaking ever so slightly.
"I know," he said, leaning in and devouring my lips with his yet again.
I couldn't pull back, it was like I was stuck there, just.....making sure our lips stayed connected. I snapped out of my daze, pulling away from Drew.
"Really, Adam and Leesy will catch us," I said.
"I don't know what's wrong. I'm just........hungry for you," he said, backing away from me and running his hand through his hair.
His face was red, and his shirt was disheveled. It took all my self control not to attack him. Why did he get cuter by the day? I used to laugh at girls who thought the way I was currently thinking, but this was real. I had very little control over my thoughts.
Adam ran into the kitchen just then. He stopped, taking the sight of me on the table, and Drew's mussed look in.
"Em, is everything okay?" Adam asked, shooting Drew an evil glance.
I smiled sheepishly at him.
"Um, you can't tell anyone, but..." I began to explain.
"I love her, but you can't tell Ellie yet," Drew blurted out.
Adam looked from me to Drew, then back to me. I nodded my head.
"You two? What on Earth?" Adam asked.
"We're going to tell Ellie, but she's too stressed right now. And we don't want to tell anyone else before her. Only Elise knows......and now you," I explained.
Adam was still staring at us. He walked slowly up to Drew, and grabbed his collar.
"Now we're even. You're worried about your sister dating me, and I'm worried about whatever it is you've been doing with my best friend."
He calmly let go of Drew, turned around, and left without waiting for a response.
"Someone has a bodyguard," Drew said, punching me playfully in the arm.
"Don't be jealous," I said. "You can be my protector, too. Adam will realize that you're harmless, and you'll realize that he'll do right by your sister."
He touched his forehead to mine, and his hands landed on my upper arms.
"I hope you're right, Martin," he said, kissing me on the nose.
"Of course I'm right, Drewby," I replied.
ELLIE
I woke up Monday morning feeling queasy, but I also had a headache. That might have been from staying up late searching through pregnancy symptoms. No matter what I did, it was just too early to tell. I couldn't stand the wait. I wanted to know now.
There was a huge history test today, and I really needed an A. I couldn't afford to miss, so I dragged myself out of bed and got ready. After getting dressed and putting on my makeup, I trudged down the stairs and made some toast. It took alot of effort just to choke it down, but afterward, I started to feel better.
"Are you okay?" my mom asked.
"Yeah," I said, before letting out a sigh.
"You don't sound okay," she said.
"I just miss Em," I said.
"See? You might not think so, but the 2 of you really do love each other."
"Yeah, I know."
We sat at the kithcen table together for a few minutes, then I got up, slung my duffle bag over my shoulder, and walked toward the front door.
"See you later," my mom said.
"Bye, Mom."
I drove to school thinking about the mess I had made out of my life. I just wanted to find out I wasn't pregnant, and begin to put the pieces back together. I wanted my life back. I wanted to get through the months until graduation with as little hassle as possible. I wanted a boyfriend, but not necessarily Drew. Drew was a decent guy, but now that I'd been fantasizing about Adam so much lately, I wasn't sure who I wanted. Why was I even thinking about it? No guy was going to look at me if I had a beach ball for a stomach. Not even the one who put it there.
I had thought about it all: raising the kid, abortion, adoption. I wasn't sure which was the best route. If I raised the baby, what kind of life would it have? Would my parents help me? Would they even let me continue to live in their house? Could I give it up for adoption? Would I wonder where he or she was for the rest of my life? What would I tell my other kids when I eventually had some?
Abortion was the other option, and I was very hesitant to even think about it. I knew that Emily was against it. She said it was like murdering a baby. I didn't know where my parents really stood on the issue. I used to think they agreed with Em, but after the way they'd dealt with Mitzy, I wasn't so sure. If they were willing to have a dog put to sleep, what would stop them from thinking that abortion was okay? The only way I could find out what they thought was to talk to them, and I wasn't ready for that. I wanted to know whether I was having a baby first before I crossed that bridge.
I really didn't want to regret my possible baby decision the way I regretted throwing myself at sad, drunk, horny Adam. Come to think of it, what I regretted the most was being so obsessed with losing my virginity. If I would have just kept my legs shut, I wouldn't be in crisis mode right now. I just wanted Emily back home. She had to be getting tired of living with Drew, especially after Elise went back to school.
What did the two of them have in common, anyway? Well, the dog. How much time could you spend talking about or playing with a dog, though?
I guess they had me in common, too. Maybe they spent time talking about how stupid I'd been to let loose at the party like that. Maybe they were both disgusted with me. I was starting to realize how disgusting my actions had been. Maybe if I hadn't bothered Drew for sex all the time, he wouldn't have gone and fallen in love with that other girl. I so badly wanted to know who she was.
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