Park Chanyeol
"Nana, where is Chan-Ah?" tanong ko kay Nana habang nage-entertain ng guests, while my eyes searched for my kid.
"She's with Sehun's child." she said casually, I somehow got annoyed na pinapabayaan niya lang yung anak namin. What if someone kidnapped her? Kahit na alam 'kong secured ang restaurant, hindi ko pa rin maiiwasan mag-isip ng mga ganung bagay.
Iniwan ko si Nana at sinimulang hanapin ang anak namin. I saw Sehun and Luhan happily eating. Ka-table nila sila Kyungsoo. Sehun saw me approaching, hindi nila kasama si Chan-Ah, where is she?
"Chanyeol!" he said. "Bro, the food's great!" sabi niya,
"Thank you, mag-enjoy lang kayo. If you want more, just tell the waiter," Sehun nodded, binati ko naman ang mga anak nila, at syiempre sila Jongin. Luhan nodded with a smile, Kyungsoo nodded nonchalantly, I guess he's still mad at me and Jongin gave me a smile. "Se, have you see Chan-Ah?" I asked Sehun while he wiped the corner of Seth's mouth. Tahimik lang na kumakain si Seth. Si Hanse naman sinusubuan ni Luhan. Habang si Taeoh ay walang tigil sa kakanguya ng chicken. Kyungsoo and Jongin's twins are quietly eating too.
"She approached me a while ago, she just said hi, then tumakbo papuntang cr." I said thanks at nagsimulang maglakad papunta sa may cr.
I found her talking to someone. Sino yon?
"Chan-Ah!" I shouted, she saw me and started to run towards me.
"Dad!" She held my hand while I stared at the person whom she talked to. The man stood up. Back facing me. Hindi ko alam pero bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko.
Sobrang familiar yung tao na ito and before I knew it, he faced me.
I was too stunned to speake.
He's back?
"B-baek?" Damn. I stuttered! It's been 7 years and he still looks dashing! He even looked younger!
"Hi," sabi niya. "Hi, Chanyeol." his voice, his honey voice. I missed his voice.
"Y-you're back..." Fuck, I stuttered again. "Since when?"
It felt awkward. It felt awkward seeing the man you love standing right in front of you after 7 damn years.
Why did he leave me back then?
"Uhm, ngayon lang, Chanyeol--" he was cut off by a voice.
"Chanyeol! Have you see-- Baekhyun?" Nana looked stunned. Napahinto siya sa tabi ni Chan-Ah. "Y-you're back?" umirap si Baekhyun sakanya. "Why are you here?" kunut-noong tanong niya. I felt Chan-Ah let go of my hand.
"Uhmm, punta lang po ako kela Tito Sehun, Dad, Mom." I nodded, Chan-Ah knows how to stay away from adult conversations.
"Duh, malamang kakain, anak niyo?" he asked, did he sound bitter or that was just my imagination.
I was just staring at him, gosh he's so beautiful.
Wala pa rin nagbago kay Baekhyun.
Nana held my arm.
"Yes, her name's Chan-Ah." She pulled me closer. "Our child. How are you for the past 7 years?"
"I'm not here today to engage in a reunion with the two of you," tiningnan niya ako. "Especially, you, Chanyeol. Alam ko na mangyayari toh, but it's too early for this." what? Is he saying he came back for me?
"Ah, ganun ba, why did you choose to eat at Viva Polo, of all places, Baekhyun. Dito pa talaga." Nana said rudely.
"Jin Ah, don't start. Baekhyun's still a customer, you shouldn't talk to him that way." Pag-saway ko sakanya.
"It's fine, Chanyeol." sabi ni Baekhyun. "I'm not alone, hindi ko naman alam na nandito kayo, if I knew, edi sana sa iba kami pumunta." He said in a sassy tone.
"Oh? You didn't know that we own this place?" I saw Baekhyun flinched.
So he didn't know.
How come?
"I... I didn't know." bago pa makapag-salita si Nana ay biglang sumulpot si Daehyun, he was carrying a child. What?
A child.
