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Chapter 14
Harry stayed at our room for the whole day. I know that I'm suppose to be spending the day with Zayn but.. I don't know, As much as I want too, I just can't for I know that he'd rather spend his time with Jill than me. That hurts a little but that's just the reality of life.
"Should we go down now?" I ask Harry who's playing with my hand
"Mhmm.... Maybe" he says
I ruffled his hair "We're doing nothing here and don't tell me your enjoying playing with my hand"
Harry laughs "I am indeed enjoying it"
I sighed "We should go now. Please?"
"Fine. Why are you so eager to go down?"
I don't know maybe I wanted to see Zayn.I bet none of them had a clue in what's going on and I don't want any of them to know.
"I'm just bored here" I lied
Harry took my hand and we walk out of our room. Harry already knows now that I'm still unsure of what I feel for him. I like him but it's not just enough. I mean I enjoyed being with him but it's not the same with Zayn. Zayn's... It's different. As confuse I am with what I feel for him I do know that it's much more than what I feel for Harry
"Kaleen?" Harry says as we rode the elevator down
"Yeah?"
"... Is Jill always like that, I mean.... she's acting kinda strange" he says looking down at the floor
My mind was flooded with images of Jill's face this morning. I don't know what's wrong with her but she did kinda change. Being with her now is awkward which never happen before. Ever since that 1st bonding day she... she's been acting really strange but what's crazy is I can sometimes see Jill's expression on my face.
I bit my lip "... I think she's just.. She's adjusting"
"Okay" Harry says
We walked out of the elevator and went straight to the hotel restaurant.
Everybody was already there. They all look up when we entered, the atmosphere is heavy unlike before. I saw Alex sitting beside Louis who is looking at me with a worried expression.
Jill was looking at Harry with blank expression then, there's Zayn who's looking at Jill with a grim expression.
"Now we can start.." John says sitting "... we need to talk about something first"
All of them looked at me. I have a feeling that they already knew what happened and that it turned out to be a mess
"Kaleen?" John says
I bowed my head and spoke in a small voice "I'm sorry... It's.. I didn't expect it to get this big"
"It's my fault" Zayn says
"Wait!..." Harry says "... What is this about?"
I bit my lip and all of them looks at Harry with a confuse expression
"Haven't you seen it mate?" Niall asks
"Seen what?...." Harry turns to me ".... What is this about?"
I can't answer Harry it's like I lose my voice.
"Harry I-... Um-"
"Here.." Jill handed Harry a piece of paper. Jill looks at me coldly
"... You might've told him about it. Like you should've told me"
"I'm sorry Jill" I whispered at her.
We all stayed silent as Harry was reading the Article. I watch Horror flood his face as he was continuously reading the article
"You knew about this? " Harry looks up at me in a disappointed expression
I nodded my head heavily. I can't look at him, it's as if I did something very wrong and I'm afraid that by looking at him I would see the accusations in his eyes.
".. Just this morning" I said in a low voice
I felt all gaze shifted at either me or us
"Why didn't you tell me? I was with you this whole morning..." I felt the restrain in Harry's voice
My hands fidgeted and my heart started running
"I-.. I.. I didn't know it was this big. I'm sorry"
"Nevertheless, you should've told me" Harry says his voice getting higher now
".. And why didn't you tell me?" Jill asks
".. I just found out this morning and you're gone" I told her
".. You should've at least told me this morning that you went out with Zayn.. So I didn't look stupid!" Jill says
"It's not her fault. It's my fault. I'm sorry" Zayn says
".. You could've at least told me last night mate" Harry says
".. You're asleep Harry and it just happen that Zayn's awake." I told Harry
".. Then you could've woken me up instead" Jill says
"I don't wanna bother you and besides I didn't expect that I'll be going out"
It's getting kinda annoying now with me explaining it repeatedly to them and with them treating me as if I'm a 15 year old girl. Nothing bad happened to me last night, didn't it? Why are they making it such a big deal?
"I don't care. You should've told me..." Jill says
".. Or me" Harry says
"Stop it guys!.." I covered my ears with my hands but they just keep talking on and on
"Stop it!" I hit the table with both of my hands then stood up "... I'm a 20 year old lady. I know what I'm doing and I don't need to ask any permission from any of you"
"I'm your best friend, aren't I?!" Jill stood up
"You should've just woken me up last night.." Harry says
"What could've change if I did Harry?" I ask him
"Everything!.." he backfired ".. You're my responsibility!"
