"Hoseok , thank you."
"For?" I took a shot , feeling the alcohol burn my throat
"For being here with me right now , listening to my rants about Jimin , witnessing how broken I am" I laughed "I'm a fucking mess"
"an alcoholic one" I joked
It was a silent for a while before he spoke up again
"But for real , thank you."
thank you for always giving me your signature smile , for laughing at my jokes , for being the shoulder I could cry on , for spending the whole night with me instead of taking a rest , for baring with my annoying cries. I'm sorry for always finding Jimin. I just feel so scared when Im around you , I feel like I'm about to break right infront of you.
Suddenly , the once joyful atmosphere became sad which made me quite comfortable "Are you thinking of killing yourself?"
I stared at hoseok for giving me such an idea. Suicide never did come to my mind but now he brought it up , I cant help but think. Since i'm just an extra of their lives , just someone who hinders their way of living , why not just be gone?
There was a long silence between us , just me and yoongi staring at each other "Please dont. We could get through this together." I intertwined our fingers together , telling him that he's not alone.
I placed my head on the table , not wanting to look at hoseok nor to our hands. His' is warm and soft as usual.
"Yoongi , listen , dont let a mere person bring you down. There are people who would still want you to live"
I looked up to him "yea , like who?"
I gave him a small smile "like me."