Okay so I don't remember to write this yesterday because I was idk..I forgot what I did yesterday
Anywhores
Ppl are saying that cameron doesn't care ! But tbh he makes me feel happy,forget the pain , make me love myself .He just an angel from Heaven.
I love him .for making smile .a real smile.not a fake smile.
Today I realized I had depression..I remember when cameron once tried to take his life .i know one of my friends are reading this .i haven't text them because I can't text ,look,talk to no one.i had a very bad day
First my friend's pain .i hate seeing that
Second .right after I came from home my mom told to clean.my younger sister comes earlier than me ,she basically have one hour to herself.
But no ..I am slave , the worthless piece of shit ..I clean for my mom , because I can feel her pain .
I came out of my room o eat (just finished ) and my sister said "oh she here" I didn't care then I said "I am leaving " with my food
She like "oh good kill yourself "
I like "I been planning it "
Thirth -I am slave ,worthless piece of shit to everyone .this is why I don't like going home ....but I do everything for my parents even the ny dad doesn't sees his daughter in pain ...this is why I am online seeing magcon boys ,cuz they make me happy and feel important .yeah I know they don't know me .but they know how to make someone happy...maybe they will feel something when they loss a fan
......to be honest I am glad that Cameron and Nash are finally they're first movie together but I am scared for them forgetting they're real fans .
I don't want that . And if that ever happens .i will leave this world .
Thank you for reading , liking my things ! I love to see ppl that I don't even know in person , like my shitty stories .