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Chapter 30
Camila's POV
"Hurry! We need to find Lauren. This is not good." Almost everyone in the crowd became emotional after Normani's speech while others are shock including me. Now it's all clear why Normani can't seem to let this all go. It's because Keana is more than a best friend to her. She's In love with her. I glance to my side and near the entrance gate, I saw Lauren. She's standing in the back of the crowd, emotionless. And that's when a thought clicked in my head: I need to comfort my girlfriend.
"Lauren," I whispered underneath my breath as I make my way towards the crowd going to my girlfriend. "Excuse me! Out of the way, please," I pleaded, pushing everyone aside. By the time I get to the entrance gate, Lauren is no longer there.
"Where are you?" I mumbled. I didn't hesitate to go outside the campus and look between the street to my right and the street to my left. As I anxiously roam my eyes around, I saw a raven brunette girl running to the left street, a few miles away from me.
"Lauren!" I called out as I hurriedly run as fast as I can just so I can catch up on her. Given the fact that I'm a track and field athlete, I don't find it that hard to catch up and grab her arm, "Lauren, stop."
"Leave me alone, Camila!"
"I can't leave you alone, Lauren! In the mid of this, you want me to leave you?"
She didn't answer. When I felt that her arm is slowly slipping away from my grip, I tighten my hold onto her. And with all of my strength, I pull her to me. Too much force that our chest collided, making me stumble on my feet. Luckily, I hit the wall so I still get to maintain my balance.
"Fucking hell, Camila! I want you to stay out of my fucking sight!" Lauren spat angrily. Her warm green eyes that I love staring at are so puffy and it's full of hatred, anger, pain, and sadness. And slowly, it is turning into cold, ruthless, and emotionless eye of a human could possible turn into. Lauren looked so miserable, and my heart...it keeps breaking over and over inside me, "I don't need your pity, okay?! So just fucking go!" Lauren push me away from her and I can sense the anger in her voice. Not towards me but towards to herself.
"Lauren, I'm here because I care about you not because I feel pity for you."
"Liar! Your eyes says it all. Look at me! I'm miserable. I'm a broken person. I'm nothing. I'm weak. And because of that you feel pity for me and I hate that! So please, go. Leave me alone!" Lauren yelled angrily while wiping the tears on her eyes.
"No! I'll stay here." I pressed. "Say what you want, I don't care! Because god knows that's not what I feel right now. You're in pain and I'm in pain too, can't you see that? I wanted to help you, to comfort you, not to abandon you in times like this."
Lauren look at for me a couple of minutes. It's pretty obvious that she's suppressing way too hard of her emotions that she finally explodes inside. The green eyed brunette put her hand against her face and clutch it tightly before she snapped.
Lauren hold my shoulders with all of her strength before she slam my back against the wall. I took a series of deep breath because she's hurting me physically.
"Help me with fucking what?! By saying that everything will be okay?! HUH?!"
"I'm your girlfriend, Lauren!"
Lauren's expression slowly soften, and I took that chance to pull her in for a tight hug. A hug where she can feel safe. That she's not alone. And most importantly, how important she is to me and how much I love her and want her even though she's broken. And that whatever happened in the past, it will never be enough to change my love for her.
"I don't deserve you. I'm a fucking monster. I'm a broken person. You don't deserve a bullshit person like me, Camila. Just...just walk away from me, please. I don't have any control of myself anymore. I don't want to hurt you."
I shake my head before I cupped her cheeks, "Do you think pushing me away won't hurt me? It will, Lauren. It will kill the hell out of me. I already saw your bad side and look, I'm still staying. When I chose to love you, it's not because you look so fucking beautiful or because you snatch my heart away because of your words. I fell In love with you because you are you. I love you and your mind, your demons, all of your insecurities, all of them. I love them. I can't just walk away from you."
"I...I killed her. I killed her, Camila." Lauren confessed with a overwhleming guilt in her eyes as she cries uncontrollably in my hands.
"No, you didn't. It's not your fault. It's no one's fault."
