You know that feeling when you feel like the last hope you have been holding on is now gone and there is no trace of it.
That was happening to me.
I felt my heart is shattering into little pieces and it was crushed by the man who helped in bringing me to life.
The man that is supposed to be my father.
Who took the last part of my mom that was alive from me.
My mom's room is no longer her room.
The room doesn't have her scent anymore nor any of her drawings or belongings.
The room was redecorated and was now filled with chairs and sofas.
M..my mom was truly gone for me now.
There is nothing left from her anymore.
And that's because of that monster and his witch.
I will kill them.
I will fucking kill them right now!
And with that last thought on my mind, I stormed towards the room he was in but didn't find him in it so I went downstairs to the room that I am sure will find them at.
"David!!" I screamed, storming downstairs my voice roaring in that empty cold house. "You fucking asshole!!!"
I rushed into the room that I thought about and found them there.
"What do you want? Why are you screaming like that?" Saby shouted.
"Shut up you damn bitch. I don't want to hear your disgusting voice!" I snapped at her.
"Watch your language Mia and watch who you are talking to." David threatened arching his brow.
"I am not watching anything you bastard!! Why did you do it? And what the hell have you done to her things?" I yelled at them while his lips curled up in a knowing smirk.
"Oh your mother's room, you already found out." He stated calmly getting on my nerves on purpose.
"Answer me for fuck's sake," I yelled again not taking any more of his bullshit.
"I made Saby redecorate it and burned everything in that disgusting room as soon as you ran away." He stated calmly." I thought you would be dead not coming back."
And with that, I couldn't hold it in anymore." You fucking absurd asshole. You are a greedy monster. You have been threatening me with it and you had already got rid of it. You fucking bastard you took everything from me. You already made my life a living hell, you ruined me why did you have to take the last good thing away from me as well. Why the fuck did you bring me to that damn life if you were going to torture me and not be my father!"
"Because I never wanted you in the first place!" He snapped at me." I never wanted children I was forced to marry your damn mother because of my dad who wanted an heir after me, so you were only business to me as well and will stay like that till I say I don't need you."
"What is all that yelling about?" I heard the voice that made me feel safe from behind me." Did he touch you? I couldn't wait for you after I heard all the yelling." Jason held my arms checking for any injuries.
"What the fuck are you doing in my house? And what are you still doing with her?" David yelled at Jason.
"I hate you damn monster and don't talk to him like that. And I swear I will end your fucking life you and that bitch of yours for taking everything from me like that!" I screamed at them then made my way out of that damned house. I soon jumped on my motorcycle and started racing with the wind even when I heard Jason calling for me to wait.
But I couldn't wait anymore. I had to get away from all of that. I need my safe place. I need to let all of that out.
As soon as I arrived at the beach. I ran to my usual spot that was away from all the eyes on that cliff and threw myself sitting on the ground.
I buried my face in my hands.
And cried.
Yes, I cried.
After all these years I cried.
After the promise I made myself I cried.
My mom was truly gone now.
He took everything from me.
He destroyed me.
He burned every single trace of her.
I had nothing left from her except our last picture together that I always hold with me.
When I ran away I left all her belongings and photos in her room as she left them. I didn't want to change anything in her room.
But now I regret it.
I regret not taking anything from it.
I couldn't keep that strong facade anymore and not cry.
I felt my heart heavy. I was tired of locking everything and not letting it out.
And my mom's room was the last thing that broke me. It was the outburst.
I felt an arm swung around my shoulders and someone lifting me taking me on their lap.
I didn't care who that was and didn't look up nor get my buried face out of my hands. However, I already had an idea of who this might be.
I only felt like crying.
The tears didn't stop from falling and I didn't bother to stop them.
It was just hard.
Everything is hard in that damn life.
Everything is falling apart and I can't save anything.
I am weak. I am so damn weak and useless.
"Shh, my little angel." I heard Jason's soothing voice as he stroked my hair holding me tightly to him.
I felt relieved hearing his voice.
I took my face out of my hands and buried it in his chest
"He burned everything, Jason. H..he got rid of my mom." I stuttered between sobs." My mom is gone now. He took her away from me Jason. That monster left nothing from her."
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J A S O N
I felt broken and frustrated seeing my Mia like that.
She didn't cry once after she returned and now she can't keep the tears at bay.
Her tears didn't merely fall on my shirt wetting it, they were like a hammer falling down on my heart.
That asshole really broke her completely.
And I was here useless don't know what to do or say.
She is my angel but we all broke her and cut her wings.
Especially her father that was the reason for all the misery she was in her whole life.
She just kept crying in my hands burying her face in my chest. I didn't care that she made my shirt wet.
I only cared about her and how to help her but I couldn't know what to do. My heart aches for her.
Her mom's room was her everything.
It was her illusion, her hope that she is still alive.
It was the only thing left from her mother.
I was sad for her. I felt bad for what I did fearing that man of hurting her and did what he ordered breaking her when he already broke her enough.
Till that day he couldn't let her alone to be happy.
And I felt like it was the right moment to tell her everything.
To tell her the main reason for her misery.
To tell her how a coward was I for not protecting her from that bastard and instead I broke her more.
To tell her that her father was the devil controlling her life.
"Mia baby.." I said lowly kissing her hair as I took her face in my palms making her face me on my lap.
She looked me with those big puffy watery eyes as tears were streaming out of them. "I need to tell you everything." I wiped her tears with my thumbs but fresh ones fell again.
"About what?" She said lowly while tears kept rolling down her cheeks and I kissed her wet cheeks not caring about the salty water that I taste.
"The main reason I did it was.."I sighted while she looked at me confused with her watery eyes."Your father" she is going to hate me now.
It was a moment of silence with her looking at me surprised and confused until she muttered in a very low tone." What? H..how? A..and w..why?"