"Are you not hungry yet?" I hesitatingly ask Jinki. I silently sigh when he is not answering me again.
He is so silent. We are on our way to our 'honeymoon'. Jinki's parents volunteer to take care of Tae Woo while we are away. They said they booked us in a resort in Krabi, Jinki's favorite place. They hurried us up after the party and told us that they putted some stuffs in our room so we don't have to bring lots of things towards there.
I close my eyes when the airplane starts to move. I turn my head to the opposite direction from him. My tears fall when I can't take his ignoring attitude towards me.
When we arrive, he walks fast as if he is not with someone.
"Jinki, please wait."
"Walk fast. I'm tired."
"Arasseo." I said it in a low voice.
When we arrive at the resort, he walks away leaving me behind after he asked the front desk.
"Yeoboseyo?" I call his mother. "Eomma... We just got here. Erghmm... What is our room number... I—Urgh... We forgot. Omo gomawo eomma. How is Tae Woo? I am missing him... Gomawo eomma. Neomo gomawo. Bye."
I walk silently towards our room. I knock before I open it. When I get inside, he is nowhere to be found.
"Jinki?" I look at the bathroom, but he is not there. I open the wardrobe only to flush. The dresses are just so sexy. Not my type. The more I flush when I pick my sleep wear. I disregard the thought and quickly change my outfit.
When I finish, I try calling him, but his phone is left inside the room. I wait for him to comeback, but he is still not here until night comes.
I look outside the window. I see party lights from one corner of the resort. I sigh. I am thinking that he is there.
I walk towards the bed and decided to sleep. I have no appetite to eat.
It is already midnight when I am awaken by a loud sound of a closed door.
"Jinki..."
He walks towards me and push me back to bed. He is drunk.
"Jinki, what are you doing?" I try to stop him when he pulls my undies. "Ya! Don't do this Jinki. Please! Don't do this!!!"
"You're my wife now. This is part of your responsibilities as my bull**** wife!" He turns me around when I keep on resisting.
My tears are falling because I am in pain. Not physically, but emotionally. I bite my lips when I can feel him inside me. He stops when he almost reach his climax.
"Tssk, I forgot. I should use this."
I did not bother to look. I know what he means basing on the different feeling that I feel when he gets inside me again.
He flops down beside me when he's done. I put back my undies and hug my knees like a fetus inside a womb. I can't stop from crying. I feel so dirty.
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When I wake up, I found out that he is not beside me anymore. I see foods inside. There's a note ordering me to eat.
I puff an air. I feel hopeless about our relationship. Jinki starts to stay away from me again. He must have hate me for tying him up in this marriage.
Instead of eating, I walk outside while wearing a beach dress. I sit on the sand and sigh. I stare on the sea while allowing myself to be under the heat. My tears fall again when I remember what happened.
"Take this."
I look up. I see a foreign guy handling me a handkerchief.
"Thanks." I stand as I get it.
"You're a Korean?"
I nod.
"I see. Annyeong haseyo, Neil-imnida."
I look surprise to him when he speaks well in Korean. "Eun Jae-imnida. You speak well in Korean."
"Ne. I am always fascinated with Korea's culture so I decided to study your own language too."
"Wow, daebak!"
"Hmmm... You look gorgeous with that dress."
"Of course she will." I turn at my side and see Jinki walking towards us. "Hi. Jinki-imnida. Eun Jae's husband." He places his hand on my shoulder.
"Ohh, so you are in your honeymoon?"
"Ne." Jinki smiles.
"By the way, Neil-imnida." Jinki and Neil shake hands. "I'm sorry for my behavior. I am not able to stop myself when I see her crying while looking at the sea."
Jinki looks surprised. "You're crying?"
I look down to avoid his eyes.
"Seems like you two need to talk. See you around then."
"Thanks Neil. See you around too." Jinki waves back. He unfastens his arms away from me. "What are you doing? Are you trying to flirt around?"
"Of course not Jinki!" My tears escape from my eyes.
