"And how, was I to know? I'm not strong, I should've saved you."
I glance at his vitals hoping for them to change, I know they won't though. I hear someone approach, I turn and see Cisco. He looks at me and leans against the doorway.
"I can't," I whisper, he sighs and shakes his head. I chew on my lip and run my fingers through my hair.
"Can you at least eat something?" He asks handing me an apple. I shake my head.
"I have to focus, I have to save him."
"You keep saying that Caitlin, but what if you can't save him."
"No, I will save him." I whisper.
"Caitlin look at him! He only surviving because of the machines." Cisco says. "You know what you need to do," he walks away. I blink away tears.
"Barry, please live, please, please, please. I need you, I can't do this without you." I whisper.
A few hours later Cisco comes back.
"Are you ready?" He asks, I nod slowly tears running down my face.
Cisco stands at the entrance of my lab watching me closely. I walk over to the machines Barry's attached to. I look back at Cisco, he nods.
With a shaky hand and a heavy heart I turn of the machines. Seconds later Barry if officially dead.
I walk back over to Cisco and hug him, my eyes wet with tears.
"I should have saved him Cisco, I should have saved him." I whisper trying to keep my emotions at bay.
"You tried,"
"It should've been me." I cry, I let go of Cisco and run away not looking back.
I make it to my apartment and start throwing everything into a suitcase. It was difficult to see, because my vision was blurry.
I put my suitcase with my clothes and hammer in my car. I leave everything else behind except and picture of me and Barry. I drive to the airport.
"Can I have a ticket for the next plane to New York?" I say through tears.
"Sure," the person looks up at me. "Are, are you okay."
"Yeah, I'm fine." I say, she hands me my ticket and I walk away. Tears continue to fall down my face and people continuously ask me if I'm okay.
I've lied 25 times since I arrived.
"When I fell down you'd be there holding me up, spread your wings and I know that when god took you back he said hallelujah you're home." The music in the airport plays.
Ed Sheeran... What a coincidence.
A/n: why did I enjoy writing this chapter??? (saturdaywsnowbarry).