It's been the worst 2 days of Gwen's life. Her phone hasn't stopped ringing since the minute she walked out of Blake's house, out of their house. It literally took everything she had to turn and walk out. She did it for him. He deserved someone who could give him the family he deserved. She can't do that. She cried the whole way to Jen's house and locked herself in the guest room once they got there. Tonight is family dinner and as much as she wants to lay here and cry even more. She is determined to be present in her families lives. She needs them more now than ever. Blake has done nothing but pace and redial Gwen's number. She won't answer him though. He is losing his mind not being with her, not knowing if she is ok or not. Does she miss him even a little bit? He understands her reason for leaving but he doesn't need kids to be happy. He needs her. He cried the entire night passing. How is he gonna get her back when she won't talk talk to him and he doesn't know where she is?
Gwen hears a knock on her door.
"Yeah?" She yells and the door cracks open Jen poking her head in
"Hey sorry to bother you but are you gonna come to dinner tonight?"
"Yeah I'll come. I just need to get ready."
"Ok cool we have about 30 minutes before we need to leave."
"Sounds good I'll be ready."
Just as Jen closes the door her phone beeps with a text message. It just as it has been since she left two days ago. Blake asking her to at least talk to him that he loves her and he isn't gonna stop trying to get her back. She again ignores it and gets up to get dressed. She comes out of the room 20 minutes later after applying who knows how much makeup looking relatively normal considering she hadn't slept all night and had been crying.
"Hey. Are you...doing ok?" Jen asks with a look of concern on her face
"Yeah I'll be good."
When they get to her parents house Gwen dodges all questions of where Blake is. She sits at the bar in the kitchen and watches as her mom puts the finally toppings on before baking the prepared dish. Stella pops her head in the kitchen from the deck.
"Aunt Gwen will you come play with me? Pllllleeeeaaaase" she begs giving Gwen the puppy dog eyes that she herself has used to get people to do what she wants.
"Sure" Gwen answers leaving her phone on the counter as she goes outside with her niece
Pattie continues prep around the kitchen. Gwen's phone is ringing off the hook. Pattie decides that if it rings again she is going to answer it because clearly it's important. Sure enough the phone rings for a fourth time. Pattie walks over and picks up the phone answering it.
"Hello"
"Gwen please talk to me. You're killing me...."
"Blake it's not Gwen it's Pattie. What are you talking about?" She hears him break just for a sec as a sob escapes him
"Blake what's going on? Are you ok?"
"Two days ago Gwen packed her clothes and left to go stay with Todd and Jen. She left because she said I deserved someone who could give me a baby. She saw me playing with Stella and next thing I knew she was crying running up the steps. I went after her but she was set on leaving. Mrs. Stefani I have known that she can't have kids for a while now. I'm still here. I don't care about her not being able to have kids. If we want the later we can adopt or whatever, but I want her more than I ever wanted kids. Please tell me, is she ok? I have been by her side everyday since the hospital and this, this is killing me." He breaks down into sobs
"Blake darling you need to calm down you're gonna make yourself sick and that won't do any of us any good. Yes she's ok. She has seemed off almost upset all night but knowing what's going on explains it. Give me time to talk to her ok."
"Ok thank you Mrs. Stefani. I love her and I know she loves me or I wouldn't be pushing so hard."
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The Stefani family sat down to eat. They said their blessing of the food and began to dig in. One thing about the Stefani clan is you can tell when it's dinner time cause everyone goes quiet. Gwen couldn't eat. She felt like she could throw up. She left Blake for his own good but all she can do is think about him. Is he ok? What's he doing? It's not fair for her to be wondering these things, she is the one who left him. Gwen finds herself falling into that hole, the one she fell in after Gavin left her. And this time she can't have the only thing that will pull her out...... Blake. She excuses herself from the table and walks out to the front porch. She sits down on the bench just as the tears start to fall again. She realizes she doesn't have her phone feeling all of her pockets.
"Looking for this?" Pattie asks
"Yeah thanks" Gwen answers trying to hide the tears falling down her face
"Blake called"
"Ok thanks" Gwen said trying to act like she didn't know he would've called
He hadn't stopped calling since she left which only made this harder on her. All she wanted to do was answer and tell him she still loves him with everything she has.
