::Brianna POV::
I...I don't know what to say. I didn't mean for it to go that far. I could see the hate and frustration in her eyes. She scared me to death. I thought she was gonna kill me. She didn't look like she would hesitate either. All of a sudden I feel this guilt come over me. I've been torturing her since the 1st grade and she's finally snapped. I accomplished something. I made her feel how I've always felt. insecure, alone. I've noticed the marks on her arm but never said a thing. It's hard to believe that I've been the cause of her almost dying, twice. I know when she tried to commit suicide I acted like I didn't care, but truth is...I was terrified. I thought maybe I would leave her alone, but then I noticed all the attention she was getting and it pissed me off. Why is she so special? Jacob was right. it was all my fault. It's just.....I was so sick of her always being better then me. Every boy in school always stares at her when she's not looking and raves about how beautiful and thick she is. I want that. I don't get how they do that and still laugh at her when I bother her. I respect her for the way she handled her self at the party. She took that ass whoopin' like a straight G. No questions asked. I must be pretty cold hearted to actually stomp on her head. i did it all out of jealousy. i'm not afraid to admit it. I had so much of her blood on my shoe that i had to throw them away, and I couldn't really live with the guilt. I know Jacob must hate me. I really liked him. I didn't want him to be with Charlene because then she would have it all. We both gave each other our virginities. He lied to Charlene and told her that I forced him. I admit, I did come on to him, but not once did he hesitate. Believe it or not that was my first time too. But I was willing to sacrifice if it meant that it would hurt Charlene. That day when we went to the zoo I heard their whole conversation. I heard how loving and caring he was towards her and she just kept pushing him away because she wanted to be left alone. I wanted him to be like that with me. I know that she would never forgive me, but if I had a chance to apologize to her, I would. I know my words hurt. They have too. I see the she cringes when I say something to her. I used to feel a bit of relief in my stomach when I saw that. Now, I just wanna cry. School has been hell for me ever since. Everyone stares at me and gives me dirty looks. Kinda like how I used to give Charlene, just for breathing. When I walk in the hallway i'm known as the girl who was so jealous to the point where she had a girl attempt to take her own life twice. That's exactly what I am. Except they forgot one thing. I'm a monster....
::Jacob POV::
I cracked my eyes open one by one to see a beautiful sight. My bonita was sleeping. She was really a sleeping beauty. The way her breathing becomes heavy, and how she always likes to keep her hand under her face is adorable to me. I had my arms wrapped around her. I could feel her soft, swift, heavy breathing on her stomach. I let go of her and examined her beautiful features. I ran my fingers down her soft, chubby cheek. It irked me to know that tears have fallen from those beautiful almond shaped eyes. I softly pushed her hair out of her face and leaned to her ear. "I love you so much" I whispered to her. I planted soft, gentle kisses on her shoulder up to her neck. When i reached the top I put my hand under her chin and kissed her sweet lips so delicately. That woke her up. She moved around a little and opened her eyes. "So your just gonna watch me while I sleep? Stalker much?" she asked with her voice groggy and flat. She sat up while I stayed laying down. "Oh, hush up. Now come here" i said laughing as i pulled her on top of me. "Oop" she said as I pulled her. Her legs were in between mine, but there was a huge difference considering she was a midget. I intwined our fingers in each other. I got lost in her eyes again. It's so easy. "How'd you sleep?" she asked. "Great, knowing that you were right there next to me" I said meaning it. She smiled her adorable smile. "What do you want to do today?" I asked her. "I don't know. You could fill me in on everything and we could just...chill. If you want." she said shrugging. I don't want to do that. Only because I might have