"Yes, it is! I-I forced Keana to take drugs even though she don't want to. I said if she really loves me then she will do it or else I will leave her. And because of that, she did it. Until one day, I decided to stop using it. I want to change my life because I knew this is the woman I want to spent my entire life with. I don't want to fuck it up. But it's too late, Camz. It's too late. She's already addicted to it and I can't even stop her from using it. She chose drugs over me and it hurts me so much so I avoided her for a week. She tried to call me but I refused to answer it. Until my birthday came, I received a text message from her saying sorry and that she can't live without me and she's hurting everytime I rejected her. She even said that "Today, I promise to you that I will change for us." and that made me really happy. Incredibly happy, because I finally have my Keana back. I hurriedly go over to her apartment. I even bought her favorite flowers." Lauren stop from talking. Tears continously running down her face while facing down so I rubbed her back to comfort her.
"It's okay, baby. If you're not ready to tell it then it's totally fine."
"No, I'm good." Lauren sobbed, "I was 30 steps closer to her aparment when I saw a lot of people all over her place. I was stunned for a moment when I saw a paramedic coming inside of her apartment with a stretcher on hand. I saw Normani and Dinah standing beside her apartment door crying. Until realization hits me. I saw Keana laying on the stretcher, she's so pale and her hair is still wet. I don't know what to do at that time. It feels like my whole world shuts down and everything is nothing but a loud painful silence and endless darkness. But despite of it, I still gather my composure because I know Keana needs me to be there by her side. I run towards her, crying. Longing to feel her in my arms, but then my face collided with Normani's fist. I will never forget the look on her eyes that day. I feel so scared the longer I stare on her eyes until Normani grabbed the collar of my shirt and beat the hell out of me. She didn't stop until my right eye is swollen and blood flowing all over my face. Dinah stopped her saying, "It's useless." but I think I deserve more of it. I feel so hopeless that time. My body is aching but I don't give a fuck about myself nor what I feel. I followed them in the hospital where Keana was taken. When I got there, I saw her family along with Dinah and Normani. They were all crying outside her room. Then the doctor came out saying they tried everything they can but it's too late. I rush to him and beg him to come back inside the room and revive Keana. I don't care if I looked stupid or what, all I want is to bring her back to life but he shakes his head and said that we need to accept the truth. She died because of heart attack by taking so much cocaine. Then...then her father grabbed the collar of my shirt and blame it all to me which I gladly accepted because I am the very reason why Keana died. It's all my fucking fault. I destroyed the life of the woman I love the most. I was so broken and hurt at that time. Drugs and alcohol are the only ones who were there for me when the world turn it's back on me. And so I became the monster I am before. The monster who killed Keana. My heart became cold as ice, I keep cursing the whole world for doing this to me. And now that I'm okay and you're in my life, everything is coming back to haunt me. So tell me, Camila. Do you still want me? Do you still wish to stay by my side despite of what I've done? Do you still want to be with a murderer like me? Will you still look at me like I'm the only beating heart in the world?"
After I heard all of this, I felt sorry for Lauren. I didn't know that this is what she was dwelling for years. I wish I met her earlier so I can be here by her side in times like this.
And so when I spotted a cab, I hurriedly wave my hand. When it stops right in front of us, I grab Lauren's hand and hold it tightly.
"Come with me and you'll know my answer." I smiled timidly before I go inside the cab. It took Lauren a couple of seconds before she get in on the backseat with me.
I told the driver to bring us to the place he knew that is far away from the city of New York. This is what Lauren needs right now, a little time off from thinking too much. It's her birthday so I need to make it special for her.
The cab driver took us to the Rockaway beach, queens just outside New York City. I glance at Lauren and her face lights up a little at how beautiful this beach was.
I smiled as I tighten my grip on Lauren's hand, "Let's go?"
The green eyed girl nodded as we headed to the beach and take a seat on the sand, letting our feet gets splash by ocean.
"I'm so tired." Lauren rest her head against my shoulder, "Really tired."
