"Migs?" Saskia turned her attention to me from the book she was reading. I gave her a short story to read to familiarize her more with the english language. I make her read it and ask questions afterwards so I could check if she understood what she had read. I also gave her a highlighter so she could highlight all the words and sentences she doesn't understand so I could explain it to her.
"Yes?" I asked, turning my attention to her. We were in her room as this was the only quiet place in their house. Saskia's family were naturally loud people. Palaging maingay at masaya ang bahay nila. That's one of the many things I like about them.
"Natuto naman na ako, di ba?" She asked.
"You're improving." I told her.
"Slow by slow, I will success." She beamed.
I couldn't help but smile at her enthusiasm to learn. Saskia was light to be with. Her naivety and innocence allowed her to see the little joys in everything and enjoy the simple things. She was refreshing, like a blast of energy-filled sunlight to my soul.
"O ba't ngumingiti ka?" She cocked a brow. "Pinagtatawanan mo na ako ngayon?"
"No, it's not that." I chuckled and pulled her to my side. "I would never laugh at you. I just find your eagerness to learn adorable."
"Basta gusto kong matuto mag-english. If odds is against me then I will against them. Ayaw kong isipin ni baby na bobo ang mommy niya." Sabi niya.
"I would never let our child think that. Hinding-hindi ko hahayaan yun." I lifted one hand to tuck her hair behind her ear. "He or she will only know how much of a wonderful person you are, na mabuti kang anak at kapatid, na wala kang hindi ibibigay at isasakripisyo para sa mga taong mahalaga sa'yo, na masarap kang magmahal..."
"Migs..." Her eyes watered with tears. "Migs, naman tinagalog mo pa. Sana inenglish mo na lang para hindi ko masyadong maintindihan. Naiiyak tuloy ako."
"It's fine. Sabi nila emotional talaga ang mga buntis." I wiped away the tears in the corners of her eyes with my thumbs.
And then, I mindlessly lowered my face to kiss her forehead. Intimate moments like this with her felt natural to me. It was starting to feel like a reflex to me to touch and kiss her here and there. Hindi ko na iniisip kung tama o mali itong ginagawa ko. When with Saskia, I didn't need to use my brain to decide on anything. I just follow what feels natural.
She lifted her eyes up to look at me. Her eyes were full of childlike hope that cut straight into my heart. I never want her to lose that innocence, especially not through my hands. I wish I could hold her without the worry that I would break her someday.
"Mahal na mahal kita, Migs. " She said with all honesty. The kind of honesty that puts your mind at ease because you don't have questions to answer or mixed signals to analyze. I had never heard a more genuine 'I love you' from anyone other than my parents.
"Saskia..." My eyes turned turned soft and warm.
She blinked as if getting out of a trance and looked away. "Huwag kang mag-alala, Migs, hindi naman ako umaasa. Masaya lang akong nandito ka, kasama namin ni baby. Masaya akong mahalin ka, wala naman problema sa akin kahit ako lang ang nagmamahal."
Emotions started welling up from my chest. One hands went to the back of her head and I pulled her to me. I crashed my lips onto hers in a passionate kiss, stealing the breath from her lungs as I pull her body harder against mine. My tongue delved into her sweet mouth and she gave a muffled groan.
Hindi ko dapat ito ginagawa but I couldn't resist her. My mind, body, and heart wanted this... wanter her. I wanted her in ways I couldn't recall wanting someone before. She responded to my kiss with reckless abandon.
My hands began to wander all over her body, feeling her curves until one rested on her soft, full breast. I could feel the violent rise and fall of her chest against mine as she arched her body towards me.
"Migs..." She moaned when my mouth trailed down to her jawline. My hand went inside her shirt and made its way up her breasts. I pulled down her bra cup and cupped her breast with my bare hand. She felt so soft, warm, and so damn right. Her nipple was taut as my thumb started flicking it.
I still couldn't get enough of her. I wanted more. I helped her out of her top and bra and tossed them to the ground. Saskia groaned when my head lowered and latched on to one breast as my hand continued to play with the other. I teased her nipples, flicking them with both my tongue and my fingers. I felt them grow harder with each stroke.
