- Are you staying for dinner? I asked and looked into my boyfriends eyes
Magnus and I have been laying on my bed for hours, tangled up in each other's arms while exchanging deep thoughts and intense opinions about everything and absolutely nothing.
- If you want time to, Magnus said and smiled a beautiful smile at me
- Of course I want you to stay, Mags.
I miss you every time that you're not with me, I answered and blushed
Magnus smiled as an answer and pressed a kiss against my forehead that brought a million of butterflies to my hormonal stomach. I candidly have tried to persuade myself that a loving relationship doesn't need things like sex, but those thoughts has changed a lot during these last couple of weeks. My insecurities has only grown and I fear that sooner or later, Magnus will get exhausted of me and our boring relationship and threw me away like a piece of trash.
I know that Magnus isn't the kind of person who would do something like that, but I can't forget the important information that Magnus and I are both teenagers who are filled with hormones and needs. I can't even imagine how sexually frustrated Magnus must be some days and I hate myself for being too scared to do something about it. Trust me, I have been sexually frustrated during our make out sessions and really wanted to take our relationship to the next level, but I'm terrified that I will mess up and make a fool out of myself like I always do. Magnus is a lot more experienced than me and I really don't want him to think less of me only because I don't know how to satisfy him in his time of needs.
- I love you, Magnus said into my ear which broke me out of my trance
His words sent shivers down my spine and I couldn't help myself but smile like an idiot. I still having a hard time believing that it's actually true whenever I hear those three words coming from Magnus's lips.
- I love you too, I answered
Magnus pulled me closer to his own body and I couldn't do anything else then push my face against his neck and feel the wonderful scent of his sandalwood shampoo and perfume.
- Are you going to school tomorrow?
I asked quietly after a while and sat up in the bed so I was facing Magnus
- Yeah, he answered and sighed
- Do you have to? I asked
Magnus let out a little chuckle and placed both of his arms around my neck and pulled me down for a kiss.
- I have a big test tomorrow and if I miss it, I won't be able to graduate, Magnus said after we broke the kiss
- Have you studied?
- Not really, but I don't have to. I'm a genius, Magnus said and smirked
- You wish, I answered and laughed
We pressed our lips against each other's one more time, but the kiss got interrupted as my mother called from downstairs that it was dinner. The two of us walked down together and as we reached the kitchen, Jace and Izzy already sat around the table while my mother stood by the oven and finished the last touch of food.
- The food smells truly wonderful, Magnus said and sat down on a chair that was placed besides Izzy's
- You're too nice to me, my mother answered and smiled very brightly
I sat down on the chair beside Jace's and felt how he looked at me like an idiot or something. I slowly turned my attention towards him and as our eyes met, he smirked widely.
- What? I whispered
- What did the two of you do? Jace whispered back with a playful tone
- Shut up, I answered
I turned my attention from Jace and looked over at Magnus. He was in a deep conversation with Izzy about something that I didn't know about, but I didn't care. All I cared about was how much I loved the man in front of me and how much he got along with my family and friends. After the dinner, Magnus and I went up to my bedroom and yet again laid down beside each other on my bed.
- What is it? Magnus suddenly asked
- What do you mean? I said and looked at him with a raised eyebrow
- You haven't stopped smiling since we arrived into the kitchen. What is on that beautiful mind of yours? Magnus asked and smiled brightly
- I'm just happy, I said and blushed
- Is there a specific reason?
- You, I answered and blushed again
- Me? Magnus asked chocked
- You're everything I could ever wish for and I'm so happy that I have you in my life. You saved me, I answered
- I would do it all again, Alexander. You're the best thing that happened to me and I don't want to lose you
Magnus words brought tears to my eyes and I couldn't help but feel how my heart started beating a lot faster.
- I love you, I whispered
// TBC \\