I look over my shoulder and planted a soft kiss on the crown of her head, "Just lay your head over my shoulder and I will give you a strength to go on. I'm here. And yes, I still want you more than ever despite of everything. I love you but now I think I love you even more better than I did yesterday."
"Camila," Lauren sit up straight and cupped my cheeks, "just know that I love you. I love you with all of my fucked up, piece of shit heart." I rest my forehead against hers.
"There will be times that I will lose my sanity and I don't know what I'm doing. Can you promise me that no matter how hard this gets, you will stay and never leave? That you will hold my hand as tight like this until everything gets better? Never ever give up on me? When I push you away, pull me back. When I shout at you because I am so angry, hug me tightly. When I feel overly insecure, remind me how blessed I am. When I'm about to give up on you, kiss me and show me why I shouldn't. Because I'm still hoping that you and I will somehow end up happy together."
I nod my head and seal my promise with a kiss, "Will you do the same for me?" I whisper against her lips.
Lauren run her fingers to my cheek, "I swear on us."
"Why us?"
"Because there isn't anything I believe in more." Her thumb softly caressing my eyes with a smile slowly forming on her lips, "These are the most beautiful pair of brown eyes that my eyes have seen."
"We're so serious, I hate it." I chuckled as I get back on my feet and take off my shirt and my jeans, "It's your birthday today, baby. Might as well start the day by skinny dipping with me and then do a little warm up, don't you think?" I smirk, kicking my jeans out using my feet.
Lauren smiled mischievously as she hurriedly take off her clothes as well, "You're the best girlfriend ever, Cabello."
***
Lauren's POV
We spent most of our afternoon in the beach doing skinny dipping and making out on the beach. We also get to watch the sunset together with Camila's head rest against my shoulder. For a moment, I forgot about everything. The chaos inside of me stop for the meantime. My whole world stops spinning, wishing moments like this will never end with the girl I love being here with me. For the first time ever since Keana died, I find my birthday a little bit peaceful. Simple yet I'm happy.
And for me, the best sunset is not the colours of skies up above us as the sun bids it's goodbye. It's the fact that I get to sleep and wake up next to Camila. For me, that's the best sunset and sunrise of all.
Night time, Camila baked me a birthday cake. She also bought me a blue balloon with a Happy Birthday imprinted on it. It is tied in my wrist so it won't fly away. Camila and I are also wearing a birthday party hat which makes me look like I'm just turning 10 year old. And oh! My friends are also here as well. Ally, Dinah, Alex, and to my surprise, even Shawn and Normani are here. But instead of paying attention to Normani and the feeling of being anxious because of her presence, I instead focus it on my friends and my girlfriend. Kendall got my mom, Chris, and Taylor on face time so they can celebrate with me even though my mom is in London with dad for business purposes, as always. While And my two siblings are staying in Chicago. And because of school, they can't come here in New York to visit me.
"Happiest birthday, Lolo. We miss you so much." Taylor.
"You too, Tay. When I'm free, I'll visit you guys."
"Hey, Lo. Bring me some girls too." Chris smirk while our mom glaring sharply at him.
"I can hear you, Chris! Didn't I tell you to prioritize your studies first?" Clara.
"But...but Lauren had a wife already at 17!" Chris.
"It's because your sister is a natural flirt. And I, thank you." Kendall suddenly butt in with a smirk.
"Oh wow, thanks." I said, making Kendall shakes her head while doing her signature eye roll.
"It is fake, you idiot!" Clara.
"But isn't it Camila her girlfriend now? What's the difference of 15 and 17?" Chris.
"Chris Morgado Jauregui, we're not going to argue about this over your sister's birthday and over face time." Clara.
"Ha! No wonder I'm the favorite one. I'm the only one single in this family." Taylor.
"We're single ladies, Tay. Amen to-" I snatch Kendall's phone away from her hand and focus the camera to my beautiful face.
"You're not single Keny. Stop pretending you are." I said while looking over to her phone. To the screen, Chris and mom are still debating over this allowing-Chris-to-have-a-girlfriend subject matter.
