Walking into the room I grab my "steel lover"
I touch the stainless steel tip to my index finger
SHARP!!
without pressure the crimson surfaces creating a bead....
It's almost a dream
I feel like I have come here before
Experienced this before
And I have
My life revolves around the pain
The pain constantly throbbing
Never giving In to the temptations faced daily
The temptations of happiness
Yes I have given in an fallen for them before
Why
It just created more sadness in my life
Sometime that night
Something happened
And I'm not sure how to react
I became numb
I could no longer feel the pain
And I ....I stayed that way
And I was living
But I wasn't
I was in a bubble
Where I just stood and watched
Everything so close
And yet worlds away....