Chapter 18
I walk out quickly, grabbing a bottle of liquor on my way.
As soon as I am out of everyone's sight. I bolted straight on the beach unsure to where I'm going.
I tripped in the ground but I couldn't find the strength to stand anymore.
I clutch my chest as I sat in the sand crying. It just hurts so much; I think if I could just yank my heart I would. I'll clearly do anything to not feel this pain
I look down at my dress which is now kinda wet 'cause my tears are uncontrollably escaping my eyes
I bit the liquor's cork open and let the alcohol calm my senses for me. The pain hasn't lessen, the tears didn't stop but at least now I'm not shaking and my cry was much more tamed than before
I sat there for a while trying to cover the pain with the beauty of the place in front of me
The night was a quite one. The moon and stars shine above brightly making the dark water sparkle. The ocean waves are calmly crashing on the beach thus producing a soothing sound but the night seem rather sad without the wind blowing it's cool breeze.
It's not the same night I had with him...
A jolt of pain rushes through my chest making me flinch. I guess, I just have to live this...
After what felt like an hour, I stood up and decided to head towards the cabin. I'm afraid that someone would see me like this.. So weak, so vulnerable. I wouldn't want anyone to feel sad or pity me 'cause that would just hurt me more
I walk unsteadily towards the cabin for the alcohols already kicked in
I sat down on the sand and rested my head back on the tree near the cabin. I took another swig from the liquor bottle
I close my eyes trying to forget the pain and everything but completely failing at it as more tears stream down my face
A clank of bottles force my eyes open again. I look sideways trying to find where it came from. No one was here
*Clank
The sound came from the other side of the tree. I stood up wobbly and walk towards the other side of the tree
It felt like as if someone stabs me directly in the chest with a sharp cold knife upon seeing who my company was
I wanted to run away but my feet were completely planted in the ground. Zayn looks up with a pained expression
"What are you doing here?" I ask him rather concern
He smiled ironically at me but it can't hide the train of tears as it falls down from his lovely brown eyes, this hurted me like hell. I can tell that he's kinda drunk like me.
"I should be asking you that question..."
I sat down beside him though I know that if I do this I'd be hurting myself more but the thought of leaving Zayn alone with his own pain seems rather unbearable compared to my pain. I'd nurse my heart later. That's how much I love him
"What's your problem?" he asks in a rough voice. I bet he notice that like him, I'm crying my eyes out
I rested my head on the bark of the tree before answering "... Reality caught up with me. It slaps me so hard in the face..." I took another swig while another train of tears escapes my eyes "... What about you?"
"She left. The girl I love doesn't love me..." he chocked and sobs drowns out his voice
I wanted to hug him so badly, to give him comfort. This is the only thing that keeps me intact. I wanna be here for Zayn though it hurts so badly knowing he loves my best friend and not me
I give in to my urge and wrap my arms around Zayn. His head rested on my neck and I could feel his warm tears against my skin making tears escape my own eyes. This is gonna hurt more badly when this is over
We just stayed like that crying our eyes out
After a while, Zayn escapes from my weak arms and rested his head on the tree's back like me
I chuckled as if someone told a joke "... This is worst night ever"
He chuckled sarcastically in response then raises his bottle of liquor in the air while shouting "... To the worst night ever!"
I raise mine also in the air "... To the worst night!"
We both chugged down our bottles
Zayn stood up pulling me up with me "Come with me..."
We walk towards beach with our hands link. I should probably stop this before hurting myself further more but I can't stop it. Everything about me wants him so badly...
We reach the shore and felt the cold rolling waves hit our feet.
Zayn lets go of my hand and shouted as loud as he could before finally dropping down on the ground. He looks up at me with a smirk forming on his lips
I shouted as loud and long as I could go before dropping on my knees in the wet sand.