"Cake is ready, y'all!!!!" From the kitchen, Camila, Dinah, Alex, and Ally walk out and started to walk towards our direction.
While holding a cake, Camila harmoniously sing along with my friends with a smile on their lips. "Happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Lauren, happy birthday to you." Camila wink at me, "Make a wish, baby."
I smiled at how cute my girlfriend is before I close my eyes to make a wish.
"Lauren, I miss you." A soft angelic voice suddenly echoed and I don't have any idea where it came from. Everything around me is completely dark and it's starting to scare the hell out of me. And even though I try so many times to open my eyes, for some unknown reason I can't open it. It's as if my eyelids are being stitched against my skin.
"
Lauren..." My heart started to beat so fast inside my chest. My hands are trembling cold. That voice...it sounds so familiar to me.
"Over here." I look over my shoulder and there she is, standing a few meters away from me. She's wearing a white dress and she doesn't change at all. She's still the most beautiful girl I've ever seen.
"Keana." The only word I manage to say. She started to walk towards my direction with a smile on her face. I...I miss her smile. But the thing is, the more she gets closer to me, the smile on her face slowly vanish and replace with a strong emotion of anger. And in the blink of an eye, Keana disappeared from my sight.
My heart aches as I desperately looking for her but I can't see anything. Where are you, Keana? Where are you? Please, I need to see you again. The pain, the wounds, the feelings when I saw her laying on the stretcher unconscious, all of it suddenly came crashing inside of me like a huge wave of ocean. I am drowning yet again. It's so hard to breathe when your heart is slowly breaking into two. Can you actually believe it? There are so many ways to die, but only love can kill you and keep you alive at the same time. And I think that was the most painful feeling a human can ever feel.
As my eyes roaming around, Keana suddenly appeared right in front of my face with her eyes blazing with fire, full of hatred and anger. "YOU KILLED ME!" She yelled angrily with a her voice a little bit deeper. It is so scary. Camila, where are you? I'm scared. I'm so scared. Keana grab my neck and choke me until I desperately gasp for some air. The skin of her face started to peel off until I can perfectly see her expose perish flesh with dozens of worms and insects on it.
"LAUREN!!!" A loud voice and a cold water suddenly splash right in front of my face that wakes me up from my nightmare that feels so real.
Catching my breath, I felt tears falls down to my cheeks. My hands...I am choking myself. And the way I grip against my neck is so tight, I even inflicted a wound to my own skin.
"Lauren!" Camila immediately run towards my direction with a worried look on her face. As soon as I felt her warm hands against mine, my grip against my neck slowly loosing up. In just one touch, she can tame the monster living inside of me.
"It's okay, I'm here. I'm here." Then Camila pulled me in for a tight hug. I lost it, I lost it all. As much as I hate people seeing me having a breakdown and being vulnerable, I completely lost it all when Camila held me in her arms and make me feel that I am safe and no harm will ever touch me as long as she's here. And so, I burried my face on her neck and let myself get drown to my own tears.
"Lolo!" Taylor.
"What happened? Lo, are you okay?" Chris.
"I don't understand what's-" Clara.
"Auntie Clara, Chris, Tay, Lauren is just being emotional because we're all here celebrating her birthday. Maybe she just felt overwhelmed." Taylor cover me up even though it's so obvious that what happened doesn't show being overwhelmed at all.
My mom doesn't know anything about Keana. She doesn't know that Keana is the reason why I hate celebrating my birthday,. That she's the reason why I depend my life on alcohol and drugs. All my mom believed in is that I'm exploring things I shouldn't do. That she failed being a mother to me because she let me get into this hell hole that I'm currently in.
"Yeah, maybe we should let her take some time off?" Kendall.
"I agree. We're all tired so we should get some rest." Selena.
"But-" Clara.
"Bye Auntie! Bye Chris and Taylor!" And then Kendall hurriedly end up the call.
"Camila," Camila pulled away when Tay suddenly called her, "Take care of this girl, okay?" Camila nod her head with a timid smile.