to tell her everything that's happened for it to make sense. I don't want her hating me all over again. "Ok, we'll see." I said simply while kissing her hands. "Do you want me to make breakfast for you ,baby?" I asked her. "Ooo, Can I help? It sound like fun!" she said smiling. It's like i wanna eat her up. Literally. "Ok, mami" i said as I let go of her hands and dragged them down her body and making a stop to her a.ss. She look at what I was doing and looked at me. I winked at her. She playfully rolled her eyes and shook her head. "Gimmie kiss." I said puckering my lips. "No." she said shaking her head. "Why?" I asked pouting. "Because you have dragon breathe, now go brush." she said scrunching up her nose. "Well damn! So it's like that?" I asked laughing. "Exactly papi" she said laughing with me. "So if I go brush i can get my kiss?" I asked with a pleading face. "Of course" she said smiling. She got off of me as we both got up from the bed. As we were standing I slapped her butt and licked my lips. She looked at me and smirked, she slapped mine as well and bit her lip. I swear to god. One day. We went to the bathroom. She walked in and looked to the side to see a mirror. She looked at herself and was startled. She slowly walked over to it while touching her face. I stared at her knowing that I was gonna have to explain to her what happened. She turned around to face me. Her eyes were glistening. "Jacob.." she paused and took a breath "What happened to me? This looks like a lot more then just getting hit by a car...and..why do I have all these cuts on my arm?" She asked with a single tear coming down her cheek. This was what i was afraid of. We were so happy 5 seconds ago. i don't want that to get ruined again. i walked over to her and took her hands. "Bonita, can I tell after we brush our teeth and eat, please?" I said kissing hers soft hands. "Ok." she said a little down. She kept glancing at her face. "Hey..." I said squeezing her arm. "no matter what your see in the mirror, you'll always be my bonita, ok? Remember that." i said kissing her nose. She blushed and nodded her head. We brushed our teeth and blah, blah, blah. I watched her as we went downstairs to make breakfast. then i realized something. I still didn't get my damn kiss! I grabbed her arm spun her around and held her super close to me. She was so close that he boobs were suffocated against my chest. Ay yi yi! Kill me now. But I still liked it. "I want my kiss" i said lowly at her while my finger trailed down her soft plump lips. A smile crept upon her face. She got on her tippy toes, leaned in and gave me the most softest most delicate kiss. When she pulled away she bit my lip, tugged on it, letting it make a popping sound and winked at me. I swear she knows the best way to turn me on even in the morning. I had chills going down my back. She began walking away towards the kitchen. The hell she think she going? I had a grip on her hips and brought her back once again. "I'm not done yet." I said in my low husky voice. "What do you mean? I gave you your kiss." She said sounding innocent. "I know, but it's the way you gave it to me. I want more." i said leaning closer. Our lips were practically bushing against one another, teasing each other. Soon, I just couldn't take it anymore. I pressed my lips against hers. I felt that spark. So perfect. I sucked on her bottom lips while letting my hands take a trip down her body. I tugged on her lip asking for an entrance and she excepted. I tightened my grip on her as I stuck my tongue in her mouth deepening the kiss. As I did that she wrapped her arms around my neck, while rubbing the back or it. Our tongues wrestled and circled around each other. After our full blown make out session, I slowly pulled away. She did the same and blinked repeatedly. I know that she's gonna be think about that for a while. "Good God." she muttered. I smiled at her. I pressed my forehead against hers and looked her deep in the eyes. "I love you with all my heart, forever bonita." I whispered to her. She looked up at me. "I love you more ,papi." she whispered back. "That's not possible." I said with a serious face. "Yes, it it because it's true" she said smiling. I kissed her bottom lip twice before bringing her to the kitchen so we could start on breakfast.
