Chapter 6: Just Like A Pill
April
I can't stay on your life support,
There's a shortage in the switch,
I can't stay on your morphine,
'Cause it's making me itch
I said I tried to call the nurse again
But she's being a little bitch,
I think I'll get outta here, where I can
Run just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear you're just like a pill
Instead of makin' me better,
You keep makin' me ill
You keep makin' me ill
[Just Like A Pill: Pink]
"If you don't mind the drive I can def go for some good ass seafood" Alaina said from the back as she rubbed her stomach. Hazel and April already knew what spot she wanted to go to.
"Girl yes I haven't been to the spot in a long while" Hazel added in. April didn't mind the drive. Shit she was dressed and after that little interaction with ole boy she had a little extra pep in her step. She was feeling good.
"I'm down Sammy's Fish Box it is" April stopped at the light and put the restaurant's address in the GPS.
"Bitchhhhh" Alaina exaggerated as she looked down at her phone.
"You must've just seen the same shit I saw" Hazel looked back at her with wide eyes.
"If you're talking bout someone's post on IG then hell yea" Alaina said as they turned their heads and focused on April as if she saw whatever was on IG. Truthfully she had been avoiding social media since yesterday.
"Obviously y'all know something I don't. Care to share" April looked in the rearview mirror at Alaina then glanced at Hazel for a second before focusing back on the road.
"I didn't see this happening but then again I could definitely see his ass doing it" Hazel mumbled chewing on the tip of her acrylic nail.
"So y'all not gonna say anything" April rolled her eyes growing annoyed.
"You've been tagged but I suggest you read it yourself" Alaina spoke up.
"Tagged by who" she raised her brow. Since last night everybody's been tagging her.
"You'll see. Shit I could read it to you but I think it's better if you read it yourself"
"Does this have anything to do with yesterday's events and Christopher" April questioned but neither one of them answered automatically giving April the answer to her question. "If its bullshit I'm not with the fuck shit today" she huffed. Nothing was going to bring her down from this little high she was on.
"Nope, not bad at all but it would be better if you read it yourself" Alaina spoke up.
"Aight bet LaLa" she left it alone.
Hazel took this time to change the subject before April's mood could go left and she was thankful for it. All throughout the ride all she could think about was what the hell was she tagged in this time. April knew if it was some bullshit they'd a came right out and told her already and the fact that they didn't think it was bullshit definitely had her wheels turning. She wondered who mentioned her this time because she was done with the bullshit ass 2 cents people kept adding in commenting and assuming about shit they knew nothing about.
45 minutes later they were in the Bronx in City Island in the parking lot of Sammy's Fish Box. Passing valet her keys the girls grabbed their purses and headed out the lot and across the street inside the restaurant waiting to be seated. Luckily it wasn't a long wait as usual. Seated, drinks, and food ordered they sat at the booth sharing small talk.
"So before I even open up these notifications is there anything I should be warned bout" April looked between the two of them as Hazel shrugged her shoulders and Alaina bit down on her lip.
"Nah just read it. You might be surprised" Alaina said trying to insure her that it was a good thing.
"Bet" she went to her notifications seeing that she had been tagged in a bunch of new shit but the one that stopped her heart, made her throat dry, and awoke the butterflies in her stomach was from the one and only Christopher or better yet Chris Brown himself. Her finger hovered over the notification for a few seconds before she finally clicked on it and it immediately took her to her IG app and his long as post. The table was quiet as the girls kept their eyes glued on April. April read the post out loud to herself as her eyes widened. She couldn't believe he went out his way and stood up for her telling the world he fucked up, that she always had his back, she killed the song, and hash tagged these bitches and niggas to smithereens especially with it being 2 years plus since the last time they saw each other. "Wow" April didn't know what else to say. She was shocked. Her eyes watered and the butterflies in her stomach went on a rampage. Chris was the only man to have her emotions out of whack like this. Alaina moved over closer to her and dabbed the napkin under her eyes before any of her tears could fall.
"How you feeling" she asked as she gently rubbed her back.
