Dear readers of all kinds,
prepare to be confused~~~~~
Fighting!!!!!!!!
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'You have to be strong, like your grandfather'
'You have to be strong, like your father'
'You have to be as strong as your brother'
'But I'm a girl?'
'It doesn't matter'
'But other girls my age, never fight to be strong'
'Do it for the family name. It's a must.'
'Okay, for the family'
Where were my family when I needed them?
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'What are you doing???'
'Watching the way of a lady?'
'No, you have to go watch your father and brother clash their swords at the field'
'But aren't I going to be a lady soon?'
'Soon is not now'
'But how about little sister?'
'She is not you, now go'
What were my real ways, when I was taught a different one?
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'Wrong! You have to kill it without mercy'
'But it's just a little bunny?'
'This is training, regardless if it's a kitten or a baby duckling, we have to kill our target'
'But-'
'The strong defeats the weak. Strike first unless you want to be one who got struck down, do it for the honor later on '
'Okay, for the honor'
What's the use of honor when all I've been taught to do was to defeat the weak?
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'No!!! You can't wear that!'
'But it's mine?'
'Strong girls don't wear dresses. Girls like me, who is petite, suits them more'
'But the party requires girls to wear dresses'
'Here wear these, Mother send it for you'
'But it's not a dress ?'
'Respect your elders decision'
'Okay, I'll respect them'
What's the use of giving respect when all you were going to receive, is stares of being looked down upon.
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'You have to marry me for you are, the strong one'
'I refuse'
'I'll find a way, for I am stronger than you'
'I'll defeat you then'
'There are many ways that I can use, such as underhanded or force'
Why can't I have a happy occasion for once in my life?
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'I heard the news, here, I'll help you'
'Thank the fates that you're here!'
'I'll help you this once because you have saved me before'
What's the use of favors, when all you get in the end is backstabbers
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'She's the first wife who got replaced with the second in just a day'
'Keep talking about me for I can't refute'
'How pitiful, her essence is getting weak'
'My body is half paralyzed and the strong me is no longer present'
'She's going to be sent away'
What's the use of being strong when my emotions can still consume me and defeat my will all the more.
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At first, have to do things for my family.....
Now, my family no longer care for my being.....
For they did not search for me when I was gone.
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They cared for me to become strong.....
If I'm not strong in any combats, are they going to label me as a weakling, forever?
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I thought my siblings would lend the littlest help.....
But they too, are busy with their ways that mine was not worth their eyes.
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People are given voices to speak,
Gifted with sights to see,
But foul words is what I kept hearing the most.
Gazes full of bad intentions is what I saw the most.
What if one day,
They just stop.
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When?
When did they change?
When did the world change?
When did I change?
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Is it for the better?
Or worse?
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