Azalea Miller
-3 & 1/2 years ago; junior year-
After lunch, every class I had with Sam he would try and talk to me, it caused me snap at him in the middle of a test because he kept 'pst'ing me with that the teacher gave us after school detention for talking during a test.
I walked into the familiar room where they hold after school detention I saw Sam sitting in the spot he normal does and where I normal would sit was empty, along with Gilinsky. He smiled when he saw me walk in. I also saw the few other kids that were in here as often as I was or the guys along with a two kids I've never seen in here, first timers.
"Your late." The detention teacher snapped at me.
"Actually I'm not it's four minutes after school ended late would be five minutes and one second." I gave a bitchy smile.
"Miller go sit down before I give you another detention for being a smart-" she started but cut her self off and glared at me.
I walked to the opposite side of the room. I sat down in the farthest desk away from Sam. Nate and JJ walked in. "Johnson, Maloley late!" The teacher said annoyed.
"They aren't late either it's still four minutes after school." I said as put my head down on the table. The desk in front of me moved slightly signaling that someone sat there.
"Az' you still hanging out with us today?" JJ's voice filled my ears. I looked up at him.
"What do you think?" I whispered back at him, he sighed. "I mean I would love to hang out with my three best friends today but you see my ex would be there. Kinda a deal breaker." I said loud enough for Sam to hear. In the corner of my eye I saw him lean forward and put his hands on his head.
"Miller, quiet." The teacher snapped.
"So I mean I would but I'd rather not, sorry boys." I said and gave a small smile towards JJ and Nate.
The whole time during detention I could feel Sam's eyes on me, I didn't dare to look at him. When the teacher released us I was the first one out of the classroom. I sped walked down the hall and my name was being called, I knew it was Sam. I pushed opened the school doors and jogged down the steps and kept up with my same speed.
"Please, Azalea!" Sam shouted.
I didn't say anything I just kept going. He picked up his pace and gently grabbed my arm. "Az' I promise-"
"Promise what?" I snap and yank my arm back. "Promise you didn't do anything with Emma. You had the opportunity to do something with her because you were gone during the party, I didn't know where you went. You could of not only done something with her but other girls too!" I shout at him. "You also had the opportunity to push her away at the table, to 'explain' there, to stop me from walking away, but you didn't, you sat there." My voice cracked. "You sat there when it was obvious I was hurt and upset and did nothing! How many times did you tell me you wouldn't hurt me? And what did you do, you hurt me. So if you lied about that you lied about how you actually felt about me, about everything Sam." I took a short deep breath so he wouldn't talk. "So I hope you and Emma are happy together Sam." I said calmer. "Treat her better."
And with that I turned around and walked away. I used my left hand to grip the strap of my backpack and used my right hand to wipe my eyes.
I kept walking, I wanted to look back but I couldn't.
As I walked home my only thoughts were about today.
How Sam just sat there while Emma was there. Why he didn't stop Emma. Why he would even do anything with someone else, was I not enough for him.
God I'm so stupid, I should of listened to my self but no I listened to Emily and Johnson. What was I thinking, I know how he treats girls. Hump and dump, nothing more. Why would I think I wouldn't end up just like that. Maybe I thought I would be different because I am, was, one of his best friends and that I could trust him, that I could believe him when he said he cared, liked and wouldn't hurt me.
I can't keep asking my self Why?
Why any of this.
We should never of kissed that night after the party, never should of continued it, never should of done that stupid jealousy game, never should of gone to the cabin, never should of stayed in the same room, never should of listened when he said he had a surprise, never should of said yes, never should of let him hurt me. Never should of let any of this happen.
My concerns about what would happened, how he happened he hurt me, our friendship is gone, god knows how our group will be.
Before I knew it I was walking up to my house and opened the door and ran into my room tossing my bag on my bed. I got to my window and opened it, using it as a boost to get onto the roof.
Once I got up there I sat there like always, I guess I'm predictable.
Predictable, maybe that was the reason why he did it.
But the truth is I don't know, nor do I want to know.
Normally this would be the time I would call my brother, but I can't tell him about Sam. Next person would be Sam, but obviously I can't. Then it would be Gilinsky, can't do that because he'll just defend Sam. Nate and JJ I can't call because they are with Gilinsky and Sam. Girlfriends would be next but I don't really have any other than Sasha and Emily. Sasha, me and her aren't the best of friends and I don't want to that. Emily, obviously I can't, she's Sam's sister god knows what she'll do.
So I have no one.
I ran my hand down my face and I slid down to the end of the roof. I swung my self back into my room and went into my closet. I pulled out a pair of joggers and a sports bra.
If I didn't have anyone to talk to then I'll do what I normal do, go for a run.
After I changed and put my shoes on I left. I kept my phone with me even though it kept going off with texts and calls from Sam.
I ignored them and just ran.
I ran to the park and to the table. I sat down to catch my breath. Shortly after I stood back up and ran again. I ran around the park.
I ran back home, I ran around the block. Just kept running. After I ran the block a few times, I got my mind off of Sam. I jogged back to the house and grabbed a water bottle from the kitchen, being as quiet as possible.
I went back up onto the roof and just sat there. Leaving my mind blank.
Probably 30 minutes later a car pulled up and I recognized it, I groaned as I saw it was Gilinsky's. Nate got out and no one else.
"Can I come up?" He called from below.
"Sure." I sigh.
Soon he was up onto the roof and sat down next to me.
"Okay, I'm not going to tell you he didn't do anything or he did because I don't know honestly, when they left I stayed where I was." He said. "But I honestly don't think he did anything."
"Nathan I wouldn't of let you come up here if I knew you were gonna defend him." I sighed.
"I'm not defending him because I don't know." He said. "But I don't think he did anything. I think that Emma was lying because when she sat down she just had a normal conversation with us, nothing flirty. She hadn't mentioned anything from Friday until well you know when."
"That still doesn't make up for the fact that Sam did nothing." I say.
"I know. I think he was just in shock, just like all of us were." Nate told me. "I don't think anything happened because he does genuinely like you Az', he does care for you."
"Nate please." I sighed.
"Fine but think about that." He said. He sat back for a second and looked over my clothes. "You went for a run?"
"Yeah." I nodded.
"Why didn't you call me or JJ or G or Emily or Ethan?" He said quickly. Like I've said these boys know me too well.
"You and JJ where with Sam and G, G has been defending Sam, Emily is Sam's sister and Ethan can't know, who knows what would happened." I said and he nodded.
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Long update :)
Lots of mistakes, probably.
If there are mistakes that bother you a lot, let me know so I can fix them because I'm not gonna edit until the end of the book. So just let me know.
Y'all don't know what next chapter brings.
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