"I'll take care of her." Camila simply replied as the girls made their exit. Ally, Dinah, and Alex bid their goodbye to me except for Mani and Shawn.
"Camz?" I called out as soon as Camila close the door and locked it.
"Hmm?" Camila hummed as she turn around to face me. Her brown orbs are darted straight to mine that somehow calm the storms inside me.
"Can I cuddle with you?" I asked with a puppy eyes to make sure she won't say no.
"How could I say no when you're looking at me like that?" Camila chuckled that made me smile.
I offered my hand to her, "Hold my hand?"
"No way!" Camila answered as we both laugh while remembering how it all started. Instead of holding my hand, Camila wrapped her arms around my waist and hug me as tight as possible. I wish I could describe and put into words how her smile and the sound of her voice gives me butterflies of some kind. How her smile makes my heart skips a beat and how everytime I'm with her, I feel so complete. With her, I'm a beautiful mess.
***
Camila's POV
The next morning, Lauren woke up with a bright eyes and a smile on her face. We both welcomed a new tomorrow with happiness and seeing Lauren slowly going back to her casual self makes me very happy. At least she's trying her very best to keep her mind from overthinking.
Back in our apartment, Lauren and I are hanging out in the couch. I'm pretty anxious in my seat because my parents will pay a visit here in New York. They still know that Shawn is my boyfriend and that I am a straight woman.
I'm actually planning to tell my parents about my sexuality. Who I really am and who I really love in hopes that they will accept me and that nothing will ever change. I knew they love me and both of them are very understanding that's why I have a little faith that my coming out will be alright. But then the little voices in my head tells me otherwise. What if they can't accept me? What if they'll be disapointed in me? So many mixed emotions are swirling inside of me but the most dominant ones are fear and nervousness.
"Laur," I called out firmly as I sit up straight.
Lauren quickly withdraw her eyes from the tv screen and shift it towards me, "Yes, baby? What is it?"
"I'm...planning to tell them about us."
The green eyed brunette knitted her eyebrows, "Didn't our friends knows about us?"
"To my parents, I mean."
"Oh," Lauren nod her head slowly, "Are you...are you sure? You looked tense."
I hold her hand and give it a squeeze, "Yeah, I am sure. I want everyone to know about us."
"But?" Lauren seemed to predict the thoughts in my head. She look so serious right now as her green eyes bore straight in the back of my head just to know what I feel right now.
"But I'm scared."
"Don't be," Lauren tighten the grip on my hand, "because you won't face them alone. We're in this together, Camz. Whether they'll be happy or disappointed about it, I'm here. I'll always be here for you, baby. You can count on that."
I close my eyes and smile as Lauren leaned in and planted a soft kiss on my forehead.
After our moment, we get ready for school. I pack my school stuff inside my bag and wear my casual on-the-go school outfit. Whereas Lauren, she's wearing a grey hoodie with her blue and white varisity jacket and a ripped jeans.
As soon as we arrived at the University, Lauren walk me to my room, "You're that person who can make my day from 0-100 real quick."
I grin, "Really now?"
"Really, really." Lauren smiled. That fucking goddamn smile of hers, "Good luck on your class, Camz. I love you."
"I love you too. And hey, can I fetch you at your practice so we can have lunch together?"
"Oh, please do. It'll be such a huge honour to have a lunch with a beautiful princess like you." Lauren says in a british accent, making me laugh.
I watch my girlfriend disappear from the hallway before I get inside the room. I sit in between Ally and Alex as we do our first class which is history.
"Hey," Alex whispered, leaning in against me. "do you know already?"
"That I'm beautiful? Ofcourse."
Alex rolled her eyes, making me laugh. "I'm talking about Dinah and Normani!"
I knitted my eyebrows as I look straight in Alex's eyes, "Why am I sensing that it's a bad news?"
"Because it is. Right after Normani held that memorial for Keana, she talked to Dinah and broke up with her saying she's still In love with Keana."
