tw// implied sexual abuse, physical abuse
when they yell and scream and punch walls and hit
and i'm collapsed against the wall
when they say
NO ONE WILL LOVE U
EVERYONE WILL LEAVE YOU
DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME
YOU SILLY SILLY GIRL
but i don't understand
because you love me
because you said you wouldn't leave
and no matter how many nights
and hours
and seconds im terrified you will
that you'll give up on
me.
you don't.
i'm sick in the head
there are too many hands
and words
and and and pain
i wear the scars
they left
and the ones i put there myself
under fake fake smiles
and i'm okays.
because i need to tell you more
just how much i love you
how much i need you
take my soul
take my heart
take me away
take the sun
the earth
take the stars
take the nebulas
take the galaxy
take everything
until you realise just
how fucking much
i love you.
because i'm head over heels
and love goes two ways
princess
you help me
i help you
that's healthy,
we're healthy
unlike them.
unlike them.
because maybe i'm not sick,
they are.
your baby's so sick
of these fucking walls
and these hidden bruises
but never
ever ever could
your baby be sick of you
because you're my medicine
and i'm so sick.