Dear Diary,
I've been a mess and I know that, mom came into my room a week ago and just embraced me and the tears started flowing from my eyes. I told her everything, everything that I felt, my thoughts and how I think of myself and she just hugged me.
I remember how she used to comfort me everytime I got hurt and wipe away my tears and I didn't realize how much I missed her, and when I told her everything, a weight, I don't even know how to decribe it fell from my shoulders and I felt lighter than I was but I still wasn't fine. Mom told me that she booked a session with a therapist to help me with my thoughts and emotions and if I was ready I could go to her and she would help me.
I didn't want to at first because I didn't want to tell a complete stranger about my life but she told me it could help me gather my thoughts and emotions and put the past behind me and I tried it out.
The first session was difficult but Ms Carter was so nice. I never realized how much I need help. I've been carrying baggage for the last three years and slowly I'm letting it go.
I've mastered up the courage to talk to Carly again and she was so happy to hear me that I cried, my best friend truly is the best friend anyone could ask for. She's coming over in an hour or two and I can't wait to see her, it's been way too long and I miss her so much.
My family this past few days have been a great support system to me and I'm so grateful and happy and Ms Carter also helped me as well and I like where I'm going with everything. I realized I don't have to shut everyone out because I have people who love me and care for me.
I know that I still have a long way to go before I fully recover but I like the baby steps that I'm taking.
I guess I'll just take it one step at a time.
Yours Truly,
Asanda
A step in the right direction and I know these past few chapters have been depressing but its going to be over soon just bare with me
Written: 17 April 2018
Published: 15 May 2020
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