ZAYN
I hate myself. How could I be this stupid. I regret every single thing that happened. If my mum hadn't visited us than nothing would've went wrong. I would have never said the stupid things I did and I'd be currently cuddled up with the only person my heart longed for. It has been a few days since the last time I held her.
Instead I'm now laying next to Perrie, my arm feeling lifeless as she had laid on it the whole night. Afraid to wake her up and having to spend time with her awake I try to be as quiet and still as possible.
Perrie is manageable as a friend, because you don't have to put up with her that much.
I look at her as she cuddles up against me. My mind goes back to Abigale and how she looks beautiful even when she's sleeping. I glance at the clock seeing it's only 5 pm. Had I worn her out that bad?
Feelings of guilt and regret wash over me as I realise yet again how big the mistake is that I had just made. How could I have sex with Perrie when Abigale is probably hurting.
You're so fucking stupid. I kept repeating to myself. How could I let a girl like Perrie blackmail me? I didn't even know she had the brains to do so. After dinner she had told me that if I didn't do what she said, she'd tell my mum about us breaking up and that I had a thing going on with Abigale. I'm such a pussy for being scared of my mum.
Luckily for me Perrie turns around giving me the chance to pull my arm away. I slowly slide from under the duvet and look at Perrie one last time making she hadn't woken up.
I saunter towards the bathroom taking in my appearance. Eventhough I look okay, inside I'm feeling empty. Would she ever be able to forgive me? I've been such a fucking asshole to her.
I leave my room silently making my way into the kitchen. When I'm pouring milk in a glass, Waliyha walks in looking down at her as always.
Waliyha has been acting different towards me. She went from missing me when I wasn't there to ignoring me everytime I'm around. I hate it.
"Also want a glass of milk?" I ask her lifting mine.
She gives me a glare in return.
"Why are you acting like this? What happened between Abigale and I is not your business." I state seeing her look up from her phone as she rolls her eyes, making me miss the times she was still a baby.
"You didn't say a word about Perrie since that day and now after everything that has happened between you and Abigale, you're suddenly back together? What happened?" Waliyha snaps at me, annoyance dripping from her voice.
"I simply moved on." I lie to her. I couldn't tell anyone about Perrie blackmailing me. My mum would definitely be on her side and fire Abigale immediately.
"Yeah, right. Lucky for her she has moved on too. In fact, she's on a date right now at the funfair." Waliyha smiles wickedly at me knowing I wouldn't like this.
I clench my fist in anger. While I'm feeling bad for days about what I had done, she moved on like it meant nothing to her at all? Only the thought of another man touching her makes me want to throw up. One thing is sure, if I meet this guy, I'll make him regret it.
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ABIGALE
My mouth falls slightly agape when Aron pulls up in front of a big funfair. I've always wanted to go to one.
"Excited?" He asks sending a cheeky smile my way as he already had seen my reaction.
"Hell, yes." I answer with a smile. We get out from the car and without thinking twice I take his hand and pull him inside with me. He insists on paying for our tickets and I agree not wanting to make this awkward by protesting.
"What do you want to do first?" He asks and I take in my surroundings seeing all the options I've got. My eyes fall on a rollercoast that didn't seems too wild and I point in it's direction.
"Can we go on that one?" He nods and we make our way towards the entrance of the attraction.
We didn't have to wait too long before it's our turn. My stomach is slightly hurting from the nerves since I have never been on one before. From nearby it looked taller than I had thought.
I scream the whole damn time and relief washes over me as we stop at the entrace again. It was awesome though. We continue going on more attractions and then decide it's time to eat something. I tried my best to eat my hotdog as elegant as possible but failed miserably.
Next we're standing in line for the ferris wheel. Aron is talking about the vacation he went on with some friends when my eyes suddenly fall on someone familiar. What the hell is he doing here?
Zayn walks hand in hand with Perrie, making it seems as if a dagger stabs me in the heart. I fight the urge to not gape at the two of them enjoying themselves. For the one time I'm not thinking of him he decides to show up.
"Is everything alright?" Aron asks noticing I didn't listen anymore. His hand is on my shoulder trying to get my attention.
"Yes, I'm fine." I answer quickly, not sounding convinced at all. His hand falls back to his side as he observes me quietly.
I look behind Aron again to see what the two of them are up to, but my eyes widen when I see Zayn already staring at me. The distance between us didn't mask the anger present on his face as his eyes flickered between Aron and I.
Something in me wants Zayn to know how much I'm enjoying my time without him, eventhough if it isn't fully the truth. This is my chance to make Zayn feel the way he made me feel. I feel bad knowing I'd be using Aron.
But what if Zayn had never felt something for me? Than I would be making a fool out of myself.
For a second worry washes over me as I don't see Safaa and Waliyha with him. Who is watching them? A sigh of relief leaves from my lips when I realise Doniya is home. Otherwise Zayn would have been in big trouble.
Aron gives me a concerned expression. "You sure?"
"Just thankful that you brought me here," I tell him grabbing his hand in mine. I see Zayn with clenched fists in the corner of my eye. Exactly the reaction I had hoped for.
I'm not lying to Aron. I do feel grateful for him taking me here and taking my minds of things before Zayn showed up. Otherwise I'd definitely have had the best time.
"You're welcome." He answers giving my hand a small squeeze. I smile at the sweet gesture.
"It's our turn."
When we're about to get in, Aron's name is being called.
We both turn around to see Zayn with Perrie holding his hand coming our way. She looks properly pissed.
"Uh, hey Zayn." Aron greets as they shake hands. This is awkward.
"Mind if we join you guys?" Zayn asks surprising me.
Aron looks over at me and I just shrug my shoulder, mad that Zayn did this. After what he had done to me, I did not understand that he kept haunting me. Couldn't he just leave me alone?
"Sure." Aron tells them and I notice Perrie rolling her eyes. The awkward tension between Zayn and I is making me uncomfortable. I avoid his gaze, hoping he'd realise how wrong this was of him.
The four of us step inside the cart and a few seconds later it starts moving. Zayn had taken place in front of me almost challenging me to look at him.
"Haven't seen you in a while." Zayn says directed to Aron.
"Yeah, I know. I have been busy." Aron answers rubbing the back of his neck. Just like me it looks like Aron doesn't want to meet eyes with Zayn. Is he scared?
I look to my left, regretting my action immediately as I notice the height. F*ck. I scoot a bit closer towards Aron.
"Are you okay?" Aron asks taking my hand in his. I nod slowly promising myself to not look down again.
Zayn his jaw clenches at the gesture. It surprises me that Aron even does this knowing the history Zayn and I shared. Perrie couldn't look more unbothered as she scrolls through her phone.
"I'm not a fan of heights." I tell him looking down at our hands. I wish his touch gave me the same tingles I got from Zayn's. But it doesn't eventhough it would make things easier.
I gaze up seeing Zayn also looking at our hands, jealously clear on his face. I smile slightly provoking Zayn, who gives us an angry glare.
How things could've been totally different...
The rest of the ride is filled with silence and when the cart finally comes to a halt I couldn't be more relieved. I had survived.
"Abigale, you're driving home with me. We need to talk." Zayn declares all of the sudden.