How is it possible that my mom can make me feel infuriated, aggravated, depressed, and annoyed all at the same time?
Here, I'll tell you
Okay, we went to Petco today, and there was this guy who had brought snakes. They were boa's and super cool. I got to pet one and it felt like water. Anywho, we left and I had a small obsession with wanting a snake.
My mom brought us back to Petco cause we forgot to buy something we needed for the kittens. The guy with snakes was gone, but I noticed the most adorable, tiny, snake and I loved him/her instantly.
So we get in the car, and it started with a 100% no snakes ever (until I move out and have my own apartment), but slowly it grew to be 'maybe We can make a deal'. By deal I mean I do something I normally wouldn't and get rewarded with the snake (when I got Copper it was eating meat for an entire year [I didn't like meat back then])
So we decided that I'd talk it out with my dad once he gets back from his fishing trip. Of course, after a few minutes of us being home, my mom is talking on the phone about (obviously) getting a snake. I don't know if it was with my dad or not (probably not), but I asked her again and she said 100% definitely not ever.
So I'm really mad that she changed her mind cause she had me excited and ready to do literally anything. I'm depressed because she said no and I'm rarely this excited about anything. I'm legit choking back tears. I didn't even cry when I fell off my dirtbike for goodness sakes, so you can see how sad I am.
I know I probably sound needy or greedy, but I want something just to myself. Heck, Bill isn't even mine, he's my science teachers.
I don't even have a fish guys. And I know nobody would want to share my snake because I'm the only one in my house that really enjoys being around snakes.
I'm willing to buy the snake (and everything it needs) with my own money, and the snake alone is about $150 USD. Not to mention their food and cage, so I'd have to save up for all that. But I'm fully willing to do everything myself. My mom and dad would completely forget it lives in our house until I needed to go to Petco for more supplies.
To be fully honest, this is the saddest I've been since we put Misty down. That's gotta mean something, right??
My mom let me pick out a fish from Petco (but A: Its her fish B: everyone got to pick one out [my sister, her friend, and my friend KawaiiKat0113]) but that doesn't even make up for half of what I feel right now.
I am so sorry if I seem unthankful for everything I already have. I love the kittens and Copper and Bill, but I've never had an unusual pet. My entire life has been cats, dogs, and fish. I feel ready for a change of scenery...
I'm just gonna go before I make myself feel even worse for being so upset over this.
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