STASIA
Walking over to Izzy, I smile and wave.
I knew Mira was walking close
behind me but I didn't realize Drew was following as well, I thought he
might of made an exit after that girl Kim, I mean I do believe Drew and Mira, but she was just so convincing and I don't know why it hurt so
much to think he used me like that.
But Mira wouldn't have responded
the way she did....., or Drew for that matter and what Mira's dad did well..... now I just got to get it out of my head.
As I sit, Izzy gives me
the biggest smile, I lean in and give her a cuddle, she whispers in my ear,
"Wish these guys would just leave me while I'm talking to you guys, I just need to breathe a bit"
Mira must have heard, cause she tells the boys
it's girl time, and to move out of hearing distance.
But Drew looks at me then says,
"I'm not going anywhere Stasia...."
He starts to say something
else but I cut him off.
" Give me time to process the last 30 minutes and I'll be good, you don't have to go either just let us have girl time ok!"
With that he comes up to me wraps me in his arms and says " I'm so sorry but she lied, I promise you."
I put my arms around him and just hold him I nod
then pull away,
"Go chat with your boys or mates or whatever you call each other "
he winks at me and says,"My Brothers, babe they're my brothers."
With that, the guys start to move away but Nova and Corey don't want to leave Izzy's side, she gives Nova a Kiss on the cheek and
cuddles Corey and tells them she will be fine and she will call out if she needs them.
Once they're gone she says
" My nightmares are getting worse and I'm spacing out or as Corey puts it freaking the fuck out"
I rub her the back, I know how she feels so I add
"You don't actually get over it... but you do find somewhere to put it in your mind to keep you
safe, but counseling did help! I hope it helps you" Mira's looking at
us with something I'm not sure what, worry compassion... not sure, but
she just gives us her silent strength, which I believe will be there for ever...
I jump up and grab some drinks for us... I look at Izzy but she shakes
her head, I know she's too young but I wouldn't have cared ... Then again
it could make things worse too.
Starting up some girl talk we talk about the game we played today and
the way Drew's been my shadow lately which I can't lie.... I love! I ask
the girls about their love life, but they're both not saying anything
Izzy, well.... I understand nothing going on there, and that will be for a long time I get that,
but Mira ... I'm thinking something might be going on with someone but who is the big question? she is so tight lipped about it, reckons her dad
would never allow it ....we talk about everything under the sun, makeup, hair, clothes, shoes, music....
As we start up about music we can hear the music
pumping up inside and Mira and I are starting to bounce in our seats,
Izzy smiles at us both then says
"Mira can you take me to my room, I'm
buggered, but don't tell the boys till later, they will want to stay with
me, I don't need them too. I'm good tonight let them enjoy their night..." Mira nods and we
all stand she smiles and says "follow me ladies" we head inside...
I'm shocked there are heaps of people here now far out!
As we are walking through the crowd I get pulled by the arm and yanked back, an older
man in my face saying,
"Where do you think your going missy"
I start to shake he looks mean, there's a scar under his left eye.
I start to answer him but someone grabs my hips and I freeze then I relax and Drew whispers in my ear "I got you beauty" then he looks over my
shoulder and talks to the man
"Spud, see you've met my girl Stasia,
Stasia this is Spud one of the brothers" I force a smile cause he still freaks me out, he nods then smiles this creepy smile back and
tells Drew "Need to keep that one close brother didn't know she was with you..."
With that Drew changes position and stands protectively in front of me.
"Well she is...... spread the word, will be for good too so don't get any ideas Spud..."
Then Drew looks at me and says
"Come on beauty let's get you a drink"
I can't see Mira anywhere so I follow Drew, he puts me in front of him at the bar and cages me in I'm facing the bar standing
and he's on the stool legs open and arms on either side of me. He bends
in and whispers in my ear,
"what you drinking Beauty"
I lean back into him, loving the feeling and tell him what we were drinking outside
will be good... then Mira shows up out of nowhere and yells over the bar
"2 B52s and a jug of illusions Sandy"
The lady winks at Mira then gets busy with mixing the drinks she puts 2 shots in front of us and
Mira looks at me then says "on three.... 1..2..3... " we both swing them back, as soon as I've swallowed Drew turns me around and kisses me..... I
try to pull away but he doesn't let me after I relax and start to enjoy the kiss and forget where I am he slowly pulls away then says
"I'm not drinking tonight so I'll taste it through you beauty"
I just nod then look at Mira and she is smiling saying "another"
shaking my head at her I say
"Let's try this green stuff here, looks good" Drew
reaches in front of me and fills our glasses and gives Mira hers,
then gives me mine and says,
"You're still giving me a taste Beauty so don't think you're getting out of it"
Jesus, he's killing me here... Mira
is bopping around to the music then I yell over the music,
"Izzy get to her room ok"
"yeah Nova was already there watching movies, he told her it's too bad, till he feels good with leaving her it ain't happening" I nod thinking it's a
good thing cause my nightmares were a bitch to get rid of and having
someone chase them away can only help.....
Before I know it Mira and I are up and dancing I'm busting a move
like I do with Keata at home trying to get her to feel the beat, then Jessie J's bang bang comes on.....I love this song so I search out Drew and start teasing him with the words, by the
time the chorus comes, he's walking towards me..... when Nikki starts rappin,
I'm going hard out like it's me and when I get to the part, "you need a bad girl to blow your mind" I'm over his shoulder, I see Mira
waving at me laughing.....shit... I bit off more than I can chew....
He's taking me down the hallway then we get to a door.... he opens it with a key then shut it and locks it and I'm sliding down his body against the door, god this feels so good... he starts to kiss me then pulls back.... "you say when Beauty I just want you to feel..... let me try to make you feel good..."
With that I nod then he leans in and starts kissing me.......my lips, my neck.... he's whispering in my ear then I feel his leg come up between mine, his thigh hits my core and it feels so good I don't know if he's rubbing or if I'm the one doing it between that and the alcohol I consumed tonight and the cloud nine feeling in my misted brain, I don't even register him unzipping my jeans.....
before I know what's happening he's got his thumb on the golden button and my eyes roll. He puts his fingers close to my opening while his thumb is still circling my magic button, my hips are moving with out any thought when he slips a finger inside me ohhh god that's too good.....then I'm not sure what happens next because this feeling takes over like a hard throb started... then it almost hurts....
But before I know it.... my whole body is shaking and my core is convulsing....
When I open my eyes
Drew is lying next to me kissing my neck saying how amazing I am I must have blanked out because I don't remember getting in his bed he smiles and cuddles closer then says,
"Get some sleep Beauty, you've had enough tonight!"
Yawning, I stretch out....then I agree that I'm going to fall asleep, as I think it, I snuggle in and drift off fast ...