Zoey's POV
Ilang buwan pagkawalani mama, nagkasakit naman si papa. Para akong pinaparusahan sa mga nangyayari. And Rome kept his distance after kong makabalik dito sa London.
Life is so unfair to me.
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"Hi babies... It's mama again. Nandito ako ngayon sa nursery ninyo. At nasa 6 1/2 months na kayo. Konti na langi lalabas na kayo." I tried to smile.
I did a lot of videos for my children so they can see me. So they can know me. I have tutorial videos of alphabet... I have videos singing nursery rhymes. I have videos doing simple math.
"Huwag ninyong bibigyan ng problema si papa ninyo. Dapat bait lang kayo." A lump formed at my throat.
"I will tell you how I met your papa... It started on one windy morning at Brent School in Baguio."
And like what I do everyday, nagkuwentoako sa video. But this time ang kwento ko about kay Rome.
"I love him... kaya kayo nabuo." I chuckled alone.
"Mahalin ninyo si papa. At kung meron man kayong magiging step mom. Love her." Napayuko ako para itago ang mga luha ko.
"Mahal na mahal ko si papa ninyo. At mahal na mahal ko kayong dalawa." I tried to calm myself pero tuloy tuloy ang mga luha ko.
"Mag-aral kayo ng mabuti. Lagi ninyong iisipin na nasa taas ako. Nakatingin sa inyo. Nasa front seat lagi sa tuwing may event kayo. Nakangiti at masaya sa pipiliin ninyo sa buhay. Kung meron lang akong magagawa para dugtungan ko pa ang buhay ko para sa inyo, gagawin ko."
"Kapag malungkot kayo, tingin lang kayo sa langit. Nandoon ako kasama ng mga bituwin. I will always be beside you."
"Meron akong biniling dalawang bracelet. Tig-isa kayong dalawa. Ibigay ninyo sa mapapangasawa ninyo. Sabihin ninyo galing kay mama ninyo. I once received a bracelet from your papa. And I kept it and I will have it until my last breath. Tita Cailee will give these to you when you grow up. So choose the right girl for you. Choose the one who loves you for who you are, not for what you have."
Nilapag ko ang bracelet ko sa tabi ko.
"Learn how to pray. Learn how to have faith. Have faith in God. Have faith in human kind. Have faith in yourself. Have faith in one another. Magkapatid kayo. Have each other's back. Learn to share with one another. Learn to show love to people."
"I wish I will be with you, but my life was ended short. The best gift I can give you is the gift of life. Take care of it. Mahal na mahal kayo ni mama."
In two weeks time, I will have my cesarean then my operation to remove the cyst will follow. I feel my life was slowly taken to me. But I keep fighting to save my babies.
"Oh, I have a song for both of you." I dried my tears and get my ukulele and started to sing.
Remember me
Though I have to say goodbye
Remember me
Don't let it make you cry
For ever if I'm far away
I hold you in my heart
I sing a secret song to you
Each night we are apart
Remember me
Though I have to travel far
Remember me
Each time you hear a sad guitar
And know that I'm with you
The only way that I can be
Until you're in my arms again
Remember me
Remember me,
for I will soon be gone
Remember me,
and let the love we have live on
And know that I'm with you the only way that I can be
So, until you're in my arms again, remember me
"This will be my last video. I guess you will see this video when you are 12years old already. Remember what I told you. Mahal na mahal ko kayo. Always remember me. I love you."
I closed the video recorder and my tears started to fall again.
I'm scared. But I know I did what I know is the best for Rome and my twins. Isaved them. I love them so much that I am ready to give my life for them.
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A/N
Zoey is saying her goodbye...
It's heartbreaking
P.S
The song is from the movie COCO