"boys boys boys, that's literally all I'm surrounded by" I groaned
"I fail to see the problem. I can barely find any lesbian girls in LA. apparently girls have recanted the 'niggas ain't shit' statement" India said
We've been talking on FaceTime for about two minutes now. She's very busy, always at work, she's actually at work right now, but she still manages to make time to call me. I can't say the same about my other best friend though.
"How are you, how've you been with work and shit?" I asked
"I'm living the best life Adonis. Modeling and designing clothes with my favorite designer, it's a fucking dream come true. it's difficult sometimes, everything is work work work, I barely have any friends here, but I still wouldn't trade it for anything. what about you, I'm guessing going to college for free isn't that bad?"
When we left Emerson agreed to pay for our place to live and for me to go to college. He said it was his way of getting redemption for what he let happen to me, which isn't his fault. He insisted on paying though, so he gave Tahj a great amount of money before we left which pays for my attendance here, our apartment back in Seattle, Tahj's online classes, and just living life.
Since Tahj is the older and "wiser" one he's the one that controls the money and gives me a weekly allowance so that we don't burn out on cash before either of us get an actual job. If we use the money accordingly we should have the right amount of money to last us the next four years of me being in college.
"like I said it's the boys, I just don't want to get distracted you know? I need to be focused on myself for a change"
"take this from a girl who has a whole collection of sex toys, get the dick while you can. even if you're not ready to be in a relationship just get some dick. you're 18, live life, have fun, you don't need to be worried about laying your life out. priority is school yes, but know how to have a balance of fun as well"
"I'll try. you heard from Dom?" I asked
"nope. I called last week and he finally picked up but hung up right after I said Hi without even saying a word"
"us dying really broke him huh?"
"we all knew he had unspoken feelings for Dillon, even if neither of them wanted to admit it it was there. and you were like his brother. truth be told when you died I almost said no to this internship. but you got me through it, I knew you'd tell me to not give up on my dreams, so I did it for you" She said
"I can't believe this is our life, who knew I'd ever be saying the words 'when I died' before?"
I hate bringing up the past year, it's something I would love to stay in the past and move on with my life.
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June 21st, 2017
"come on eat" Dylan said through the bars of the cage he had me in
Okay I'm kidding, he was decent enough to get me a room with a mattress on the floor. but he still had my legs chained to the wall so that I couldn't move more than 20 feet. Not that I can walk or run anywhere anyways.
I stared down at the sandwich and pushed it back.
"you haven't eaten in 2 days, you're going to get sick"
"you won't release me, and you won't kill me, so I'll kill myself" I spoke
"Adonis let me tell you a little secret about the human mind. you see it'll do what ever to keep you alive. that's why even when you force your head into a bucket of water, and try your best to have it remain there your body will automatically bring you back up, that's why many people who try to commit suicide by drowning themselves weigh themselves down"
We ran in and saw Dillon's body unconscious under water with a couple of weights on his chest. I swear my heart had been ripped out by the sight I was seeing.
"I say that to say this, no matter how hard you fight the hunger if your mind feels there's something to be done to save you it'll do it without consulting your body. as long as the food remains in front of you, the second you're about to die of starvation you will pick up the sandwich and bite it without actually wanting to. so you might as well skip the suffering and just eat the sandwich, I even cut off the crusts just for you"
I looked down at the sandwich and slowly reached to grab it. A part of me desperately praying that it was poisoned and would put me out of my misery.
"there you go, see. not so hard was it? well time to go feed Dillon" He said before turning to leave.
Dillon?
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August 28th, 2018
I heard the sound of keys jingling which meant that Cairo was back from his class.
"I'll talk to you later, my roommate is coming"
"bye Adonis, I love you! and give my son Lion or whatever his name is the chance to break your back from time to time"
I rolled my eyes and ended the call just as Cairo opened the door.
"your leech of a friend has been stalking me all day, please let him know I'm not about that life" He said while walking in
"who Jaden? he believes you can be turned. something around rulers bending" I chuckled
He kissed his teeth then began to take off his clothes.
"how was your day off?" He asked
I have my schedule set up on a Monday, Wednesday and Friday schedule which means I have Tuesday and Thursdays off. Cairo made his schedule Monday through Wednesday so he could have four day weekends.
