I took a deep breath,
Now is not the time to break down,
I just need to find out that you areokay,
I didn't have an email or anything so I guess I have to write a letter,
I quickly grabbed a piece of paper and a blue gel pen,
at first,
I thought that I should just write and ask if you were okay,
but then I thought about the burden I have been carrying for all these years,
I wanted to write my feelings for you,
I wanted to tell you everything,
all of my feelings,
all the things I hid from you.....
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Dear Benjamin,
Did I start off wrong,
I probably did,
Moving on,
I heard about the bombing,
I pray that everything is okay,
take care of yourself for me,
I know you told me to write to you only in emergencies,
but,
I mean this is an emergency so...
Anyway,
I just wanted to tell you that I really miss you,
it's been hard not having you around,
your father is long gone,
now,
I'm gonna be kinda serious,
these past years that I have known you,
I have hid a secret from you,
a very big secret,
I love you,
I really do,
I always have,
you were my first love,
with everything that happened between us,
like the girls you dated and Tanner,
it was...
well,
a mess,
I tried to get over you,
I really did,
but I couldn't forget about it all,
the memories I made with you,
the time I spent with you,
everything about you,
your scent,
your hair,
your eyes,
but the most,
you...
I'm gonna stop being so sappy and all but one last thing,
don't forget that,
I love you,
I always have,
and,
I always will...
Yours,
Lily
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Well, if you couldn't already tell. That was my first love letter.