While being immersed in chanting,
Your holy name O Krsna,
I suddenly thought it was you,
Standing erect instead of that pillar.
The pillar was always there,
And I've always wondered,
If You were ever hidden inside
Because You always expertly hide.
And today had been the day,
When I didn't want to be away,
From the cold pillar;
I could feel Your arms, legs, feet and flute,
I almost thought I could hold,
Your lotus hands.
But then the dark reality struck when I looked beside,
You decided to again hide inside;
For all I saw was a cold grey pillar,
And I started to cry.
At that time
I was enough crazy,
That if it were dark everywhere,
I wouldn't have to think,
Before embracing the pillar.
But it was unfortunate of me,
To compare thy lotus feet,
With the pillar as cold as a rod,
But my thoughts were pretty bold.
But its weird of me,
That today when I went and stood,
By the cold pillar,
I swear I felt Your presence,
But then I realized I was also continuously chanting,
Your sweet holy name.
It was probably on my tongue,
That You and Srimati Radharani danced,
And I felt You are beside me,
In the cold grey pillar,
Ready to hold my hand.
Then I rushed inside,
And I was actually afraid to go beside,
That pillar again.
But the pull was somehow so intense,
That I was forced to go and stand beside.
But it was just a cold pillar, right?
Now that I think I was crazy,
Pretty stupid and idiot,
Enough to think why would You come to me?
Who is so fallen in the entire universe!