"What?!... I don't need your permission. You’re not my boyfr-.." I bit my tongue, that's the wrong thing to say "... Harry, I'm sorry.... I didn't mean that"
Harry stood up then shook his head "You didn't have to rub it in" he whispered before leaving
"Harry wait!" I called after him but he didn't even around
I slump back down at my chair. Good! now I manage hurt Harry
Jill was looking at me sharply "Am I not your best friend anymore?"
"Jill it's not like that.. I mean I can take care of myself"
"You better do" she says before leaving the room like Harry did
"Jill!" I stood up
First Harry now Jill, Who's next? Zayn? Alex?
I walked out of the room before my stupid mouth could 'cause any more trouble.
I decided to take a walk down at the beach but ended up in the cabin instead. I sat at the steps of the stairs then cried my eyes out there
I really don't like causing pain to someone or making them mad at me, things like these are just to heavy in the chest. For me it feels like I should share the pain I've cause them thus making me hate or even blame myself.
I shouldn't have hurted Harry and Jill they're just concern for me and my damn actions and how did I repay them for that? By hurting them with stupid words from my stupid mouth
I sighed then covered my eyes with my hand. Maybe I don't deserve people like them
The steps creaked. Someone must've sat beside me. I turn my head sideways to find out who it was
".. I thought I'd find you here" he says
He's the last person I expected to be here with me right now. I look down at my feet
"You wanna talk about it?" he asks tucking my hair in my ear so that he could see my face
I look up at him "N-.. No-.. Not.. N-.. Now" My voice crack and was drown out with sobs.
He shifted his body so that he's facing me then he closes the short distance between us, he place his arm around my shoulder and pushes my head down to his shoulder.
This made me cried a lot harder making me realize how badly I'm in love with him and that this is not going to happen again
"... It's okay love.. Let it all out" he whispered while stroking my dark brow hair
He began humming a tune which probably helps in calming me down.
"I shouldn't have hurt Harry” I said in a low whisper
"Yeah... You shouldn't have"
"I know how he felt about me and yet.." I sighed "I'm really stupid"
"Yes you are really stupid"
I look up at him, removing my head from his shoulder. I felt his hand drop from my shoulders
"You're suppose to be helping me and not rubbing my stupidity in my face!" I nudge him
"I just repeated what you're saying. I don't know what to say. It's not like I did this many times before.. What am I suppose to say anyway?" he smiled sheepishly
"You're to say everything's gonna be fine.." I told him
"Everything's gonna be fine then... Screw this! I'm not good at this" he says throwing up his hands in the air
A chuckle escapes my lips as I punch him playfully
"... At least I made you laugh" he says please with himself
"You're crazy Zayn! Why are you even here? Shouldn't you be with Jill?"
"Jill's in your room. She says she wants to be alone so I decided to look for you instead..." he says looking down at his feet
"You were looking for me? " I ask kinda surprise
"Well... Yeah.. You look like you're gonna jump of a cliff or something when you left the hotel" he says grinning
I nudge him then chuckled "I should talk to Harry, shouldn't I?"
He nodded
"You think he'll accept my apology?"
Zayn rolled his eyes at me
"What?" I ask him
"If you didn't notice it yet love, Harry likes you very much. I've never heard him talk so much about a girl before..."
"Think he'll accept it?" I ask him
"I know he will"
"What about Jill?"
"She's your best friend. You'll figure something out.." he says ruffling my hair
"Deal still on. I'll still help you with Jill even if she gets mad at me"
Zayn laughs
"I think I should talk to Harry now"
He nodded ".. I'll stay here for a while"
I stood up and began making my way back to the hotel
"Zayn?" I turn around after a few steps.
He stood up and I walk back to him giving him a tight hug
He chuckled "That's a first"
I chuckled "Turns out you're not bad at all. Thanks a lot mate"
I let go of him and began walking again
"Kaleen!.." he calls out
I stop at my tracks then turn around
"... Go get Harry for me"
I smiled and shouts back at him "You bet I will!"