"Baek, we need to go. He said his tummy hurts. Let's just eat at home." he glanced at me, and nodded. Why is Daehyun with him? Baekhyun looked worried. Nakatingin siya sa batang karga karga ni Daehyun. Hindi ko makita yung mukha dahil nakasubsob ang mukha nito sa leeg ni Daehyun.
"What?" nag-aalalang tanong ni Baekhyun, anak ba nila toh? Napayukom ang kamay ko. They have a child? Baekhyun looked at us. "We need to go, it was nice seeing you." sabi niya bago sila umalis ni Daehyun.
So he has a child with Daehyun?
Fuck!
Did he really cheat behind my back!?
Fucking shit we're still married!
"Chanyeol!" Nana half-shouted pulling me out of my thoughts.
"You shouldn't have done that Jin Ah, you were rude." sabi ko habang tinatanggal ang kamay niyang nakahawak sa braso ko.
"So ako pa ang may kasalanan, Chanyeol? Ganun?" Pagmamaktol niya. "Ugh! I can't believe you Park Chanyeol! When are you going to learn to love me!?"
Agad ko siyang hinarap. It's getting annoying!
"Fucking stop it, Nana!" I half-shouted before I held her arm. "We. Are. Going. Home." Madiin 'kong sabi.
Madiin lang ang pagkakahwak ko sakanya, she was squirming lightly, but she didn't want to make a scene dahil nasa gitna kami at naglalakad kami papunta sa table nila Jongin kung nasaan si Chan-Ah.
"Chan-Ah, baby." I called, agad naman siyang bumaba mula sa lap ni Kyungsoo. "We need to go home," she held hands with me. "Something came up, take charge Jongin." Tumango naman si Jongin.
Binitawan ko saglit si Nana para buhatin ang anak namin. Then I took Nana by the arm again, and dragged her. Nang makarating kami sa parking lot, agad 'kong binuksan ito para isakay si Chan-Ah. Nilagyan ko siya ng seatbelt and kissed her hair. I closed the door at tiningnan si Nana.
"Get in the car." I said, at hindi ko na siya pinagbuksan.
When I was inside, Nana was quietly getting in and doing her seatbelt.
"Chanyeol-"
"Let's talk at home. Chan-Ah is at the back. She shouldn't hear this." Walang gana 'kong sabi.
"Mommy? Daddy? Are you two fighting?" Chan-Ah asked, I looked at her through the rear view mirror.
"No, baby." She looked at me curiously. "We're not fighting." I reassured her. Alam 'kong hindi kami okay ni Nana, but in front of our child, I'm trying my best to show her that we're all right.
She's still young.
"Oh, shut up! Chanyeol! Just let her know!" sigaw ni Nana, I glared at her for a second.
"Nana, not here." I said with gritted teeth. Tumingin ulit ako sa rear view mirror to check up on Chan-Ah, but she's staring blankly at us.
"No, Chanyeol. Chan-Ah has the right to know!" What the hell is she up to!?
"Nana!"
"Chan-Ah! You know what?" Putangina, not our child! I tried my best to focus on driving. Malapit na kami sa bahay. I don't want us to get into an accident. I don't want to involve Chan-Ah in our mess. She's just a child for god-sake! "Your dad and I will never be okay."
"Jin Ah! I said stop it!" I can hear Chan-Ah's whimpers.
"No!" Lumingon siya para tingnan si Chan-Ah. Fucking hell! "Your dad loves another man, and his name is Baekhyun, Chan-Ah, he doesn't love me. Maybe he doesn't love you either! He's just doing his responsibility anak!"
"SHUT UP! JIN AH!" I stopped the car in front of our gate. I heard Chan-Ah crying. Agad akong bumaba at binuksan ang pintuan ng backseat. I tried to console her. "Shhh, baby, don't listen to your mommy." Niyakap ko kaagad siya. "Shhhh, stop crying... Please."
"Is it true? Daddy? Don't you love mommy?" humihikbi niyang tanong. "Don't you love me?"
"No no, that's not true." pinunasan ko ang mga luha sa pisngi niya. I hate seeing my child cry. My princess shouldn't cry. Wala dapat pwedeng magpaiyak sa anak ko. "I love you... Daddy loves you, always remember that." I kissed her forehead and tried to calm her. Binaba ko siya sa semento and closed the backseat's door. She was wiping her tears and I stooped down in order to level her.
