I choked on my coffee once again at y/n's words.
"What? I thought it wasn't a big deal for guys? Besides, I'm just trying to help." Y/n says nonchalantly.
"Maybe that's Hoseoks way of looking at it but it actually means something to me." I say.
"Well I mean, we had a deal anyway. So why not just move it forward some?" Y/n shrugs.
"Why are you doing this?" I ask.
"I don't know. I just figured you wouldn't want to be a virgin all of your life." Y/n says then quickly adds.
"But if you don't want to I won't bring it up again." Y/n says.
I bite my bottom lip and think on it.
I mean how many other chances in life would I get to do this, and with y/n?
I wonder why she was willing anyway..
"Okay, Yeah." I say.
Y/n looks over at me, eyebrows raised.
"You want to? If it was anything like mine, it'll be really awkward." She laughs.
Hearing her talk about it pained me.
I hated knowing that her first time was with that asshole.
"Yeah, I want to." I say.
Y/n nods and sips at her coffee.
"So like, did you want to now or..?"
Y/n looks over at me and starts to laugh.
"I didn't mean right now. It's early, I haven't even eaten yet." She says.
I feel myself get flustered but neither of us questioned it.
Well, that was awkward.
"It's not gonna make things weird between us, will it?" I ask suddenly.
"It's only weird if you make it weird." Y/n says as she looks over at me.
I guess she had a point, but of course it would be weird regardless!
This wasn't just anyone, it was y/n.
It was bound to be super awkward.
I just hope it doesn't mess up our friendship.
Shaking the thought, I finish my food.
...
-You,,
I don't know why in the hell I offered to have sex with Yoongi.
It was weird of me, right?
Yes, it was definitely weird.
What if he gets the wrong idea?
Shit, he probably already has by now.
Glancing over at Yoongi, I see him sipping on his coffee, looking lost in thought.
I wonder what he's thinking about.
Probably how much of an idiot I am.
Yup, that sounds about right.
I finish eating my doughnut and wait for Yoongi to finish his too.
"Let's hang out today." I grin.
Yoongi looks over at me and nods, the doughnut hanging halfway out of his mouth.
I smile and sip at my coffee.
Yoongi was definitely really attractive..I guess I just never noticed before.
"What did you have in mind? Anywhere special?" Yoongi asks once he finishes chewing.
"Not really. Anywhere is fine." I shrug.
"Then how about we go see a movie or something?" Yoongi suggests.
"I don't see why not." I smile and pop up.
"Alright, day movie it is." Yoongi says, standing too.
I smile and run out to his car.
Day movies, here we come!
...
When Yoongi and I got to the movies I was shocked to see that we were the only ones in the whole theater.
"This is cool!" I grin as I pick one of the many open seats.
Right in the perfect spot.
"I've never been to the movies when it was completely empty like this." Yoongi says.
"Neither have I. It's awesome, right?" I ask, smiling as I looked around.
"Yeah, it's cool." Yoongi says as he leans back and kicks his feet up on the chair in front of him.
I glance over at him before sitting back in my chair too.
"About what I said earlier. It wasn't weird of me to suggest that, was it?" I ask.
Yoongi looks over at me and shrugs.
"Like you said, it's only weird if you make it weird."
I laughs and nod.
"I guess that's true."
"It doesn't have to mean anything. I know you don't feel the same way I do so I won't make it into more than it actually is." Yoongi says.
I study his face for a moment before setting my hand down on top of his.
"It's your virginity we're talking about here. Of course it'll mean something. Even if I don't have romantic feelings for you, I still love and care about you. So of course this means something. You don't have to act like it doesn't." I say.
"Are you sure? I don't want to make you uncomfortable." Yoongi says, glancing down at our hands.
"You always make me uncomfortable. This is nothing new." I say and Yoongi laughs.
"Then Okay. Thank you for doing this. You're a good friend." He says.
I smile and nod.
"Yes, I'm a great friend!"
...
—Yoongi,,
During the movie, I would sneak peeks over at y/n.
The only thing on my mind was what was going to happen later.
It's all I could think about.
I never imagined I'd be losing my virginity to y/n and it just sucks that she had already lost hers to that idiot.
Now I really wondered why y/n had offered.
