It's been a few weeks since I been able to make another entry and update. But I found some spare time in between work right now and came back to hit yall with Entry 3.
I think i learn something new every day. It's constantly the same bad shit I see but I get a new lesson out of it too now. Im open minded as fuck. I will hear you say alot of shit, I will listen and consider the stuff before you get a reply or response from me. Im not your average nigga. And I dont want to be. The next most important rule is - KEEP ONE EYE OPEN. You can't fully trust everybody, And you ain't ever safe. If you got a spot in the game, You have enemies. And in the game they dont give a fuck if your at yo mamas funeral they will try to kill your ass.
I keep my glock every where I go, I keep my eyes open and myself alert. Its a bible and a .45 next to my pillow. Cause I never know when they are bout to hit me. I guess The streets taught me every thing I know too but I can't just blame them for the nigga I am. I made the choices I made, i became who I am because I wanted to. Certain situations make you look back on shit and think. I dont hate the person I am, You ain't gon find a nigga like me. They don't do what I do but I know I could be a better nigga. I did alot of shit to live this lifestyle and be where I am...
Was it worth it? Sometimes I don't even know. I killed, beat, sold drugs, and robbed niggas to be here. I was living in a shelter with my mama and brother at one point. I wore shoes from John 3:16 church. walkin to school 16 blocks. Now I got six Cars, 4 houses, and I do what the fuck I want and buy what the fuck I want. You will hard see me in the same pair of clothes.
Everything comes with a price. Nothing in this world is free. what you got to do to get where you want, thats the big problem, And the question is - IS IT WORTH IT??
I can speak for myself. I aint never going back to them foodstamp , section 8 days. You wont catch me. I busted my ass to be where I am. Im glad I did so too.
Signing out for the night ,
- Ant.
10:17 pm.
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I closed the laptop with a sigh. I be feelng like a bitch with these entrys now. Its weird to me, But somebody got to say the shit. If I don't who will.
" Hello " I answered the phone.
" Meet me at the club, I got a free night " Kilo says into the phone and I could hear his boys behind him talking.
" Platinum? "
" You already know, kid " He replied. I nod my head like he could see me.
" Ight , fam " I told him. " Im on my way " He replied with a ' bet ' and we disconnected the call as I rose up from my spot on the couch. I headed up the stars and down the hall into my closet room looking for something to wear. White sounded good as fuck right now. I flicked through the racks intil I found the white Versace pants, A white Gucci Tee tall tee and a gucci belt and Versace drawls. I got my all white Forces and socks and headed to take a shower. I got init for a good 20 mintes and cleaned up before stepping out and throwing the fit together. I let my hair down and added a few chains and a rolley. Picked out a good pair of Ray bans and checked myself in the mirror.
" Ill nigga alert, ill nigga alert " I laughed at myself putting on some cologne. When I done and looking good I grabbed my wallet and some bands and headed out the door getting in the cocaine white Bentley.
.Yeah it was worth it!
When I pulled up to the spot the line was long and the lights was flashing. I parked my car across the street in a different lot in case some shit happened and I had to be out in time. I got out the ride and locked it up setting the alarm and heading across the street. Being recognized by the bouncer he let me right in " Yo brotha in V.I.P , Ant "
" Ight, G " I dap him heading inside. It was 3 stripper poles in the middle of down stairs and there was strippers working them. There was a dance floor a little away then the dj booth and bar across the opposite side. I headed to the stars and to the second level V.i.P passing security. " Hey, Ant " I nod my head watching the females walk through. bad bitches were all through the building.
" Where my brotha? " I question.
" All the way in the back , Kid. He got bottles already "
" Word " I parted through the people and headed to my fam. As soon as they saw me them niggas started dapping me up.
" You good , G? " Kilo asked pulling me in for a hug. I nod my head hugging him in that many way. " Im straight. Just gritting " I tell him sitting down next to him.
" We bout to relax and shit tonight. I aint order 35 bottles for nothing " Cuz says making me shake my head.
" Shit hook me up, I need the break on my moms " I told him looking around to scope the scene. I had my heat just in cause but everything was looking fine so far.
" I got you, nigga. Dont trip "
Taking the bottle I unscrew the cap and took a sip from the bottle. There was a small tingle as it went down my throat and little burn when it hit my chest. But it felt good.
" Its alot of bad bitches in here tonight, You can get a babymama " Kilo tease. I laughed.
" Hell nah, I dont need no kid and definitely not from no bitch i meet in the club " I shake my head. When I have kids, if I ever do its got to be from a female I actually rock with and trust. I aint trying to just be no sperm donner to a check collector. We aint got to be together and married but damn. We got to be on a damn good level. Im crazy but im not stupid.
" Man, you better find you something to hit "
" Or ima find it for you "
I shook my head at these niggas. But somebody did catch my eye, There was one female walking by with a group of females.
" Yall see her? " I asked.
" Im a redbone light skin nigga, she fine though "
" Nigga what color got to do with anything? " I smack my lips.
" Everything, Lightskin girls got the best pussy " We laughed at him.
" Fat girls too. I aint gon lie, I had my share of big bitches. And they were wet " My brother says sitting back. " best neck I got to..funny cause they aint have no neck " He adds.
" Yall niggas some dumb asses " I say watching her go and sit with her females. She had a coke bottle ass shape. Ass ridiculous and she had a long ass weave in. She was a brownskin mocha color girl, the bitch was fine as fuck.
" Send her a bottle of Ciroc on me, Peach " I tell the female that filled our glasses
" I gotchu " Ion trick but If I see something good I might spend a little bit just dont tell nobody. I watched as she got the bottle and the waiter pointed to me. She looked my way and I just gave her a simple nod. She smiled and waved at me and I just turned back to the boys waiting on it. There was some strippers on the pole in the middle of the circular section doing lesbian shit.
" Like Gotti say, If i tell you to eat her pussy you better not be mad cause you shouldnt have gave me the wrong picture " Choppa quoted Errybody.
" Thank you for my bottle " The girl comes up. she had finished the bottle and sat with her friends.
" You welcome, it was nothing " I replied. It wasn't but it caught me her attention.
" My friends said thank you also "
" Whats ya name, ma ? " I asked her
" America " She smiled. " You? "
" Ant but everybody call me Choppa. Either is fine " I tell her.
" It was nice meet you , Ant. Maybe ill see you around again. "
" How about you give me yo number and we make it happen? " I asked. She smiled looking down then moving her hair out her face.
" I- Cant...I - " She shuttered. I laughed shaking my head.
" Nah, you dont owe me no explanation. Go bout yo night, Lil Ma. " I tell her.
" I'll see you around " I nod my head and she walked off.
" Always have a back up plan nigga " My big brother says lowly.
" Deseree, This Choppa. Ant this Deseree "
" Hey " She smiled. She looked mixed and shit. Fuck a 10 her ass was a 15. She was fine as fuck. I never trip about a female. Too much pussy in the word to be upset over one, that might not be no good. It is what it is.
" Wassup, Lil ma " I smiled at her.