Everything went so fast you wished you spent more time to savor every second of what had happened, you found yourself laying yet again on Sean's floor in the recording room smiling like an idiot. He kissed you. He liked you. You took one of the pillows Sean let you use and you covered your face and let out a muffled laugh. To think you actually regretted meeting Sean for even a second, now you couldn't have been more happy that life turned out this way, it was bittersweet really, but you remembered your dad saying "Bittersweet is always better than plain sweet, life needs hardships to overcome to establish a sense of accomplishment". Your dad told you that when you had a rough day with your old friends back when you were a lot younger, and you ended up meeting someone new. You found an extreme amount of truth in that statement, especially now. Life was an absolute hell for you, you got kicked out of your house. You had to deal with a grandfather who never seemed to have a sense of appreciation for you. You had to cope with your grandmother's death. You had to go through being kicked out again, but now that you thought back, if your dad never kicked you out you would have never been into Youtube as much as now. Without your grandfather's disapproval you would never have felt the rebellion to message Sean. Without your grandmother's death you would have never gained a sense of trust in Sean or acquired enough money to make it to Pax, and without being kicked out once again you would never be here, in Ireland, meaning you would never have gotten the opportunity to develop an interest in Sean. Everything played out, everything had a part to contribute into your life, and you couldn't be happier.
But what now? Sean obviously showed an interest in you, but what next? Are we together? you wondered. Now you stopped and thought, it would be awkward just to walk up to Sean in the morning and ask "Hey thanks for kissing me are we together or what?" No, you couldn't just be like that. Why am I so awkward? What am I to say? you thought frantically, immediately you got up and grabbed a notepad left on Sean's desk, you sat down and started to think up of ideas, nothing.
"(y/n)?" You heard from behind you, the light turned on and you blinked as you spun around in the chair, Sean was in the doorway, he looked exhausted.
"Oh Sean, why are you awake so late? It's like, two in the morning." You questioned. Your heart started to lift up at the sight of him however, you couldn't help it.
"I could ask yeh the same thing." He said, leaning on the doorway for support.
"I have insomnia," You said as you stood up "and you look like hell, no offense, so why aren't you asleep?" Sean chuckled a bit after you said that and took a step closer to you. Your heart once again did a somersault in your chest as you stood your ground.
"Just couldn't fall asleep, not with a pounding feeling in my chest. What are yeh doin' at my desk?" He questioned, taking another step forward. You were thankful you hadn't written anything down yet.
"Just thinking, didn't feel like laying down. I have a question for you though." You said, keeping your eye contact solely on his.
"And what is it?" He asked, smiling. You were glad you could make someone genuinely smile.
"What are we? Well, I mean, like, since about earlier and such, oh forget about it." You said, breaking eye contact. Sean took one last step forward, he was close enough to feel his breath now.
"I get it, I know how yeh feel, but I'm not the type of person who'd just kiss yeh and say 'well that was nice' and leave it at that. (Y/n), what I mean is, since now we both know we like each other, would yeh consider bein' my, uh, my girlfriend?" Sean said, he said the last part shyly.. You looked back up, his beautiful blue eyes seemed so gentle as if they were trying to persuade you into an obvious answer. You smiled.
"Of course." You said simply. Sean smiled and you were sure you were blushing all over again. This time you were the one to lean in and kiss him. It was sweet, everything about it. This time it lasted a little longer, Sean wrapped his arms around your back and you put your hands on his shoulders, enjoying every second. After you two broke apart you pulled him into a tight hug.
"(Y/n) I-" He stopped and took a deep breath.
"Yeah?" You asked, pulling away only enough to see his face.
"I, I love yeh. I can't explain it, I'm not the type of person who'd make spur of the moment choices, but I knew when I saw yeh and your personality that I loved yeh, I just.. didn't realize it till just a few hours ago.." He said. Your heart warmed up, someone loved you. Someone genuinely loved you.
"Sean, I never realized either but I've always loved you. Before you knew I even existed I loved you, who couldn't? Your videos are an inspiration!" You said, Sean looked at you with pure admiration.
"Glad I made a difference." He said. You two stood there for a moment, just content to see each other. "(Y/n)?" Sean asked again. You let a chuckle out.
"Yeah?"
"Yeh know yeh don't have to sleep on a wooden floor right?" He said.
"I-I know, but for now it's what I'm comfortable with, you understand don't you?" You asked.
"Of course, but I don't think I'm fallin' asleep any time soon now." Sean said.
"I don't think I will either.." You said "What do you think of video games?" You asked. Sean smiled playfully.
"Sure, as long as yeh won't be a grump about it." He said with a smirk. You laughed at him.
"I won't, trust me." You said, Sean smiled and opened the door again.
"Ladies first." He said in his most gentleman-like voice that he could muster. You smiled and walked down the stairs. You ventured into the room with the consoles as Sean set up a game. You noticed your old suitcase in the corner of the room, as Sean turned the monitor on something gleamed golden in one of the pouches. You walked towards it and pulled out your locket.
I was, well, kinda thinking that you could share it with your future boyfriend. Your father had said.
"Hey Sean, do you have a picture of yourself?"
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When it came time for the sun to rise you two were beyond tired. Your eyelids were heavy and you leaned on a table for support while Sean sat at the table, his head completely resting on his hand, which looked like it could give out any second.
"So, what's for breakfast?" You asked tiredly as Sean sipped his coffee.
"I dunno, yeh can go check the cupboards if yeh want to." He said, barely lifting his eyes to meet yours while he talked. You walked towards the shelves and picked a random cereal to eat. As you sat down and ate you recapped last night, gaming had been fun, Sean eventually was more awake and you two had a lot of fun playing various games on several consoles. You did end up getting a picture of Sean from him, thought you haven't told him why yet. The picture was now glued in the beautiful golden locket, which now hung from your neck.
"Thanks for the picture though." You piped in randomly.
"Oh yeah, no problem. Why'd yeh need it though?" He asked.
"Oh," You said, you unclasped your locket and held it in front of him. He took it and opened it, a picture of him was in there, the other half was empty. "My father gave me that locket for Christmas, told me to share it with my future boyfriend. I completely ignored the locket though, thought it was ridiculous, I hated the idea of having a boyfriend, I guess I changed though, because I am more than happy to put your picture in there." You said. He smiled and lifted his head off of his hand to take a closer look at the necklace.
"I didn't know yeh even had a dad, yeh never mentioned him. Did yeh tell him what happened after your grandmother, well.." He started and faded away.
"Well, actually I haven't.. he sort of kicked me out of the house when I graduated high school, after that I never had a close bond with him. I think he just couldn't handle me after my mom died.." You said, recalling his visit on Christmas morning.
"So yeh didn't even try to ask him for shelter after your grandfather kinda exploded at yeh?" He asked curiously.
"I-I don't even know if he knows I'm not there anymore.. shoot I probably should've called him, or messaged him at least.." You said. Sean let out a huge yawn.
"Okay, I'll let yeh do that.. damn, still more comments.." He said more downcast as he took out his phone. "Yeh know what? I think we need to do a video together and clear up this mess." He said.
"Are you sure that would even solve anything?" You asked "What if it causes even more trouble?"
"Well it can't harm to try now, not like it's gonna get any worse yeh know." He said. You nodded. If you were going to be honest with yourself, you were nervous to get on camera. In front of so many people, once again.
"I'm gonna Skype message my dad to let him know what's up." You said, you pulled open your phone and opened your Skype app, you clicked on your contacts list and your heart nearly dropped to your feet. There was a single notification, and it was right over Alice's name.