Dear Lauren,
I hate that everything that is good in this world reminds me of you. I hate that every love song instantly reminds me of you. I hate that everyday I have to need to write to you. I hate that I'm always so tempted to text you but I fucking can't. I hate that I think about you all day. I hate that I can't even go on a fucking date without feeling guilty and sad cause that person isn't you. I hate that I can't even eat pizza without thinking of you. I hate that I'm not the same without you. I hate your smile that always causes me to smile like an idiot. I hate that I miss you. I hate that I always look at old pictures of us. I hate that I can't be fully happy without you. I hate that when I see your old hoodie I start to cry. I hate that I love you. But most of all I hate that I don't hate you at all...
~Camila C.