Renata wasn't sure what to expect when it came to her first sexual encounter, but she would have never imagined it to take place on a dark and stormy night during a time where there were three children in the house. James seemed to come to the realisation of that as well, but he actually seemed to enjoy the aspect of a challenge, to remain as quiet as possible. He could sense Renata's nerves when she broke away from the kiss first, each little kiss afterwards avoided his lips whether they were pressed into his cheek or collarbone. Her breath was somewhat shaky, as were her hands as he felt them lingering over his arms and back.
Not wanting to pressure her into the act, James moved away slightly to face her. "Ren, if you're not comfortable, we don't have to...we can just go to sleep, I'm alright with that too."
"It's not that," she whispered in the dark, thankful that he couldn't see how hard she was blushing at the time, " it's just I don't have any...experience with any of this. It's my first time."
Normally, the topic of her virginity never bothered her, she was fine not having sex because she had yet to find the right person to share the experience with when she was back in Italy. While others raved about it and shared their stories of the adventurous ways they experimented with, Renata never felt the need to jump into it. And in a way, she was glad that she had waited, especially if her first encounter was going to be with James. From the way he had asked her if he could kiss her on their first date, he made it clear that he was only willing to go as far as she was comfortable with.
That allowed her to feel safe and somewhat in control of the situation. However, it didn't completely erase all the nerves because she didn't want to come across as an idiot during her first time either. She could assume that James had far more experience than her, the proof being little Harry. So it left her feeling like she was going to do something wrong or not do enough and that made her hesitant about continuing.
Very similar to Sirius' reaction when he learned of her "innocence," James seemed rather surprised as well as the familiar term "really" came into play as he questioned her.
"I don't mean it in an offensive way," he told her, " I just figured that since you...well, I guess it doesn't matter what I thought, does it? I was wrong, but you don't have to be nervous. I'm not going to hurt you, I promise-"
"I'm not afraid of you hurting me, James," she said, " I'm afraid that I'm not going to be good enough."
She heard a light chuckle before James pulled her into a hug. "There's no such thing as not being good enough," he whispered into her hair, "it's a learning experience for both people involved."
"It is?"
"Yes," he said kissing just below her ear, " you learn what I like and I learn what you like. From that point on, it only gets better."
"Oh," she managed to get out, " well, that doesn't sound so bad. Actually, it doesn't sound bad at all. Am I talking too much?"
James couldn't help but laugh, but he was glad that he was able to laugh because it broke the tension. He remembered his first time where he almost wasn't able to go through with it with Lily because he was panicking far too much. In fact, while he would always remember his first time, there were aspects of it that he didn't want to remember because it left him feeling a sense of secondhand embarrassment over himself.
Rather than answering her question verbally, James just took to kissing her again, keeping attention off of her nerves and on something else. Eventually, he could feel the tension from her body ease as she became relaxed in his hold. And they worked back their way to her touching and kissing him again, rather than remaining still.
While James was mindful of her every movement and sound, Renata was being more attentive to herself in the beginning. She was practically holding her breath during some instances, not wanting to make any noise that would stir the children. Not to mention, they were both keeping an ear out for any sound of one of the boys getting up from bed.
Slowly but surely, James began to undress her and while Renata had never felt self-conscious about her body before, she was suddenly aware of every inch of her skin. Although she couldn't help but surpress a giggle whenever James would pull away for a second to give her a chance to say stop. But she didn't say anything because she didn't want him to stop, after their little conversation that mulled things over, she was feeling fine with things proceeding. To show him that she was okay, Renata moved her hands to remove James' shirt.
That seemed to be enough to get things really moving as James remained in place for his turn as Renata undressed him. She seemed slow with her actions as well, perhaps fearful that he would tell her to stop at one point and claim that he wasn't ready. However, James didn't feel any sense of guilt and there wasn't much of anything else on his mind besides her.
Once they were both fully undressed, James and Renata were suddenly aware of how cold it was in the room with the cold air greeting their skin. The blankets had been pushed away and James was just thankful that Renata slept without a bra on because the clasps were just the absolute devil in clothing form.
Although Renata did take the chance to cover her chest at one point as she had never been so exposed to another person. Of course, it was dark in the room, but James was close to her and just feeling the bare skin of his chest against her arms was enough to send her senses into overdrive.