"pretty boring. I woke up at like 11, went to go get some food then came back and watched some Netflix. that's pretty much it" I shrugged
"what your boyfriend wasn't available to Netflix and chill?" He chuckled
"stop" I rolled my eyes
"so what were you guys doing yesterday...my bad— how many times were you guys doing it yesterday? I peeped that you came in around 2am"
"who are you, my dad? and we didn't do anything...well not that at least. he gave me the tour, brought me to his room, we talked, watched some Netflix, got some food, then went back to his place to play Monopoly and some card games. that's all that happened"
"your friend was convinced that you guys were gonna fuck. I mean isn't he the dude that hits on every freshman?"
"why is everything about sex? can't I just talk to a guy damn?"
"my bad" He said
"it's okay. it's just everyone's telling me to have fun, get some dick. why does sex have to be the only leisure thing. what ever happened to movie dates and hanging out with friends?" I asked
"good question"
I began to yawn then laid down on my bed. I took out my phone and started to watch some youtube videos while Cairo began to study. After a while though my eyes became heavy and soon I was falling asleep.
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05:27pm
I woke up to the vibrations of my phone under me. I groaned as I reached to grab it and check the time before looking to see who was calling. It was Zion.
"Hello" I said while rubbing my eyelids
"Hey...shit. did I wake you?" He asked
"yeah. it's aight though, I've been asleep for hours. I need to go eat" I yawned
"perfect, because I have just the right idea in mind. meet me downstairs at the lounge in 10 minutes" He said before ending the call
I turned over to see Cairo laying on his bed with his laptop on his chest and his beats pulled in. When I sat up he saw me from the corner of his eye and turned to look at me while taking off his beats.
"finally you're up. I was waiting for you so we could get some dinner" He said before sitting up as well
I'm guessing he hadn't heard my phone call.
"Zion is actually taking me somewhere for dinner...I just found out about it"
"oh. that's coo" He said before standing up and pulling on a t-shirt that was laying on his bed
I stood up and walked over to my closet looking from something to wear. It would help if he had told me where though. So I texted him asking what I should wear. In seconds he responded saying 'comfortable, something you don't mind sweating and getting dirty in.'
Where the fuck is he taking me? I thought we were going to eat.
Based off his description I decided on some puma sweat-shorts, a black t-shirt and my black puma suedes. It's still hot here and I'm trying to take advantage of it before it get's cold. Apparently when it get's cold in Washington...it get's cold!
I grabbed my phone before saying bye to Cairo and leaving the dorm. As I walked down the hall to the staircase I met Zion. He was holding a basket...a picnic basket.
"we're going on a picnic?" I asked from behind startling him a bit
"shit!" He cursed turning to look at me "don't sneak up on me like that. and yeah...kinda wanted it to be a surprise but yeah a picnic. do you not like it?"
I smiled just at the thought of it. I don't think I've ever had a picnic date before. It sounds cheesy but I liked the cheesy part of it. For once in my life I get normal, even if it's cliché normal it's normal. The only question left is how long will I get to enjoy this...normal?
"It's perfect" I responded
"good, because I didn't have Ms Linda pack us a whole lunch basket for it to go to waste. it wasn't easy convincing her either. but the second I mentioned you she was sold. for some reason she likes you. that makes two of us"
"shut up" I said gently hitting him before walking ahead and down the stairs
"damn" I heard him whisper behind me which caused a smirk to grow on my face
When we got downstairs and to the parking lot he took out his keys and unlocked a car. I was confused, I thought the picnic was going to be on campus.
"we're not having it here?" I asked as I followed him to his car
We stopped at a matte black Jeep Wrangler. I remember this used to be my dream car, and in this exact color too.
"if you were anyone else then probably, but you I prefer to keep out of everyone's business. there's a nice park with a lake only 15 minutes away. that won't be a problem right?" He asked while placing the basket in the back seat
"no I guess not" I shrugged, but just in case I turned on share my location so Tahj would be able to track me if anything
It's one of the things he taught and lectured me about before bringing me here. Anytime I was to leave campus I had to make sure it was on, just incase.
We got in his car and he began to drive. For some reason I felt safe being around him. that feeling was a red flag to me though. If something is too good to be true, then it probably is. I'm gonna have to test the legitimacy of this thing we have before I can truly give in.
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