✰LUKE✰
Today was okay, I hadn't gotten into trouble which I'm grateful for.
Ashton said we all could go for a walk tomorrow.
I'm not sure If I should try to runaway in case it doesn't work out.
The thought terrifies me of getting punished again.
I was currently in 'my room'. I asked Ashton if I could sleep freely with out the shackle and surprisingly he said yes. It hurts my ankle really much, I now have a small line of bruises forming around my ankle.
Ashton did say it was getting late so I might try to sleep but that hasn't been successful for the past few nights. Thinking about my aunt and uncle worrying makes me feel sad. I can't tell them that I'm somewhat okay. I do miss them. If my parents were alive I don't know what I'd do.
I don't even know how long I've been here but I don't plan on being here any longer than I need too.
So tomorrow onwards I have to figure a way out of here, even if that means hurting myself in the process.
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"Look alive, sunshine" Ashton voice lightly echoed the room. The electrical light turning on, brightening the place up since this technically is a cell I suppose.
He seemed happier of what I could gather from just small brief encounters we've had these past few days. Which weren't good ones.
"C'mon, get ready" looking up at him as if to say what for?.
"Don't you remember lu?" I cringe at the nick name as Ashton let out a sigh while I shook my head. I was about to ask but it hit me. He said I was allowed to go out for a walk.
I haven't seen natural sunlight in days. I'm sure I looked pale from not eating like I usually do, to being surrounded in this environment. It really did make me homesick. The lack of vitamin D hasn't been much so I hope it's somewhat sunny. I didn't even know exactly the time since there was no clock or anything. I really wish I had hid my phone a bit better. I wouldn't have to go trough this.
"Luke?" Ashton snapped his finger in front of my face. He gave me a concerned look out of curiosity but understandable I did have tendencies to day dream during a conversation.
"Since you've been good so far... I'm only letting you once-just-once! Pick something to wear" i shouldn't really be excited to chose something for myself but the basic format of how I was to act, the schedule they have me in,it became routine in the matter of a few days. Who knows maybe even weeks.
"Thank you" giving Ashton a quick smile I stood up and walked over to the boy with hazel eyes who had his eyes on my every move till I had reached the closet where he stood.
Scanning over he pieces of clothing I had seen before and few extra pieces I hadn't seen like dresses. And my opinion with me in a dress are far from nice so moving on. T-shirts with words I'd rather not know the meaning to on them as in "daddy's girl". I don't want to know what else they plan to buy with money I didn't even know they had.
"You see anything you like lu?" Ashton moved behind me looking over my shoulder his body getting extremely close to mine, it's as if he was using me as a heater. I was very uncomfortable feeling his front part touch my butt. It felt weird. I had no problem with people being gay but I wasn't gay myself...
"Ahem" I jerked forward a bit signalling Ashton to move which did work.
"What?"Ashton backed off soon but not quick enough to ask if there was something wrong but of course I wouldn't say anything as I'm not permitted to antagonise them and get my self hurt on purpose.
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"Don't go to far ahead!" Calum called. He sounded like my mother once we got to a park.
We had only been here for a good 20 minutes at most and I was speed walking ahead of the guys.
We were in the forest as far as I knew I couldn't here or see any footpaths, roads or people driving near by. Which did make me feel emotional for a second.
I
They dress me up, bathe me, watch me and I'm surprised they haven't physically made me eat yet like they said they'd do if necessary. So I've chosen to listen and eat for the time being though I'm not really gaining anything recently.
I still have bruising on my face and ribs.
"Luke-come here!" Michael called for me instead. The boys all hurdled up talking lowly as I walked back to them. They had been carrying a blanket and a basket no doubt filled with food and drinks, it was around lunch from what I could guess as we had breakfast quite a while ago.
"Calum, Luke take each corner while me and Ashton set up the food and drinks."Michael says.
I did help set the blanket that could fit 10 people on it down before taking a breather.
I hadn't really thought about life and shit.
I always thought breathing exercise were stupid and pointless till this day.
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Dinner time was over and I can't help to think about today and what Ashton said to me on the way back.
"Don't forget you still are ours little one"
I need to leave soon and quick.
"Uh Calum, or Michael?"
"Yes" I think that was Calum so I just went with it.
"Can I go to the toilet?"
"Oh... uhh I'm a bit busy right no-"
"I can go on my own" I persuade. I needed this to work. My first and hopefully only attempt of getting out of here was right now.
"Umm I don't know. Ashton will get upset if he finds o-"
"He won't" I got up form the couch and walked to where Calum was washing dishes.
"Please cal"the only way they do as I ask is if I show them affection through hugging or kissing and I don't plan on doing either.
He looked at me then the ceiling for a moment before coming to the conclusion that if I wasn't back in 2 minutes I would be punished. But the thing is cal I don't plan to be here when you think you can punish me from all the way in Michigan while your behind bars.
"Thank you Cal" I gave him side hug walking away very quickly but discretely as I didn't know where Michael and Ashton were currently.
All I really cared about right now is escaping from a bathroom without no window...
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Okay,so I forgot to write an author's note at the end. But I know people hate them so imma make this short. I might not be able to update this weekend or a few days more as I have not written anything else except chapter eleven which is not complete yet so if I finish that today U.K time of course I'll update today 4th of November at 7pm. :)