Since her sight was limited, she had to rely on all the other senses that suddenly felt heightened in the room. And while James couldn't see, he could feel as his hands ran up her sides, following the trail of her body as he muttered to himself.
"Sweet Merlin..." she heard, bringing her cheeks to become warm, before she offered a playful "shh" since they had agreed on being quiet. In response, James gave her arm a playful nibble that caused her to gasp in surprise before he "shh'ed" her right back. Rather than waiting for her to say anything, James brought her into another kiss and had her lay back down next to him.
There was the familiar sense of an increased heart rate in her chest and Renata figured if she kept it up she was going to be experiencing heart problems before she even turned twenty-fives years old. However, she couldn't complain about the increasement as James' lips against her chest was awfully distracting in the best way possible. And if that wasn't enough, he was allowing one hand to explore the rest of her body while the other touched her hair.
It seemed he was taking the task of learning what she liked solemnly.
Although it seemed whatever Renata liked, James seemed to like as well because she let out the slightest squeak when she felt him become aroused. His body was pressed into her side and she could barely bring herself to swallow as there was a hum in her throat.
She would admit, to herself, that it was rather awkward initially, even if she was aroused herself. All the new sensations, not to mention, experiencing James in a new way was awkward that she wondered if all the people that had bragged about their first time being so mind-blowing from start to finish were actually being honest. Sure, she was having a great time, but there was still those little stolen moments in time where she couldn't help but think "what was that? " or "Is this normal?"
James was becoming more intimate with her body than Renata had ever been as he touched places that she didn't bring herself to touch because she didn't feel the need to. However, when he started touching her in all the undiscovered ways, Renata didn't want him to stop. And eventually, rather than remaining rigid and in control of everything taking place, Renata just allowed her body to just go with it.
Every foreign feeling was welcomed as she moved to the same rhythm of James' hand and closed her eyes. Her words of encouragement were soft, but James could tell that he was where he needed to be by the grip of her hands grasping at the sheets of the bed. It brought an unseen smirk to his lips as every so often the flash of lightning would give him a glimpse of her as she moved with him. How could he resist in those moments and just to have the last teasing motion, he could sense Renata was close to her moment of climax but he didn't give her the satisfaction right away as he moved.
There was a moment of confusion as Renata nearly had to shake herself out of a state as she had been lost in a sensual loop. However, she didn't have to question what was taking place for long as she felt James' hand return to the inside of her thighs as he slowly positioned himself in front of her. Slowly, he lowered himself to hover over her, bringing her into another kiss as she remained parted for him.
The reds of their lips meshed well into colours that only they could see in the dark and Renata took to reaching her hands up to rest on his back.
And while they had been enjoying their silent game of "no talking and no noises" during, Renata heard James whisper her name against her lips as his hips sank before pushing into her. The quiet game was over as if felt like all the air had rushed out of her at once, leaving her to let of a shaky huff. She didn't know whether to describe it as painful at first, but it quickly subsided as the hand that been close to her hair, ran its fingers through and held onto it.
Her hands held onto him for a moment, a little unsure of what to do with them at the time as her mind was all over the place. But eventually, they found their way into his messy hair, pulling him into a strong kiss as their bodies moved in to his thrusting.
Now she understood what everyone had been talking about, the feeling itself was somewhat addicting because every bit of movement counted within her sensitivity. But still she was glad, she had waited because she didn't think her first time with anyone else would have been as pleasant as what she was experiencing. His movements were slow and it was almost as if time had slowed down, she couldn't even hear the sounds of the thunder or the rain outside, she could only hear his breath against her ear as her legs wrapped around him.
Occassionally, he would mutter out her name and it left her feeling weak as he only seemed to grow strong. For everything that he was doing and everything that she was making him feel at the time, sh e wanted to thank him, but she figured yelling out "thank you" was probably inappropriate during sex. She would only show her gratitude by whispering his name back or the soft noises that escaped her beyond her control.
But James had other ways planned where she could thank him as he unexpectedly grabbed her by the waist so they could switch. The fast movement was like a whirlwind where Renata suddenly found herself straddling him as she was suddenly on top. A low chuckle emitted from him as he could sense her dazed response to how things had changed so quickly.
"It's alright, Ren," he whispered as he could feel how nervous she was as if she had been placed in the spotlight and expected to pull out an amazing performance. "Just move with me."
