Insecure [rochan]

By katzmotelrm

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"I'm too old for a babysitter." "I can be more than your babysitter." More

Prologue
Did
You
Change
Or
Not?
You're
Acting
A
Bit
Awkward
It's
Obvious
It's
A
Fact
I'm
A
Bit
Strange
You're
So
Dazzling
I
Can't
Look
At
You
So
I'm
My
Eyes
My

Closing

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By katzmotelrm

"What?" Rowoon said, he was in shock.

"I don't know who you are," Chanhee answered. "Can you get off my bed."

"Oh sorry," Rowoon said, rolling off the bed, standing on his two feet.

"Tell me who you are before I call the nurse," Chanhee said with a bit of irritation.

"Chani, I'm-"

Suddenly the door opened and in walked Chanhee's father. His eyes widened when he saw his son awake.

"Chanhee, you're awake," his father said with a smile as he went to hug his son.

"Dad, what happened to me?" Chanhee asked as his father let go.

"You got into a car crash, you've been in a coma for five days now. We were worried you wouldn't wake up," his father said sadly.

"And who is this?" Chanhee asked looking at Rowoon.

His father looked at Rowoon with a bit of surprise.

"You don't remember him?" He asked with furrowed eyebrows.

Chanhee just shook his head.

His father couldn't help but let a tiny smile form on his face.

"Can you get him out of here," Chanhee said as he just looked at Rowoon with a little fear in his eyes.

Chanhee's father grabbed Rowoon's shoulder and guided him out of the hospital room.

"It's probably best if you don't come back here," he said to Rowoon softly so Chanhee wouldn't hear.

"Wait but-"

"Don't worry I'll let you know when he gets his memory back, sorry if he gets it back," he said as he pushed Rowoon out of the room and shut the door tightly.

Rowoon let out a sigh. This was worst than Chanhee being unconscious. How could he forget him? Rowoon couldn't accept it.

-

"Hi baby bro-"

"UGGGGHHHH!" Rowoon groaned loudly as he fell onto the couch.

Youngbin looked at him with confusion and concern.

"What happened?" Youngbin asked as he patted Rowoon's head.

Rowoon lifted his head up, his face making a pout.

"Chanhee doesn't remember me," Rowoon said sadly.

Youngbin let out a small sigh, worried that this would happen. 

"Hey, it's going to be okay," Youngbin said as he made Rowoon sit up so he could sit on the couch with the boy.

Rowoon just simply crawled onto Youngbin's lap.

"How is it okay? He doesn't remember who I am. It took so long for him to admit he likes me last time. It might be even longer now," Rowoon said sadly.

"If anything he'll fall in love with you again, I'm sure of it. He was actually in love with you Rowoon like I knew it before you knew," Youngbin said, trying to comfort him.

"Yeah, he was. Now he doesn't even know my name," Rowoon said with a sniffle.

"He'll remember, he has to remember, he could never forget you Rowoon," Youngbin reassured.

"Thanks, Youngbin," Rowoon said as he got off of his brother. "I think I'm going to take a nap, I didn't get much sleep last night."

"Okay, I'm always here if you need to sit on me," Youngbin told him as Rowoon made his way upstairs.

Rowoon went to his room and fell on his bed. He looked at the ceiling with a surprisingly empty mind. He didn't want to think about anything right now, he was so tired he really couldn't think about anything. He just shut his eyes and went to sleep.

-

After Rowoon woke up from his nap he decided to try to see Chanhee again. It was a bad idea but he couldn't help be drawn to the boy, he always had been.

He went into the hospital and got a visitor sticker before he made his way to the ninth floor. He was keeping an eye out for Chanhee's dad. He was terrified of that guy.

Rowoon peeked into Chanhee's hospital room to check if anyone was there, surprisingly there wasn't.

Rowoon opened the door slowly and entered the room quietly. The tiny sound of the door closing was the only thing to be heard.

Rowoon made his way in as he saw Chanhee sitting in bed, looking out the window. Chanhee didn't even notice that someone had entered the room, he just continued to watch the clouds pass by across the blue sky. 

"Chanhee," Rowoon said.

The boy quickly turned his head and met eyes with Rowoon. He was surprised to see him. 

"Get out," Chanhee said with a glare. 

"Hang on, can you at least give me a chance?" Rowoon questioned, trying to avoid the fact that his heart was breaking. 

"No, I don't know you and I don't want to know you," Chanhee said, about to press the call button for the nurse. 