"H-how... how about mommy? Don't you love mommy? Are you not happy with mommy?"
Fuck...
"Chan-Ah, it's not--"
"Stop lying to our child Chanyeol! She doesn't deserve this!" Agad 'kong binigyan ng masamang tingin si Nana.
"Shut up. Go inside the house!"
"No!" sigaw niya sakin. I can hear Chan-Ah's cries getting louder. "If you can't love me back, then we're leaving!"
"Mommy! Daddy! Wag na po kayo mag-away!" I heard my child say.
"What the hell are you talking about, Nana? No one's leaving! Hindi kayo aalis!" I shouted and tried to grabbed her but she dodged. Kinuha niya ang kamay ni Chan-Ah.
"Mommy!" I saw her grip tightened.
"Let go of Chan-Ah! Nasasaktan siya!"
"Chanyeol! We're leaving you! Baekhyun's back! Pwede ka ng bumalik sakanya!" hinila niya si Chan-Ah. She's crying so hard.
"M-ommy! D-daddy! Ayoko po umalis!" Gusto ko rin hilahin pabalik si Chan-Ah pero mas lalo siyang masasaktan. I need Jin Ah to let go of her.
"Chan-Ah! Stop squirming! We're leaving!"
"Nana! Bitawan mo siya! Nasasaktan na ang anak natin!" I tried to touch her pero hinila lang niya si Chan-Ah at pumunta sa tabi ng pinto ng kotse niya.
"I don't care! Kung hindi mo ako mamahalin, aalis nalang kami." galit niyang sabi. "Baekhyun's back, mahal mo pa siya diba? Why don't you go back to him and build your fantasies with him!? But remember this Chanyeol! Once you come back to him, hinding hindi mo na kami makikita ni Chan-Ah! Get inside!" At sapilitan niyang pinasok si Chan-Ah sa kotse.
I glared at her.
"Daddy!" sigaw niya bago isara ni Nana ang pintuan ng kotse.
"Nana! Shit! Don't do this! Isipin mo ang bata! Don't be selfish!"
"I've been waiting all these years! Chanyeol! If you can't love me back, then you can't love Chan-Ah too!"
I wanted to push her, naiinis ako. Why is she so selfish? Only thinking about herself?
"You can leave if you want! But don't take Chan-Ah!"
"No! She's coming with me! I want you to suffer! Gusto ko maalala mo kung paano nawala si Chan-Ah sayo, dahil lang sa hindi ka maka-move on!" she shouted bago sumakay ng kotse at pinaharurot ng sasakyan.
"Jin Ah!" Ah fuck! Agad naman akong sumakay sa kotse para sundan ang sasakyan ni Nana, she's driving recklessly! Natatakot ako sa pwedeng mangyari kay Chan-Ah.
I tried calling her cellphone, sinagot naman niya ito.
"Nana! Stop the car! Mag-usap tayo ng maayos! Not like this!" I can hear Chan-Ah crying from the background.
[["Wala na tayong pag-uusapan Chanyeol!..... OH SHUT UP PLEASE! STOP CRYING!]]
"Wag 'mong sigawan yung bata!" I shouted at her! She's making me mad! Why is she shouting at Chan-Ah! She's just a child!
[["Wala 'kang pakealam! She's my child and I can do whatever I want!... FUCK! I SAID STOP CRYING CHAN-AH!"]]
"FUCK! I SAID WAG MO SIYANG SIGAWAN!" Bago ko pa marinig yung sagot niya, nagulat ako sa nakita ko.
It was so sudden,
A truck hit Nana's car while passing an intersection. I heard a loud crash, then muffled voices from the other line. I pressed on the breaks.
"Hello?" I spoke, but no one answered. Shit. "HELLO? NANA? CHAN-AH? HELLO? HELLO! ANSWER ME! GODDAMMIT!" agad akong tumawag ng ambulance at bumaba ng kotse.
I ran up to her car at hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko when I saw how the car looks.
Naipit siya ng 10-wheeler truck
Chan-Ah.... She.... She can't... No... My child can't die... She's just an innocent child... Please... Don't let her die.
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