My free hand traveled south. It began to slide down her thigh, stroking my way upwards and slipping them inside her skirt. I palmed her sex and she was already warm and wet for me, I could feel it through her underwear. My fingers started to tease her as she let out soft moans. She was tingling with needs and I wanted so bad to give everything she needed to her.
I pressed my fingers around her clit, touching her above her panties, the fabric making friction so she was writhing against me. I lifted my face up to see the reaction on her face. She was drowning in so much pleasure, her arms clasping around my neck, and it made me smile.
"Feels good?" I asked.
"Mmm..." She answered back, nodding.
She was beautiful. No, more than beautiful... she was exquisite in her passion. Her cheeks were flushed and when she opened her eyes and met mine, they were almost glowing, heavy lidded as the pupils dilated with sexual longing.
"Migs, huwag huminto..." She whined when I pulled my hand away from her sex, her hips thrusting up.
"I'm just going to get rid of these..." I said, pulling her skirt down along with her panties. She was now naked as the day she was born. She tightened against me as my fingers began to touch her folds. She was soaking. Her breasts rose and fell with her breathing as I slowly slid a finger inside her wet, satiny walls. She opened her legs wider, welcoming me.
Her face contorted with pleasure, her hips bucking. I looked down and watched my own finger disappear and reappear between her legs. It was so hot to look at. My manhood grew harder and harder inside my pants to the point of pain.
"Better?" I asked, making sure she was liking this.
She could only nod as an answer. The way she looked at me fueled my desire for her. I began kissing the side of her neck upwards and started nibbling and sucking on her lobe.
"I want to make you feel good, Saskia. I want to pleasure you and make you come so hard." I whispered to her ear. My finger played the walls of her inside, stroking it gently and around.
She brings out the animal in me. She makes me lose control. I felt feral, wild, and uninhibited as rational thoughts of logic were replaced by pure instinct. She had ignited the fire in me and I knew nothing in this world could ever stop me from having her.
"You're still so tight and hot." I groaned against her ear. "God, I want you wrapped around me so bad."
She took in a sharp inhale and her body went stiff for a moment. Her warmth gushed down from my finger to my hand as I continued fingering her. She cried out my name over and over as she orgasmed.
I stopped, giving her time to breathe and recover but I kept my finger inside her, loving the warmth around me.
"M-migs..." She fluttered her eyes open and looked at me. "Nasa langit na ba ko?"
"You've had your orgasm." I gently explained, chuckling a little.
With her arms wrapped around my neck, she pulled me to her and began boldly kissing me. After a few moments, our kiss what cut when I began to undress myself. I took off my button down shirt, my trousers and freed my aching cock from my tight boxers.
She looked down as I positioned myself between her legs. Her eyes lowered between our body. She reached down and touched me, wrapping her fingers around my length. I groaned at what she did. Her eyes shone with innocent curiosity.
"Saskia..." My breathing was deep and ragged. "You're going to kill me. Don't stroke it or we're going before I can even make it inside you."
"S-sa loob ko?" Her voice quivered slightly.
"Yes." I answered in a gruff tone.
She opened her legs as wide as she could and I watched with eyes wide open as she began to guide me into her. The tip touched her sex.
"That feels so good... Keep going... Do whatever feels good to you." I encouraged her.
She was biting her bottom lip as she slid my cock further. It was so hot it taunted me to want more. I met her halfway and began to thrust until I was deep inside her. I cupped her buttocks and pulled her more to me. I started to thrust faster as I drowned in carnal pleasure. I lifted one leg up to rest upon my shoulder. I wanted to get as deep inside her as I could. I impaled her over and over as I felt warmth enveloping my whole body. Pleasure coursed through, my head bent down to kiss her again and she welcomed my kiss with equal intensity. I thrust one last time before my whole shuddered and orgasm rippled through my scrotum, pouring everthing out inside her. I emptied myself into her.
"Migs..." Saskia said, her head was resting on my chest as I stroke her hair. Our naked, sweaty bodies were nuzzling against each other, enjoying each other's warmth.
"Hmm?" I answered in a state of tranquil, ready to doze off.