"Chanhee, please, I know somewhere in there you remember me, and you remember loving me, I was your boyfriend, how could you forget that?" Rowoon questioned sadly. 

"I was in a crash and now I don't remember okay," Chanhee said, his thumb right on the button, but he was hesitant to hit it. 

"Then let's start over," Rowoon said simply. "Hi, I'm Kim Rowoon."

Chanhee looked at Rowoon with upset eyes.

"I'm Kang Chanhee," Chanhee answered, but he looked away from Rowoon. 

Rowoon smiled a bit, happy that Chanhee was playing along. 

"It's nice to meet you Chanhee, but I think I'll call you Chani cause it's cuter, and you're cute," Rowoon said happily. 

Chanhee looked at Rowoon for a second, seeing his smile before grabbing a pillow and burying his face into it. A lump in his throat hurt him feeling himself about to cry.

"Don't call me Chani," Chanhee mumbled before picking his head up. 

Rowoon's eyes widened when he saw the tears falling from Chanhee's face. 

"Chanhee why-"

"Just get out, leave me alone," Chanhee said with a bit of anger, pressing the call button as well. 

Rowoon stepped forward but stopped himself from going to hug Chanhee, knowing the boy would only push him away. 

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you cry," Rowoon said, not sure what to do. He didn't want to leave the boy, but it's not like he could do much to comfort him. 

"Just get out!" Chanhee said more sternly as he started to cry more. 

Suddenly a nurse came in wondering what was wrong. 

"Get him out of here," Chanhee said to the nurse before burring his face into the pillow again.

"Wait, but Chanhee," Rowoon said with upset eyes. 

"Come on, let's go, it's best to leave him alone," the nurse said as she guided Rowoon out of the hospital room. 

"Wait, but I need to talk to him, I need him to remember me," Rowoon said sadly to the nurse as they got out of the room. 

"It's best to just leave him alone for now, he's confused and conflicted, you don't want to hurt him do you?" She asked Rowoon. 

Rowoon let out a sigh and looked at his feet. 

"No, I don't want to hurt him," Rowoon said softly. 

"Then leave him be if he remembers anything we'll call you," she said before leaving down the hall. 

Rowoon just looked down sadly. Of course, he falls in love and something like this happens, he's never been very lucky in life. He walked down the hall sadly, deciding he might as well leave, Chanhee didn't want to see him, he didn't want him anymore. 

*I'm really trying to finish this story, I want to start something else, anyway there are questions today from @AkendApollo I'm V happy to get questions they're so fun to answer and if Y'all have any please let me know it's lowkey a high light for me. Idk if that made sense, anyway hope you liked this chapter, prob not cause it was kind of sad.*

Jaemin, you said you weren't gay, are you? Sanha's been spilling the tea that you and Jeno might be dating.

Um, first of all, I don't know who Sanha thinks he is to start such rumors, I'm going to kill him and second of all, I think I might be bi cause I still like girls but I've noticed I kind of like guys a little too, and maybe I like Jeno, I don't know I am a teenage boy please leave me alone 

Sanha, why is everyone GAY?? No children will be born in this new generation. 

Not everyone is gay, just people I talk to, and why are you asking me this question?? But personally I just think guys are more attractive to me, and I wouldn't want to date a girl, I'm friends with a lot of them. 

Chanhee, how are you doing with your reading? Are you planning on telling Rowoon? Also if you could slove the rubix cube so well are you good at math?

Well, I was doing better with my reading, and I don't want to tell Rowoon cause I'm a little embarrassed, I don't want him to know I like the book he gave me. Also, I guess I am pretty good at math, but I don't really try that hard. 

Rowoon, how's your eomma? Ship Chensung with me! Yes dating 15-year-olds and shipping 13-year-olds what could possibly go wrong?

My mom is doing good, she's working a little bit but she likes to go out to the park on nice days with Inseong's mom and go for walks to get fresh air. And I don't even know Chenle so I don't know if I ship them but I definitely think Jisung should tell Chenle and don't remind me that Chanhee is 15. 

Jisung. CHENSUNG!

Ummm, I wish....i doubt he'll like me back. 

Youngbin, even though I ship you and Inseong YOU SUCK UGH. Not healthy man. 

THAT'S NOT EVEN A QUESTION! But I know I still feel terrible about it. 

Author, who's your bias in Sf9? Mine is Chani. :)

My bias is Inseong cause he's just adorable.

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you're more than that.