We had been having dinner for a couple of hours now. The atmosphere had been thick with tension at the beginning of the meal, but now it was getting better.
We had all managed to strike some sort of conversation with everyone, but Beth was the one person who was making it really difficult for others
She eventually excused herself and the atmosphere really lightened up. Hell, the drinks came out in full force and within seconds, everybody but the twins, Scott, Damon and me were wasted. Oh yeah and the pregnant gals.
Poor Jess and Cam looked pissed off at their drunk mates, while they had to stick to drinking water with lemon and ice. Guess how I felt for the past five months.
The baby was due sometime this month and half of me wanted to have the baby now and get it over and done with and the other part of me wanted to wait it out as long as humanly possible.
Damon, I knew wanted the baby to be out, so that we could get back to have sex three times a day and that he could finally get Victoria out of our bedroom, so that she could go coddle over the baby. To be honest I think at this point, Damon cared more about our sex life, than the birth of our child. To be honest, that was completely relatable.
I could see the wine getting to everybody quickly, thanks to the smirk on Jaime's face which proved that he had dropped something in the huge glass sitting in the middle of the table. I shook my head in amusement and gasped suddenly as I felt something hard kick me.
Obviously I had felt the baby kick before, but this was different.
It happened fast, but it was like time was slowing too.
Damon turned to me all smiles, then worry and confusion crossed his face. I looked around the table, trying to control the spasms in my stomach, going as far to clutch my stomach tightly.
Karina pointed at her eyes and I touched my face, feeling the sticky feel of blood. Ray had jumped up and I watched as he and Tristan grabbed Damon and battled to hold him back from me.
I touched my ears, nose and eyes again, feeling the stickiness. I looked down in horror at my light purple dress that was stained with blood.
Normally for humans and wolves that meant a miscarriage, but I couldn't be loosing my baby. Then I felt blood oozing out at a faster rate. I could hear my heart in my ears and within seconds, I was screaming.
The pain. God the pain. It was intense. It felt like I was slipping between life and death. The pain started in my stomach moving down to my abdomen. It felt like something was ripping my organs out, slowly as if it was a torture mechanism.
Blood coated my vision. There was so much blood. I couldn't even feel Damon anymore. I could hear slightly people trying to comfort and hold me down.
There were men's hands on my body, but Damon wasn't there. I could recognise, Scott's and Tommy's touches. I could feel my ladies either trying to reassure me or touching me themselves.
I had realised since recently, that their touches helped. Since the inner circle was now complete, those ladies had powers of their own. To be better Luna's and mothers. I had seen it during the witch ceremony. All they had to do was lay a hand on Damon and he had calmed down significantly. One touch from me and he would be fine and another solution was for all four of them to touch him. I guess it would work on all of the men as well.
My musings were interrupted by another spasm of pain. I had been told that drugs wouldn't work on me. I had to go in for the full ride. Worse than any heat.
I screamed, groaned, pushed, cursed, but nothing happened. I couldn't feel anything. I begged for someone to end this. It was so painful. Too much pain.
Eventually I felt Damon's touch on my head and I leaned forward, so that he could wrap an arm around me. I felt how stiff he was, the amount of anger he was radiating off of him. I don't know why he's constantly angry.
I wouldn't say that it got easier since Damon came, but the end came faster. I slipped in and out of consciousness for a good hour. I'd go and come back with everyone screaming faintly in the background.
I heard the guys try to keep Damon away from the doctor more than once. I couldn't hear or see properly. Everything was ringing and blurry. It was like my brain had decided that I was having a sensory overload and decided to back away.
Then everything went quiet. Dead quiet, you could hear a pin drop quiet. My vision started to clear up, as Karina wiped my face again, free off all the blood.
I saw the backs of the doctors as they worked on my little one. I couldn't hear the baby cry. Wasn't that what they were supposed to do when they were born?
I saw the men all rush, on the heels of Damon who shot a look to me and stalked over to me quickly, pulling me into a hug.
"What is going on?!" I screamed, "Tell me!"
Damon just pulled me tighter, whispering sweet nothings into my ears. I gripped him closer and buried my face into his chest, crying. I couldn't hear anything.
Then I heard it.
The sweet sound of the baby crying. Damon gave me a strained smile and pulled the pillows behind me up, so that I could lean on them properly. He stepped back to his men, who looked at him strangely before shooting looks towards their mates.
"Congratulations your majesties. You have a son." the pack doctor turned towards us with a smile on her face, holding my son close to her chest.
I looked up to Damon, joy evident on my face and a laugh mixed with tears made it's way out of me, "It's a boy. You have an heir now."
He looked at me with something mixed with grief and regret, "I have to go."
Alice looked up at him, her normally happy face twisted into anger, "Don't you dare Damon Ryan."
"This isn't what I wanted!" he yelled and I closed my eyes, trying to shut him out, "I didn't want you to be in pain."
"It's childbirth Damon." I said softly, "You couldn't have possibly expected it to be easy."
He scoffed and shook his head at me, "That's not what I meant." he looked the baby with a frown, "This is why I didn't want this kid."
I gasped and clenched my jaw tight, "You do not want that kid to grow up, knowing that his father never wanted him. So take that back."
"I can't." he rubbed his face, "Jade. I almost lost you today."
The look on his face was heartbreaking and I almost started bawling right there and then, "But I'm still here. Look at me Damon. I'm still here."
"I would rather you alive than a fücking heir for the throne."
"Get out." Scott said cooly
"Scott." I tried
"I said. Get out!" he said angrily, "You don't want this kid. Fine. But you'll regret it one day and you can never take those words back. So get out, before you say anything else you're going to regret."
"Don't use that tone with me." Damon growled
"He's right." Ray spoke up, "Your mate just went through seven fücking hours of labour and you've shown not one glimpse of sympathy for the amount of pain that she's been through."
"I can't do this." Damon threw his hands up and stalked out of the room. Leaving me there, staring after him as he left.
"Luna Queen?" the doctor asked, "Would you like to hold your son?"
"Keep him away from me." I said quietly
"Jade no." Scott frowned, "He's your son. Don't let what that bastard said about him, change your opinion on your son."
"Keep him away from me." my voice raised and I felt the atmosphere in the room change. To something for resigned and lost.
"Jade." Victoria started
"No!" I looked my eyes wild, "I can't raise up my son by myself, knowing that his father basically disowned him the minute he was born. I can't do that to him or myself. So keep him away from me!"
I watched as Victoria picked him up and walked out of the room, with the doctor following. Karina immediately pulled me into her arms and I cried then. Harder than I had screamed through the labour. Harder than I had cried through all the heats that I had been through.
I cried, even though so many people were watching me. Damon's men stayed with me the entire night as I cried, keeping watch, ready to kick Damon out, if he even tried to walk up to the door.
My ladies stayed too, trying to give me comfort. Scott tried. Karina tried. But what can you do, when you loose your son and mate in the same night?