'Ethan'
ethan
it's paisley
and before i block you and before you say anything, there's something i'd like to strip from the deep and shattered parts of my heart.
here i go:
i remember the first time i saw you and i thought to myself 'wow piper is so lucky, if she denies him i'll take him' but she didn't
i thought grayson was grant and i fell for him deeply. but he wasn't you and that broke me. i took the wrong twin.
and i don't know what i was thinking when i started sexting you
i should've not
look where it got us.
this is going to hurt.
but i wish i never met you
not this way
we should've met like normal people
if we are star crossed, love will find it's way
i know this sounds so fucking cheesy
but it hurts me too much to look back and take it all back because i actually liked having someone text me and call me theirs and i felt wanted
it made me feel myself needed
you can't hate me
i can't hate you
but i wish we could go back to the night we met in my kitchen
the way your eyes stared at my sister
i wish that was me
i haven't stopped thinking about you
and i don't want to
but i do
and i probably should
piper told me to kill myself
and i
i don't belong here
i shouldn't be in this world
i should've never stepped into your life
look at what i did
i feel so guilty
i ruined piper
my parents, paige
everyone i know is hating me
paisely
stop.
here's something i want you to read.
*sent picture, 11:55PM*
text me when you've read it
and don't ever say that
because you know i love you
i love you
READ, 11:56PM
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PAISLEY
I open the picture and walk into the kitchen to make sure I'm not disturbing Jonah in his sleep. I sit on the counter and flip my hood up onto my head as I hug my knees to my chest.
Paisley.
I pause for a minute and smile. The way he writes my name just seemed so adorable. I love the weird curly 2 shaped a's he writes.
I can't stop hearing that name. That's the only thing that comes to my mind naturally. "You know anyone hot here?", Paisley. "You want something?", Paisley. "Do you love anyone?", Paisley. That's all I've been thinking about the past weeks.
You.
It's seems crazy. How can one possibly only think of me?
It seems crazy and impossible but it is true. You're stuck in my mind like a song. Replay and replay every second. You're a drug to me. I need you, you see, and not just as Piper's sister.
I breathe in a sharp breath and bite down on my lip.
I want to hold you in my arms when you can't sleep, I want to pamper you, I want to make you feel loved. I want to be able to call you mine and pick you up in public and kiss you. I want to get old with you.
My heart beats faster and I smile tightly. I wanted to do the same things.
When you get jealous, I just can't stop thinking about how cute and protective you are. When you're angry, I love it when you kick me and tear at my hair softly. When you're happy, I watch your face glow in the darkness.
I love the way he describes his undying passion for me.
Don't ever feel neglected, alone, sad, unloved. You can't say those things because you know that it can't be the truth. I will stand by you.
As a friend, as family, and maybe as your lover.
Tears brim my eyes and fall down my cheeks slowly. I press my hand over my mouth and smile.
forever yours,
ethan
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'Ethan'
i
i cried
thank you
i love you
please
come back
i'll run away with you if i have to
bring that body back to daddy
make daddy proud
make him
make him?
you complete me
without you, i cannot exist
ethan...
i promise to return to
you
i miss you in my basement
in my arms
in my heart
i need to fuck you
i need to make love to you
i need you to know how i feel
because what i feel cannot be described in words
please come back
please me
please daddy
i am allowing you to torture me
do you know how special you are?
how much you mean to me?
i know, daddy
i'm the only girl who will ever be allowed to try things with you
in life
in bed
anywhere you want me, i will be there
come back.
soon
i will in 72 hours, okay
merci
i love you
me too
i love you
i love you
i love you
i love you
READ, 12:19AM
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