Miss Matched

Chapter 20: It Just Hurts A Lot

Chapter 20

"Kaleen, don't lie to me I know you're not okay" Harry says leaning closer to my face

I smiled weakly at him "Am I that bad as an actress?"

"Kaleen... Please" Harry says his green eyes pleading

"It hurts..." my voice crack and tears started to well up in my eyes "... I can't help my heart.."

I can see pain in Harry's eyes as I again hurted him by saying what I feel for Zayn.

He hugs me tightly then kisses me on the forehead "... I'm here.. I wish I could make it go away" he says pain clearly visible in his voice

Tears streams down my face. Now I'm not hurting only myself, I'm hurting Harry too.

"I'm sorry Harry.. I-I.. wi-wish I could've love you and not him"

"Shh..." he wipes the tears away from my cheeks with his thumb ".. It's not your fault love"

"I-I.. Just can't forget him. I tried to... I tried it with you but-but... I still love him"

Harry's arms tighten around me "I know you tried. I can see it... But it's never the same between him and me. It's him, it's always been him"

I buried my face in Harry's shoulder until the tears and sobs died down

I'm such a selfish person. I know that what I'm saying probably hurts Harry but I just keep on telling it to him to get it off my chest. It's not like I'm the only person who's not being love back by the person I love, Harry too but you won't see him breaking down like this.

"I'm okay now Harry.. Thank you" I smiled at him

"Are you sure?" he asks

I nodded then gave him a kiss on the cheek "You should go now, they must be waiting for you.."

"Don't worry Kaleen, I bet they won't start without 'The Harry Styles'"

I chuckled "Go get them curly"

He smiled then kisses me on the top of my head before walking away.

Today is Day One of the video shoot and John says that they'll be shooting all the scenes of the boys together first before the individual ones. So, us girls have the all day for ourselves.

I haven't talk to Jill yet, I don't if I can, but clearly it's not her fault that Zayn loves her. It just hurts to see her 'cause it just brings back the painful memories of last night

I look around and found Jill and Alex walking towards me

Oh.. Life, Why are you doing this to me? Might as well face them now though I know that I really don't have a choice

Alex and Jill sat beside me

"What happened to you last night baby?" Jill asks stroking my hair

I smiled weakly at her. A pang of pain hits my chest

"Yeah... What happened to you love? You just left your own party waaay to early" Alex says

"Um-.. It's nothing" I lied

"Harry says you've got a headache last night so you decided to leave but when I went to our room you weren't there.. What happened to you?"

I shrug my shoulders "Um- I did have a headache and.. Um- I kinda fell asleep on the cabin"

Harry covered for me last night, now I do owe him big time

"You slept there all alone?" Alex asks