It's not like she was a virgin anymore.
Was she just doing this to be nice?
Is this just because I'm expecting it to be more?
I mentally sigh.
I wish y/n would have waited.
Hoseok was the wrong person, he always was.
Shaking the thought, I turn my attention back to the movie.
...
When y/n and I finish at the movies we end up going out to lunch.
"So, How are things with you and Sung-Jee? Have you spoken to her since the other day?" Y/n asks.
"I haven't." I say.
Y/n pulls her lips in and nods.
"What about Hoseok?"
The question leaves an awkward feeling in the air.
"I haven't spoken to him either." I say.
Y/n nods and sips her water.
I wonder what y/n ever saw in that guy.
All he ever does is manipulate girls into liking him then he screws them over, literally.
"What about you?" I ask.
"Huh?" Y/n asks, looking up at me.
"Have you talked to Hoseok?" I ask, watching her intently as I waited for her answer.
"Of course not." Y/n says.
As much as I wanted to believe her, I still had that open wound of her lying before.
"I promise. I haven't talked to him." Y/n says, as if reading my mind.
I nod and relax a bit.
"Do you think you and Sung-jee might ever get back together?" Y/n asks after a moment.
I look at y/n, studying her face.
"No, I don't think so."
Why would I when I was in love with the person sitting in front of me.
"Then what will you do?" Y/n asks, her eyes on me.
"I guess I'll just wait and hope that one day you'll feel the same way I do." I say without hesitation.
"You'd Really Wait for me?" Y/n asks, her facial expressions softened.
"Of course. I'll always wait for you." I say.
Y/n smiles and grabs my hand from across the table.
"I promise I won't make you wait too long."
I smile instantly.
Deep down, her words gave me hope.
-
When y/n and I got back to my house it was around 3:46pm.
It wasn't early but it wasn't exactly late either.
"Where are your parents?" Y/n asks once we get inside.
I look around and noticed that they are in fact gone.
"Oh, I'm not sure. They're probably at work." I say and y/n nods and sets her phone down on the table.
"I guess everything is falling into place. I wonder if it's destiny." Y/n says, wiggling her fingers in my direction.
I laugh and shrug.
"Who knows."
I actually liked the way things were going with y/n and I right now.
It's like she was really trying to consider my feelings, even if it was a bit weird for her.
It was definitely weird for me too.
I never saw y/n as someone I'd potentially date but now everything has changed.
It's all different now.
"Well, should we wait or did you want to now.." y/n says, pushing a strand of hair behind her ear.
Oh yeah, it was definitely different now.
"Whatever you want." I say, rocking on my heels a bit.
"Okay..um, Then sure, let's do it." Y/n says.
"Okay." I say and swallow the lump in my throat.
I follow y/n to my room, feeling beyond nervous.
When we get into my room, y/n turns to me.
"How should we start this?" She asks, looking up at me.
"Maybe we should start slow." I say.
"Right, Okay." Y/n says as she walks over to my bed and sits down.
I sit down beside her, feeling awkward.
"I guess just kiss me." Y/n says as she turns to me.
I nod and gently grab her face.
We had kissed before but this time was different.
My heart was about to burst out of my chest this time around.
Finally, my lips meet y/n's.
She kisses back instantly, her hand resting on my neck.
The kiss got intense and quickly.
Y/n breaks the kiss and lifts her shirt over her head, motioning for me to do the same.
I felt embarrassed seeing her in her bra but I didn't say anything.
Instead, I did as she did.
Soon enough, we're both down to our last bit of clothing.
"So um..you at least know the basics right because I'm still pretty clueless." Y/n laughs.
"I'm sure I can manage." I say and she nods and waits for me until suddenly She grabs onto my face and kisses me again.
She pulls me down with her as she falls back into the bed.
"Yoongi." Y/n says, breaking away from the kiss.
"Hm?"
"I'm ready when you are."
After that, everything started.
[...]
A/n: Quick update on this story..
yesterday I ended up finishing it and it has a total of 25 chapters!
Another thing, I started another story today and it's gonna be a Yoonmin story!! Lots of smut🌚 so yeah, i hope you're looking forward to that!!
Anyways, thanks for reading and I hope you're enjoying this story!!