"Gwen honey I answered it. He told me what's going on."
"It's what's best for him."
"Oh so you being gone and him calling you ever five minutes, while he is crying and hysterical on the other end is what's best for him?"
"He isn't crying and he will give up and move on."
"Gwen he wasn't just crying he was sobbing."
"He was?"
"Yes he was. Gwen honey he doesn't care about having kids. He wants you. He told me if you decided you want kids later on then you can adopt or something, but Gwen he loves you. You don't find love like that every day. You need to decide if you can live without him and live with the fact that you broke him. Or you can choose to go back and be happy together. I can't tell you what to do Gwen but Blake is one of a kind."
Pattie got up and went back inside leaving Gwen to mull over her words. It didn't take Gwen long however to make her decision. The idea of Blake sobbing and hysterical is killing her and she can't take it. She picks up her phone just as it rings for the nine millionth time in the last two days. Gwen hits the accept button.
"Pattie did you talk to her. I can't stand this it's like my heart is so broken without her. I need her."
"Blake"
"Gwen? Gwen please talk to me."
"Blake will you come to me."
"Give me an address and I'll be there as fast as the car and traffic will let me."
Gwen gave him her parents address and even though she knew it would take him close to 40 minutes to get to her, she waited for him on the front porch. The minute she saw his car turn down the street her heart was racing but at the same time she felt a sense of calm come over her. The effect of Blake on Gwen. Her nerves are higher than they have ever been around him. As soon as the car is in park Blake is jumping out. He runs up to the porch but stops short of touching Gwen. He doesn't want to make the wrong move here and scare her off again. He wants her to be the one to make the first move. She is the one who called it off. Gwen is standing in front of him begging him to touch her. When they stand there staring at each other for a few moments Gwen realizes she is gonna have to be the one to make the first move. She steps closer to him placing her hand on his chest before wrapping her arms around his neck and pulling him close. It take a second but Blake is wrapping his arms around her waist and pulling her as close as humanly possibly. The stand that way body touching body for a while, until Gwen feels her shoulder starts to feel wet. She pulls back away from him.
"Blake baby it's ok I'm right here." She tells him with her hands on his cheeks
She can see the hurt and pain of these last two days in his eyes. It absolutely kills her. Why did she do this to them? They were in such a great place and now it feels like they have taken huge steps back. The tears continue to fall down Blake's face causing them to begin to fall down Gwen's face. Blake can't handle it anymore and he pulls her back into him. They stand there a few more minutes before pulling apart.
"Have you eaten?" Gwen asks him
"Not since you left." He says look at his lap
"Well we need to get some food in you Blake." It's the use of the name Blake that shows just how much they slid backwards
Gwen stands grabbing Blake's hand leading him inside. They go into the kitchen and fix Blake a plate.
"Have you eaten?" He asks
"No I couldn't either." She answers looking at the floor
Blake hands her a plate and she fixes herself a plate. Instead of going into the dinning room they go out to the back porch. After they finish, Gwen gets a key from Jen to get her stuff from their house.
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Blake carries Gwen's suitcase up the steps for her. It's been awkward since they reunited. Gwen hates it because she knows she is the one who put them here. He walks past her room to go to his but Gwen reaches out her hand and grabs his arm and he stops in his tracks.
"What is it Gwen?" Blake asks quietly
"Blake are you sure you want me in your room?" she says hesitantly
"Gwen no matter what we will go through, I never want to sleep here alone again....but that doesn't mean we still don't need to have a serious heart to heart talk!"
"Ok Blake, I understand...but can we just talk in the morning? I am exhausted physically and emotionally."
"Of course we can but for now...just change and rest..."
Blake has to do all he can to stop himself from wrapping gwen up in his arms and tell her it's ok. They will be ok. The fear in her eyes is killing him to the core. As much as he wants to take that fear away, he is hurt. He gave her his whole heart and she walked away. The reason she left is never gonna change. She is never gonna be able to give him a child and he needs to know that she isn't gonna decide again in two weeks that she can't be the reason he doesn't have kids and leave again. Seeing the hurt in Blake's eye is like a knife stabbing her in her heart. She has to fix it. She will do anything to take that hurt out of his eyes.