"Okay lang." She quietly said, kissing me on the jaw.
"What?" My hooded eyes lowered to her and she looked back at me with a hint of sadness in her eyes. She tried to cover it up with a smile.
"Inuunahan lang kita bago ka mag-sorry. Okay lang. Nagustuhan ko naman." Her eyes lowered from mine. "Hindi mo na kailangan humingi ng tawad. Alam kong nadala ka lang. Pakiusap, Migs, utang na loob huwag kang magsosorry sa akin. Mas gugustuhin kong paniwalain na lang ang sarili ko na kunwari ginusto mo din ito."
Her words were like a slice to my chest. I tightly shut my eyes and let out a deep breath before I pulled her closer to me. My lips touched her forehead and I felt her wrapping her arm around my torso a little tighter.
"Hindi ko pinagsisihan ang nangyari sa atin kung iyon ang iniisip mo." I said after a few moments of silence. "It was wonderful, Saskia. You were amazing and I enjoyed every second of it."
"Talaga?" She looked at me, unconvinced.
I smiled as I looked down at her with warm eyes. "Talaga."
I shifted on top of her, straddling her and started playfully nibbling her neck. It was tickling her and she giggled, trying to push me away. I didn't want to think whether this was wrong or right anymore. I was happy in this moment with Saskia and that was all that mattered. I had never felt this comfortable with anyone in my entire life.
"Migs!" She said through fits of laughter. "Migs, tama na. Uy, si baby!"
I suddenly stopped and my hand lowered to her belly. "Bakit? Did I hurt our baby?"
"Joke lang!" She laughed and playfully hit me on the arm. "Ikaw kasi! Ayaw mong tumigil."
"I'm sorry." I lowered my head down again, nuzzling in the crook of her neck. "I just can't get enough of you."
"Ang landi mo." She giggled. "Hoy, Migs! Wag kang maglalagay ng chikinini diyan! Huwag sa leeg. Makikita nila Mammy yan!"
"Fine..." I chuckled, inhaling her scent. Then I lifted my head up to look at her. Her face was flushed with a mixture of excitement and desire. "Maybe somewhere else? Do you still want to...?"
"Gusto mo pa?" Her eyes widened in shock.
I had to press my lips together just to keep myself from laughing at her reaction. "I mean, if you still want to."
She bit her bottom lip and paused as if thinking. "Mmm... paano si baby?"
I lowered my head down to her belly and put my ear against her small bump. "Hi, baby. Ako 'to, Daddy mo. Habang wala ka pa, akin muna si Mommy, okay? Once you come out, we will focus on only to you."
"Baka tumakbo ka palabas ng hubo't hubad pag yan sumagot." She let out a laugh.
I left a kiss on her belly before leveling my head to hers, squeezing my body in between her legs.
"Migs?" She wrapped her arms around my neck and her fingers played on my nape.
"Yes?" I asked in a groan as I began to grind against her.
"Hindi ba masama ito sa baby natin? Naisip ko lang, baka mamaya natatamaan na siya ni General sa loob. Parang kadiri naman yun. Baby natin 'to, ano! Ano yun? Incense?"
"What?" My brows furrowed. What she said was enough to make my hard-on shrink back. What she was saying was not possible but just the mere thought of that was a huge turn on. A chuckle escape my throat and after awhile, when I couldn't hold it in any longer, I started bursting into laughter.
"O, ano'ng nakakatatawa?" She asked.
"You've got to be kidding me!" I buried my face into her chest as my laughter died down.
"I'm not to be kidding you. Bakit ba? Ano bang nakakatawa? Ang laki naman kasi ng ano mo..." Her eyes furrowed.
"Oh, Saskia..." I lifted my head up and rested my forehead against her, cupping her face in my hand. "It's never going to touch the baby. Never, even when our baby gets bigger. May nakapalibot sa kanyang amniotic fluid na pumoprotekta sa kanya. Our baby's going to be in there until he gets out of your tummy."
"Ang talino naman talaga ni Daddy Migs." She raked her fingers through my hair.
I fondly rubbed my nose against hers and we kissed again. We made love again that night and fell asleep into each other's arms, completely exhausted.