"Oh fuck! Nor-" I didn't finish what I'm saying when Ally suddenly speak.
"Bless your sinful mouth, Mila."
"Thanks, Ally." I said with a teasingly smile. To Alex, I says, "I can't believe they ended just like that."
"Yeah, me too. I feel bad for Dinah though. Our Poly princess don't deserve to be treated like that."
"And that is why I highly suggesting that we should go over at Dinah's and cheer our girl up." Ally suggested that the two of us quickly agreed.
Throughout the 3 hours straight that we spent in the campus, I rarely see Dinah nor Normani. When lunch break came, I fetch Lauren at the field so we can eat at the cafeteria together. I adjust the strap of my bag against my shoulder as I walk towards the field but immediately stop when I heard shouting and exhanging of curse words. I take my time to recognize who's voice who until it click in my head that Lauren owns that one voice.
"Lauren!" I hurriedly run and find her. When I did, I quickly stand by her side.
"Fuck you, you stupid piece of shit!" Lauren spat angrily with her sharp glare darted towards her blonde girl teammate who's currently giving her the same glare.
"You're useless in this team, Jauregui! It's better that you quit."
I glance at Lauren before my eyes darted on her hands that's currently clenched so hard that her knuckles turns white.
"Laur, stop. Please," I grab a hold of her arm to prevent Lauren from causing any harm.
"Well then," Out of nowhere, Lauren's fist connected to her teammate's face that makes the tension between them even more heated than before, "Look at you now, bitch!"
Most of the students grab a hold of her blooded lip teammate while the others are about to punch Lauren. And before they can hurt my girlfriend, I push her behind me so I can protect her.
"You're a fucking coward, Jauregui! Hiding behind your girlfriend's ass, really?!"
I felt Lauren grab my arm and I know she's going to push me to the side because her ego is being over stepped but if she ever move one finger she'll be doomed for sure.
"No! You stay back Jauregui or I'm the one who will beat your ass." I said over my shoulder before I look straight ahead, "Stop whinning, you loser and shut your bloody mouth or I will!"
Then I turn around and drag Lauren out when one of them yelled, "She's a fucking mess!"
I stop from walking and look over my shoulder, "She's my fucking mess." I said before we walk out of the field completely. I drag Lauren to the locker room so we can have at least some privacy.
"What the hell is that?" I questioned.
"I didn't start it, okay? That bitch provoke the hell out of me!"
I just look at Lauren and stayed silent, making myself getting use to this new aggressive version of her. When Lauren notice my defying silence, she speak again. "Do you even believe me?"
"Ofcourse, I d-" I didn't finish what I'm saying when Lauren suddenly crash her lips against mine, making my back hit against the wall.
We kissed so eagerly, in pure bliss of desire and lust. It was so intense that I hardly catch my breath. Her hands are roaming under my shirt, slipping her fingers under my bra. As our heated make out session progress and the sexual tension between us already build up, someone suddenly comes in so we immediately pull away from each other. Turns out, it's Normani.
"H-hi, Mani." I awkwardly greeted, feeling my cheeks slowly heating up.
Mani's looking at me then to Lauren then back to me. "Can we talk?"
"Yeah, sure."
"Just the two of us."
"Okay then-" Lauren suddenly grab my arm, pulling me closer to her.
"No. If you want to talk to MY girlfriend then talk to her right in front of me." The change of her mood is pretty obvious the way she talked to Normani.
"Is a simple english hard to understand?"
Lauren chuckled, "Asked by the fucking bitch who can't understand a simple statement: Don't fuck your best friend's girlfriend."
Normani clenched her jaw tightly so I quickly jump right in the middle.
"Calm down, okay? Lauren, seriously stop. You too, Normani."
"Shawn loves being the second best while you love taking your best friends left over. Tell me, how does it feel to fucked Keana knowing we stick our dicks inside of her first before your tiny little fingers-"
Normani cut Lauren off by punching her straight in the face, causing the green eyed girl to fell down on the floor with a bloody nose.