"Um I'll be right back. I need to gather myself" April looked at Alaina as she nodded and slid out of the booth to let her out. "When the waiter gets back can one of you order me a double shot of Henny please and thank you" she slid out of the booth and rushed to the bathroom. She needed to get her emotions in check. She didn't expect him to say anything. Honestly April figured he'd see it and just go about his business. Guess not. His post reminded her of the old Christopher. The Christopher she hooked up with and fell in love with from the beginning stages of their relationship. The Christopher who always had her back, the one who wouldn't let anyone even think about saying some fuck shit to her or about her. If only he remained the same. There was no doubt in April's mind that they would definitely be married with a kid working on number 2 or 2 kids working on number 3. You know the shit they both talked about and yearned for when they first got together. But hey guess everything happens for a reason. What happens now? Does he expect anything in return for actually having her back?
April looked at herself in the mirror and dabbed her eyes with some tissue making sure the little make up she did have on was still intact. She wasn't about to fuck up her makeup especially not over Chris nope not today.
"Who are you? I'm April Elegance Blackmon. I'm beautiful inside and out and Chris is NOT and WILL not fuck up my day" She chanted to herself and chuckled. "I'm that bitch" she shot herself a quick smile and picked up her head holding it up high as she made her way out the bathroom door and back to the table. "Bitches I'm backkkkk" she laughed as Alaina got back up allowing her to slide back into the booth.
"Good cause I was bout to come and drag ya ass out in bout 2.5" Hazel looked at her and she knew she was serious.
"Before y'all even ask I'm good for the moment and we'll discuss this when we get home" April picked up the shot glass filled with Hennessy, took it to the head, and begin digging into her food.
"Say now more" Alaina nodded.
Stomachs stuffed, to go containers packed, and check paid they were back inside the truck and on their way back to April's place.
"Ok ladies once y'all finish taking y'all bags to y'all rooms meet me in the she cave" April said as they entered the house.
"Bet" the girls said as they all made their way upstairs and to their bedrooms. Hazel and Alaina both had bedrooms at her place decorated to their liking. Well Alaina actually lived with April. Alaina had moved and transferred schools when April up and left LA. She wasn't about to let her sister be by herself while she was in the mental state that she was. That was the type of bond they had. They both went to bat for each other no matter what. That's how they were raised.
As soon as April entered her bedroom she dropped her bags in the middle of the floor and took off her heels making a mental note to put everything away later. She grabbed her phone, charger, stepped into her Hello Kitty slippers, and walked down to the very end of the hall and stepped in front of the she cave door. It was the female equivalent room to a man cave hence why she called it the 'She Cave'. It was a room made and customized by her and for her. It's a room where she liked to spend most of her time in. The only way you could get inside was if you knew the passcode and only 3 people knew it and that's how it was going to stay. Obviously her little sister, her bestie, and April knew the 6 digit passcode. April put the 6 digit passcode in only to be greeted by her 2 favorite chicks besides her mama. Guess they were all on the same page because they were all still dressed but each had on their slippers. Guess they were really feeling their outfits. Hey that's how it was sometimes. You know you like your outfit so much you don't feel like changing you just want to be all cute for a little while longer.
The she cave was one of April's favorite rooms in the house. It was a massively large room with cocaine white walls, black and white marble tile flooring with lavender, black, white, and chrome décor. It had a plush white rug in the middle of the room in front of the large white leather sectional that sat underneath a chrome mirrored coffee table. There was a chrome and diamond chandelier that hung from the ceiling the illuminated just right when the lights shined on it. A 70in flat screen TV resided on the wall while the sound system, TV gadgets, and other décor lay on a chrome mirrored TV stand unit. There was a custom made chrome bar that resided in the corner of the room that had all of their favorite liquors and mixes as well as a chrome fridge beside it that hosted everything they would need to make drinks as well. The walls had glam styled mirrors in strategic places along with pictures of each of the girls in different stages of their lives. Artwork of different shades and sizes of black women also adorned the walls. In another part of the room was a station just for makeup because she liked to play in it and wear it. Lavender, black, and white pillows rested on the sectional. There was also a half bathroom in it as well. Different lamps stood in different places in the room. Honestly they all loved room.
Hazel was at the chrome bar making drinks, Alaina was chilling on the sectional on her phone looking for the perfect song to set the mood while April was in her stash spot behind one of her many mirrors grabbing a few pre rolled blunts that she had rolled earlier that morning, a lighter, and a peach scented incent. Lighting the incent she set it in its rightful place and plopped down beside Alaina. As soon as she got comfortable she stuck two blunts in her mouth and lit them at the same time passing one to Alaina as Hazel joined them with a tray of mixed fruity drinks. They already knew the drinks were going to taste fruity but was going to sneak up on their asses nonetheless. Those were the types of drinks they called sneaky bitches. Alaina took a few pulls passing the blunt to Hazel as April passed the blunt she had to Alaina as they officially started the rotation.