We both lay down on the sand laughing. From a far we might look like loonies but I don't care as long as I'm with him
We sat back up and empty our liquor bottles unto our mouths
We cock our heads to the side as we heard faint pop music in the distant. We look at each other
"Should we celebrate our broken hearts?" Zayn asks standing up and holding out his hand
I chuckled then took his hand "... Let's celebrate our damn useless broken hearts"
We ran together to the nearby club almost stumbling on our way since, we're both kinda drunk. We chase each other on the beach tripping and rolling on the sand and before we reach the club we both are covered with sand.
A lot of people were there but I bet they don't even care about us since some where either too drunk already or some where busy getting drunk. We headed straight to the liquor bar, ordering a bottle of vodka for each then, heading straight to the dance floor
We jump up and down. Shouting and letting our bodies move with the music.
"... You should go and play DJ Malik!" I shouted at him since the music was blaring and I doubt it that's he's gonna hear me if I use my normal voice
He smirk "I will if you play with me..."
We both chuckled. I was probably more drunk than him for I can't even walk straight without someone assisting me. So, Zayn keeps his hand on my waist
I jump up on an unoccupied table and began singing 'Call me maybe' at the top of my lungs. Zayn was laughing really hard as he watches me
"... Get down there.. You could fall and DJ Malik has to catch you" he shouted trying to pull me down
"Me no want too.." I pouted then continue to dance on the table
Zayn laughs again "Well.... If you can't beat them, join them"
We dance at the top of the table with Zayn still holding me by the waist to keep me from falling off the table
"Hey!.." someone shouted "... get down from there!"
I was guessing that the big muscular man who was heading towards us is the club's bouncer.
Zayn and I immediately jump down from the table and bolted straight towards the door.
"Look at what I got..." I sang out raising 2 bottles of liquor
Zayn chuckled "... Party's over love"
I put my arm around his shoulder "My Party's not over... Come on"
I pointed at the cabin "We could party there..."
Zayn chuckled "... Just the two of us?"
I nodded then grin "Will DJ Malik play for me?"
He ruffled my hair "DJ Malik will"
"Yehey!" I shouted and pulled him into a run towards the cabin.
We went up on the cabin's 2nd floor to the room where the balcony is located. Zayn took out his Ipod from his pocket and began playing music.
We both laugh hard while drinking the liquor bottles I snuck out of the club. We dance around and around the room.
The music change
".... Turn the lights out now, now I'll take you by the hand
Hand you another drink, drink it if you can,
Can you spend a little time. time is slipping away
Away from us so stay, stay with me....."
I began singing and soon enough Zayn was also singing with me. He took my hand and we dance around, spinning and spinning
I got so dizzy that I fell on the ground, pulling Zayn with me
I laugh loudly then, I notice that Zayn was on top of me. He was starring at me with his deep brown eyes
My fingers drew circles on his cheek. We stayed like that for a while then....
He leans down, crushing his warm lips against mine
He's kissing me passionately and my lips dance along with the rhythm of his.
Our lips parted for a while, I was panting and so was he...
I looked him in the eyes. His face.... Everything about him seems so... so desirable.
I want more. I want him now more than ever.
My hands flew up on his nape then my lips crushed against his again.
We're sitting on the floor now but the kissing didn't stop. I could feel his strong hands, tangled on my hair.
Zayn stood up and carried me with him. We sat on the bed and he was kissing my neck.
His hands where on my waist, pulling me closer and closer to him, until our sweaty bodies were pressed together.
He stops and gasps for air then he began taking off his white shirt and he tore off my clothes as well.
The moonlight reflects the perfect contours of his body. My hand rested on his strong chest, feeling his heartbeat.
I kissed him on the neck then on cheek, on the nose before finally kissing him on the lips.
Before I knew it, our clothes are scattered everywhere and our skin were burning up against each other. He explored every bit of who I was and I did the same to him. I had no regrets whatsoever about what happened because tight at that moment, all I cared about was the fact that I wanted him and he wanted me.
I can't believe I'm doing this. I'm well aware of what's happening right now even though I'm drunk. I know this would probably hurt me when this is over but I don't care 'cause right now I felt love and I want him.
I want Zayn Malik so badly.