"Fuck you! You don't know shit! I love Keana more than you loved her! More than Shawn loved her!" Mani yelled and about to launch herself towards Lauren so I jump straight to her face so she ended up tackling me instead, causing my head to hit pretty hard against the floor.
"Ouch!" I groan with my eyes clenched.
"Oh shit," I felt Mani's warm hands against my cheeks, "I'm so sorry, Mila. Are you-"
A loud smack on the jaw suddenly echoed around followed by a weight lifted off away from my body. When I open my eyes, I saw Normani laying on the floor with a blood on her lips.
"Don't you fucking dare touch what's mine!" Lauren said through a gritted teeth.
"You're a literal trash, Jauregui!"
A devious smirk plastered on her lips, "Oh no, what is this that I'm sensing? You want Camila too, don't you? And after us, you'll fuck her too."
I scoff pretty loudly before I get back on my feet, "I'm not a fucking object, Lauren!" then I started to walk out, hitting her to her shoulder hard.
I'm not happy at how Lauren talk to Normani like that and how she describe me as a fucking object or what so fucking ever who sleeps with everybody. Out of all people, Lauren should know better I'm more than that. But then she let her anger and her pride rule over her instead of considering what I'll feel towards her words.
I headed straight to the apartment and texted Alex and Ally that I can't come with them today since I'm not in a mood. I spent my whole sunset in the bed until darkness creeps in the entire apartment. Around 7, Lauren came home with bunch roses on her hand. I ignore her and continue doing whatever the hell I'm doing since I'm still mad and upset from what happened.
"Camz, will you talk to me please? I'm so sorry. I didn't really mean it that way."
I throw myself on the couch, not bothering myself to look at her. "What is it then? That I'm a slut who can sleep with whoever comes to me? Oh! That I'm a leftover of you and Shawn?"
"I never said that."
"But isn't that what you had in your mind?"
"Camz-"
"The past and the present is very different, Lauren! I am not Keana!" I yelled at her before I push the flower away from me. I stand up and walk over to our room when Lauren harshly turn me around towards her direction and kiss me.
I didn't kiss her back. Instead, I punch her chest couple of times to escape from her grip but Lauren deepen the kiss with her hands slowly sliding down on my waist, pressing my body even more against her. "No, you're not. But you are my Camila, and I don't want to share you with anyone else. I'll gladly kill whoever will attempt to steal you away from me."
I look at her eyes and jealousy are evident on her green orbs. Is she...jealous of Normani?
Instead of asking questions, I press my lips against hers for the second time. As we share this intoxicating kiss, I can taste the whiskey and I can smell the substance through her skin. I wrapped my legs around her waist with her arms on my butt to support my weight. We continue kissing each other, tongues fighting for domanincance but Lauren's kiss and everything that she do are so full of agreessiveness that's why I have no choice but no submit fully.
Lauren lay me down to bed. Her lips trail down to my jawline then to my neck. She kissed it viciously, leaving her mark on my skin as her hands ripped off my shirt. She pulled away and take off my jeans while I took off hers as well. Lauren aligned herself to mine before she push herself inside, causing us to moan. Her lips started to pleasure my breast as she started rocking hard inside me. Every thrust she makes, leaves me breathless and at the same time in pain. Her touch, her kiss, her movements, it's not gentle as it was before when we we're making love. Her hands are heavy, her nails digging up against my skin causes wounds.
After sex, Lauren rolls over to the other side of the bed, wrap the blanket over her naked body and drift off to sleep. I softly caress her cheek while staring at her face lovingly, "I love you, Lauren."
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A/N:
I'm so sorry if this is a late update and kinda shitty. I wrote this in a rush just to give y'all an update. As I mentioned in my AN in the previous chapters that I published, my grandfather is sick. And now, he's gone forever. It's so sad to lose a family member but life must go on. I don't know when will I update again because I'm so busy with funeral stuff and everything but I'll try to keep up. Anyway, thank you thank thank you for reading this story, for the votes, comments, and adding this to your library including SCC.
Stay safe always.