His hands came to rest on her hip bones and his thumbs dug in slightly as he began to move her to slowly rock with his rhythm. With her legs bent, Renata leaned forward, one of her hands coming to rest on the bare chest before her. Eventually, when she began to rock with him independently, James removed his hands from her hips and began to explore again.
They travelled to her back, where he noticed for the first time that Renata had adorable little back dimples parallel to one another, which brought him to smile. Despite her earlier nerves about it being her first time, James didn't find himself complaining about anything and it seemed she was having a good time as well. It was just the unfortunate aspect of biology that all good things involving sex eventually had to come to an end.
James felt it coming and even if he didn't want it to end, he really didn't have much of a choice. His hands went back to her hips holding her in place as he finished, which puzzled her initially because she didn't know why he was stopping until it was extremely clear. It sounded like he had been holding his breath for so long as he exhaled and tried to catch his breath. He hoped that he hadn't gripped her too hard, but he heard no sounds of pain emitting from her during.
He did release his grip and open his eyes, only to be greeted with silence before Renata spoke.
"Should I get off or-"
He didn't want her to think that he was laughing at her but he couldn't help it because he found her questions really cute.
"No, I'm not done with you yet," he said.
Renata thought because she didn't reach her climax before him or at the same time as him that she had missed her window of opportunity, but James was proving that wrong rather quickly as he took charge of her again. And while it was expected, it was unexpected at the same time as she reached her own climax. The build up had left her in anticipation, but not knowing the second it was going to happen until it did had left it to be almost like a pleasant surprised. The feeling didn't just effect her lower half either, she could feel it course through her entire body as it caused her to curl her toes and grip James' hair harder as if she was holding on for dear life.
But as it washed over her, Renata was left to collect her own breath as James rolled onto his back and placed his hands on his chest.
If it wasn't such an energy consuming task, she would have been a cheeky devil and suggested a round two, but she couldn't even feel her legs at the time.
James was the first to speak though as she pushed her hair out of her face that had been plastered to her sweaty brow.
"How do you feel?"
For a moment, Renata felt like it would be really cheesy to answer with "euphoric" even though her body was feeling pleasantly numb for the most part. However, there was something that had crossed her mind as she laid there, completely still.
"Sweaty."
Thinking James would take offence to what she said, she clapped her hand over her face only until she heard him snort before he started laughing.
"Yeah, me too," he replied, "why don't we get a shower in before bed?"
"Together?!" she blurted out before feeling like she really needed a swift punch to the head. They had just finished having sex and suddenly she was feeling shy about showering with him, what was wrong with her mind?
"I mean, a shower...sure! That sound wonderful. There's really only one problem though..."
"And what's that, Ren?"
"I can't feel my legs."
The two of them were in a state of giggles as James pushed himself up and made his way around the bed to help Renata up. Not that he was looking for a confidence booster, but the fact that Renata was barely able to walk after left him feeling pretty good about the whole ordeal. He helped her stand and it really did seem like her legs had turned to jelly at the time as he helped her to his shower.
In the light, he could see the back dimples that brought the smile to return and he could only help her steady herself as he turned on the shower and adjusted the water to their liking. Using most of her upperbody strength, Renata held onto his arms, feeling somewhat bashful about presenting herself completely nude to him. It was one thing in the dark but both of them standing in front of each other fully exposed left her feeling quite shy.
James had tried couple showers once before with Lily, but it didn't necessarily come across as romantic as he had once planned. Unfortunately, it sounded a lot easier than it was especially when both people were trying to get most of the hot water. Both of them had been left shivering and the shower came to an abrupt end with nothing remotely romantic happening. However, since Renata was holding onto him for support, they weren't really fighting for the water at the time.
He was allowing the majority of the water to pour on his back as Renata leaned against him. At one point he did move and it was like she had gotten a bucketful of water thrown in her face causing her to feel like she was drowning.
"Sorry..." he said as he turned his back to the water again. " Didn't mean to drown you."
She said nothing, only smiled as she closed her eyes and allowed the warm stream of water that came over his shoulders to run over hers. He couldn't resist the moment to touch the dimples again in amusement before she peered up at him.
"What are you doing?" she asked.
"Just discovering that everything about you is adorable."