"Ok bitch shoot" Hazel said passing her the blunt and picked up her drink ready for April to unload all of what she had been holding in.
"Y'all brother got me in my fuckin feelings" April leaned back into the couch getting comfortable. "Like I know it's been a few a years but the love I have for him is still there and doesn't seem to be going anywhere any time soon" she sighed. "I try and try to rid myself of him but I can't no matter how hard I try. Sure I loved or thought I loved another man before him but he's the one that I loved to the moon and back. I thought Twin was my first love but no it was his ass. I didn't expect him to say anything. I knew he would see the post the shit went viral but for him to defend me the way he did reminded me of Christopher and not Chris Brown; the Christopher who gave a fuck bout me and held me down. It hurts that we can't even be friends anymore. I gave that nigga all of me" April sipped on her drink then took a few pulls from the blunt. The Kush Gods were blessing her right now. "I gave him my all and he left me with nothing but a shattered heart and a bunch of insecurities I never had before" she looked between the two of them as they let her vent.
"All of you in the crew knew that I was fighting so hard to keep my relationship even if I didn't tell y'all what was going on. Chris was Holyfield and I was Tyson. I was doing anything to keep us together. Sure y'all seen the fuck shit going on outside like everybody else but behind closed doors I was going through it" April didn't know why she was letting everything out of the bag but she was extremely tired of holding it in. It was exhausting. "Every day for bout 3 years I walked around outside with a smile on my face no matter what was going on between us and what was being said but as soon as I walked inside that damn house my soul collapsed, my heart beat funny, and tears tugged at my eyelids. I was shattered and broken still trying to fix something that was broken beyond repair. I begged that man on my hands and knees to love me like he used to. Trying to keep him with sex and he know like I know he'll never experience another tight wet pussy like this again and what gag reflex bitch I ain't got one" she chuckled and wiped her eyes as they looked at her not knowing what to say.
"I went through a lot with him and no one knows what actually took place but I'm not one for spilling my tea like that. What goes on in my relationship is between the 2 people in it. So yeah that post shocked me and I don't know whether to tell him thank you or say fuck you" she put the roach in the ashtray and finished off her drink.
"You don't have to tell him shit but whatever you choose to do we are right by your side" Alaina hugged her tightly while Hazel joined in and that's why April loved her girls they were always there for her.
"After all the shit you just let out I really think you should talk to him. I knew shit was fucked up but not like that. Of course we seen what was on social media but to know what you were doing and going through just for him to get back right I really think you need to let him know how you felt and still feel just to help yourself move on in a new direction. Bae you are a great woman and you deserve someone who will love you more than themselves. You deserve the world mamas. One day there's gonna be a man who sweeps you off your feet that was made for you and only you and love you wholeheartedly" Hazel said as she looked April dead in the eyes. "Don't even go looking for him. He'll find you" she kissed her forehead.
"I love you bitches" April smiled at them.
"We love you too" they both said with smiles plastered on their faces.
"You know what? I think I will hit up Chris. Its bout time I get back to me. I'm not trying to block any more of my blessings in the men department"
"Bitch" Alaina bust out laughing. "Do you sista"
"Bet" April snatched her phone off the coffee table and went into IG finding his post and sent him a DM saying thank you and left it at that. Whatever happens next it is what it is.
They left the subject alone and chilled just snacking, drinking, smoking, and dancing just enjoying themselves. Of course Alaina and Hazel's boos called checking in on them and April. Hazel was dating Tremaine one of Chris's homies which happened to be Trey Songz to the outside world. They've been together for almost 4 years while Alaina was dating another one of his homies August Alsina and they've been together for about 3 years. Each of them at the moment was happily in love and April wished them nothing but the best. Being as though they're dating Chris's friends they see him often but they don't discuss him with April which she was thankful for.
"Sista ya phone going off" Alaina tapped April. April's ass had zoned off as they all lay on the floor starring at the ceiling. Lifting up her phone she couldn't help but smile.
Should April talk to Chris or try to move on without letting him know how she felt and still feels?
Chris & April's relationship how do you guys feel about it?
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