We finished making breakfast. I was taking the food out while she setting the table. I watched her so. I never thought I could love anything so much. I smiled to my self. Even after everything, we're still here. Together. Things may not be the same with her loosing her memory, but I don't care. I just love to see her smile. I snapped out of my trance and continued what i was doing. I took the food out and brought it to the table, where she was. We were having pancakes, eggs, bacon and strawberries. I handed her the plate. "Thank you, mi amor" she said smiling. I love it when she tries to speak spanish. She has a slight accent which I find very sexy. "Your welcome, bonita" i said as I sat down next to her. I looked on as she spread the syrup on her pancakes. I remembered something. I've only seen her eat and couple of times. For some reason she was always scared to eat around me. I never really got why, but I never pressured her. Now it seems like she doesn't care. Maybe she's used to me. i smiled at the thought. I watched her cut the pancake with the butter knife and neatly put it into her mouth. I guess she could feel me gawking at her so she slowly turned around to face me. "What?" she asked with pancake it her mouth. "Nothing" I said simply while laughing at her. She shrugged and continued eating. I eventually started eating too. She faced me again and smiled. "You got a little syrup on your..." before she could finish, she put her thumb on her tongue and whipped the side of my mouth. I just stared at her. It's amazing. It's like my love grows for her everyday. She just makes me feel a certain way. "Thank you, mami" I said. "No, problem, chico" she said turning in her chair. I took a strawberry and held it to her face. "Say ahh" I demanded. She laughed, shook her head at me then put her hand under her mouth and ate it. I examined her closely. It's like it was happening in slow motion again. "mmmm juicy" she said smiling and licking her lips. I watched as the water from the strawberry as it went down the side of her mouth. I wanted to lick it off so bad. I could feel my "friend" tingling. Why does she do this to me? "Ok, you now" she said as she fed me a strawberry as well. I ate it long and slow just to see her reaction. "Why are you doing that?" she asked. "Doing what?" i asked trying to act clueless. "Eating it all slow and looking at me all nasty like that" she said laughing. Because I wish it was you I was eating. "No reason." I lied smirking. All of a sudden the way she ate that strawberry replayed in my head. It couldn't stop thinking about it. I ran my fingers through my hair and bit my bottom lip. She looked at me and tensed up. "Don't do that." she said lowly. "Huh?" I asked her. "I said don't do that." she said looking away. I furrowed my eye brows. "What?" I asked innocently confused. "Put you hand in you hair and bite you lip like that." she said shyly. "Why not?" i asked as a smirk crept upon my face. I think I know where this is going. "Because it drives me crazy." she said trying to avoid eye contact with me. "Now you know how I feel." I said smirking while coming closer. "That smirk, wipe it." she said looking at me. "Make me" I said as I ran my hand through my hair and bit my lip again. Her eyes expanded. "I'm serious Jacob. Cut it out. I won't be able to control myself when you do that" she said tensing up. Talk about Deja Vu. Now she knows how it feels. I'm gonna put her though what she always does to me on a daily. I went closer to her and breathed on her neck then raised my head up to her ear. "You can do whatever you want to me. By all means, do it" I whispered seductively. I knew that gave her chills. "Stop it." she said lowly. "Why, Charlene? You used to do it to me all the time. Don't fight it. Just do it. Attack me. You know you want to. It's eating you alive, I can see it." i said in a husky voice as i licked her earlobe. I repeatedly ran my fingers through my hair and bit my lip, just to get a rise out of her. "Jacob, quit it. Seriously." she said with gritted teeth. She's probably throbbing uncontrollably right now. This is hilarious. "C'mon, you want me. I know it. Just come over and do what ever you want to me." I whispered. I meant it too, but I knew she wouldn't actually do it. She looked at me for a while then started giving me this creepy sexual glare. Is that what i to her? I bet mine is more sexy. Ha! I wish. "You know I would, but the thing is..baby I would break you in two" she said caressing my face. My smirk fell of my face. She raised her thick eyebrows up and down as she licked her lips long and slow. This is gonna turn into a full blown teasing battle between us. I kinda like the idea of us only teasing each other though. It gives me something to be excited about until we're married. Watch, on the night of of honeymoon. She won't be able to get away from me. I count the day until that night. I love how she respects herself at that. She doesn't show much of her body and she still looks sexy. It only makes me want her more to know that she's no where near easy. I still wonder what she think about herself though. I mean this morning she looked really shocked when she looked in the mirror. I hate that she has to cover her face with make-up. She doesn't need it. She has that natural beauty. I came out of my thoughts to see her just staring at me. It was like she was thinking. "What's on you mind, bonita?" I asked putting my hand on he thigh. "Well, we brushed out teeth, we ate... Can you please fill me in now? I'm so confused" she said looking at me. I gotta try and talk her out of it. "Bonita plea-" she cut me off. "No Jacob, don't procrastinate anymore. I'm clueless. Please?" she pleaded holding my hand in her palms. I took a deep breathe. I stood up from the table, took her hand and lead her to the couch. She readied herself. I payed and looked at her before speaking. "Ok, bonita. i want you to promise me that when I tell you, you won't hate me. Please." I pleaded. Her facial expression was half worried and half confused. "Jacob, I'm sure it can't be that bad." she said rubbing my back. "Just, promise me please" i said taking both her hands and intwining them in each other. She took a big breathe "O-Ok, I promise" she said. I don't know exactly how I'm gonna tell her this but here goes......
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