I skipped the last two classes of the day. I stayed in the same position since Veronica left me with the unthinkable truth; Trevor kissed her. I was hesitant to enter a relationship with someone after Isaac. I was too scared and fragile to let my heart love again. I took a chance with Trevor because I knew he would never hurt me the way Isaac did.
I thought he was telling the truth when he said he fell in love with me since the summer. Trevor fooled me into thinking I was his lighthouse and he was a lost boat in need of me. He said I guided him and helped him throughout the dark times in his life. Now all that's left of this love I once believed was true are the ruins of a sinking ship.
I wiped the tears from my eyes for the hundredth time as the bell rang signalling the end of the day. I had to do one thing before I left school. I left the dance studio with my head held high even though all I wanted to do was cry. I held in the tears that so desperately wanted to fall.
I found him. He was standing at his locker with Luis from the baseball team. His face radiated happiness until he saw me walking to him. I was a thunderstorm that couldn't wait to rain on his bright day.
"Natalia," he said. Isaac looked surprised and confused I was standing in front of him. Especially after I told him multiple times to stay away from me.
"Is this what you wanted?" I asked. My voice was on the verge of breaking. Luis was awkwardly backing away from the conversation; he patted Isaac on the shoulder before leaving.
"I'm lost."
"Understand this Isaac, people who play tricks on others and manipulate situations will never end up with the results they want. They'll never be happy because it's not right to toy with people's feelings."
"I don't know what you're saying."
We were surrounded by other students in the hallway, but I didn't care about what they'll think of me. So I slapped Isaac across the cheek. "Ask Veronica."
I quickly walked across the hallway, occasionally bumping into people. I didn't bother apologizing or looking up. I just wanted to get out of here as soon as possible.
"Natalia!"
I turned around at the familiar voice. It was Mia. She was pushing her way through the crowd. I stopped in the middle of my tracks. As soon as she reached me, I pulled her into a hug. I immediately started letting all the tears fall. In this crazy world that's filled with uncertainty, I knew one thing; Mia will always be there for me.
She pulled me outside where it was quieter. Even though students and faculty were still trickling out of the building, they didn't pay much attention. I told Mia everything, from the fake relationship with Trevor to me slapping Isaac in the face. I've never felt so relieved yet worried. I'm worried because saying my problems out loud makes it even more real.
"Since the day I met you, I've known you to be a strong ass bitch who conquers her problems head-on without ever losing sight of who she is and what's important in her life. So I know, that you'll get through this Natalia. It may not seem like it at the moment, but one day Trevor, Isaac and Veronica will seem like ant-sized problems. Or whatever the smallest insect is."
"Seriously Mia ant-sized?" I laughed a bit.
"I'm not some insect expert okay? Are ants that smallest insect? I don't know very many insects."
"Mia Albrecht, you are an absolute gem who never fails to brighten up my mood."
"Thank you, at least someone finally acknowledges the truth." She added, "I know what you're debating. Go see him. You need answers, Natalia. He's the only one who has them. Begin the healing process."
I gave her one final smile before I headed to my car. Mia was right. I can't get over Trevor until I get the closure I deserve.
•••
My hands wouldn't stop sweating. I shouldn't be nervous; I didn't do anything wrong. I wiped my hands on my jeans before I rang the bell. I wished that no one was home or that Audrey would open the door. Anything to delay me from confronting him and knowing the truth. But Trevor opened the door, still dressed in the same clothes I saw him in at school. Black jeans that were ripped at the knees and a green army coloured t-shirt.
"Hey," he greeted me with a smile. Fake. "Where were you the last two periods? I missed you."
"I wasn't feeling well."
Trevor immediately wrapped his arm around my shoulders as he began to guide me into his house, but I pushed him away. I didn't want to be dragged into his house.
"What's wrong?" He asked. Trevor searched my eyes; he looked concerned. He was a good actor. I couldn't look him in the eyes anymore.
"I-" my voice cracked. I couldn't do this. Especially when Trevor has been through so much, especially when my heart is still screaming for his name.
"Baby what's wrong?" He cupped my cheeks, his thumbs wiping away the tears I didn't realize was falling. I didn't want to show him that I was crying over him. I wasn't weak. Mia said I was strong.
I am strong.
I took a step back. His hands fell to his sides. "Did it feel good? When you kissed and reunited with your first love, did it feel good?"
"I never-"
"You of all people should know how it feels like to be given lies. You made me believe that you loved me when you know damn well that Isaac broke my hear. Trevor, you knew I wasn't ready to enter a relationship with anyone. I was scared of being in love again because nothing is certain in love. Then you come sauntering into my life again making me realize that not choosing love is even scarier. And I couldn't leave you, Trevor, I couldn't deny your love when I felt the same way."
"I'm sorry," he apologized. His eyes were knit together; his eyes glistened with tears waiting to fall. His apology only confirmed the truth I was denying.
"So it's true then, you kissing Veronica before the baseball game at school."
His face was full of hurt. Trevor opened his mouth, but nothing came out. He closed it and nodded instead.
"I don't want to say it, but you know what this means."
He nodded again.
"I will never regret falling in love with you. Loving you hurt and brought a lot of pain but not getting to love you would have hurt even more."
Trevor didn't move from his spot. He stood at the doorway, feet planted on the floor. I wanted him to stop me from breaking up with him. I wanted to see him fight for our love because his feelings for me were stronger than his lust for Veronica. Most of all I wanted to see him stop me because I would have let him.
I didn't have anything else to say, and after minutes of silently standing there, I guess he didn't either. I walked down their driveway and into my car. When I pulled away, I glanced one more time at him. It was difficult to see him because of the fog, but Trevor was still standing there.
After driving away from his house, I stopped at an empty intersection. I needed time to think and process everything. I rested my head against the steering wheel as I started sobbing again.
If Trevor really loved me like he said he did, he wouldn't have let me slip away so easily. He would have tried. And maybe that's what hurts most in this world; loving someone more than they love you.
I drove straight into the intersection as the world around me faded to black.
a/n I know this update is two days late but I couldn't publish the chapter on Friday because it really sucked. I didn't want to update for the sake of updating if it means it's bad content. Anyways the next chapter may or may not be a Trevor chapter, I'm not sure yet. If it is a Trevor chapter it will be a short bonus chapter that will be published on Wednesday, August 9.
So what do you guys think about Trevor? What will happen to their relationship now? What do you think happened to Natalia at the end of the chapter? Don't forget to vote and comment. Also, thank you for the 500 reads!!