He pauses for a while when he sees me crying. "Why did you not eat the food that I ordered?" He said in a mellow voice.
I look away from him. "I have no appetite."
"Let's eat." He holds my hand and drags me gently.
I follow him silently. Not wanting to break his good mood.
"What do you want to eat?" He asks me after he orders his choice.
I look at the waiter. "Just pineapple juice please."
"Please double my order. Thank you." Jinki smiles to the waiter. He looks at me when the waiter is gone. "Juice only? Are you trying to kill yourself? You did not eat yesterday when we arrive and now you are not eating?"
"You left me yesterday alone. I don't know this place. What do you expect?" I sound a bit sarcastic.
He did not answer me. He sighs and stares at me. "I was mad... So mad. I feel like I was being manipulated by everyone... Especially you."
"Me?" I couldn't believe him. "I did not manipulate you!"
"The marriage..."
"I didn't even know! I was deceived by your parents. I did not expect it."
"I just—" Jinki pauses when our orders arrive. "Eat it all."
"I am not hungry." I pout.
Jinki sighs. "Stubborn as ever." He murmurs.
We become silent again when we start to eat.
"Mianhe..."
I stare at Jinki when he said it. "Huh?"
"Mianhe for what happened. I was drunk."
I stop from drinking my juice. I play the straw. "Don't be drunk again."
He nods. "Where do you want to go?"
"Wae? You are coming with me?"
"Aniyo."
"Tssk. Then there's no reason for me to tell you."
"Arasseo."
I smirk when he is cold again. I feel frustrated every time he is acting like this.
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I stare at the pool outside the window. Aside from the sea, the resort has a pool too. It's part of the view from our room. It's inviting me. I look at the wardrobe to see if there is a swim wear. I pout when I see that it's a two piece.
"Jinjja, what I need are all here, but it's all sexy." I complain to myself.
I decided to go. Anyway, Jinki left me alone in our room. He said he is waiting for a call. Probably Ha Eun again.
I cover the robe properly to my body when I feel the cold gush of the wind. It makes me shiver. I feel so small and old-like when people are staring at me. They look like they see a weird person. It's probably because I'm the only one wearing a robe.
I take off my robe and put it on one chair available. I see the group of guys whistling while waving at me. I feel like back outing, but decided to ignore them and swim.
When I hold the rim of the pool, I am surprised to see one of the guys waiting at me there.
"Hi sexy."
I try to swim back at the opposite side. When I see that the guy also swims, I start to get panic. The more I get panic when I feel pain in my calves. I start to get drown.
I already drink a lot of water when I feel someone is pulling me. I see Jinki scooping me towards the side of the pool.
"Gwenchana?" He pats my cheek softly.
I am gasping an air. I tremble as I shake my head.
"Jamkaman." He gets my robe and covers it to me. He carries me afterwards. I frown when he stops in front of the group of guys teasing me earlier. "Ya... Don't tease my wife again. You're scaring her."
I am surprised to what he did. I stare at him, not blinking my eyes.
"Wae?"
I shake my head. "Gomawo. You can put me down."
"Aniyo."
He carries me to our room. He places me on the bed gently. "Is your foot still hurting?"
"Not really. Just a bit."
He pulls my foot and massages it. I stare at his hand massaging my feet gently. "Neomo gomawo."
He waits to finish what he is doing before answering me. "Tae Woo still needs you, so please try to take care of yourself. You're welcome."
"How did you know?"
"I was there at the corner. You did not see me when you arrive."
"Ohh, jinjja?"
"Ne. I saw how those guys call your attention. Why are you wearing that swim wear by the way? I thought you don't like sexy outfits?"
I roll my eyes. "It's what is inside the wardrobe. See it for yourself."
"Tssk... Jinjja. Kibeom probably prepares all of these things." He shakes his head as he opens the wardrobe and sees my stuffs.
I shrug my shoulders. "Maybe?"
He nods. "Wait here. I'll order foods for our supper." He did not wait for my answer and then walks away.
I smile when I remember his worried face earlier.
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