A/N:
HOLY CHETOS I HAVENT UPDATED AND ITS RIDICULOUS HOW SORRY I AM RIGHT NOW. I am super duper sorry. Please dont hunt me down for what i've done. For the longest time, I got caught up in my own mess and couldnt even remember i used to write on wattpad. How bad is that!? I'm so sorry, please dont be mad or it'll get me upset. Thank you for waiting for the ridiculous amount of time i've made you wait. i hope this update is okay for you!
btw, thank you for all the messages checking if i was okay. appreciate it. you guys are the best. love youuuu omfg xD
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Chloe's Perspective
"Stop. Dont say anything."
My mind was playing tricks. Remembering Ashton while kissing? And then, pretending to love Calum? And now, tricking me that I love them both? Who in the world am I kidding?
All of a sudden my head felt light and I knew exactly where I was, but I felt so lost.
"What's happening? " I heard myself whisper.
I could make out a figure. But it faded slowly, within every blink, I felt lost and afraid. So lost, but knowing exactly where I sat.
I could hear noise, but nothing was clear. I touched my face, making sure I was still there. But my hands were going numb.
And then there was noise. It was clear.
"Chloe. Chloe. Can you hear me?"
"It stopped." I said rather silently.
I looked up to see Calum staring at me with the most worried face I had ever seen.
"Hey you're okay." I just stare at him. Nothing changes except his words.
"Breathe. It's okay. "
I blink. Place my hands on my face, and just breathe.
I could feel my face this time. Wondering why I couldn't feel it the first time.
"What happened?" I ask Calum.
"I'm think it was anxiety." He responded shortly after a brief silence.
I could feel my heart in chest thud heavily.
"You're fine. It's alright. "
Calum places his hands over mine. And then wipes a tear I didn't realize I had. I frown.
I stare helplessly at him. He didn't even question me.
Next second, I'm hugging him with tears streaming down.
I can't be doing this anymore. I can't do this to Calum. I can't just pretend. No.
I let him go. Walked away and didn't look back.
Calum's Perspective
I'm alone.
Everyone. Even myself. I'm a lost soul with Chloe. And now I'm so confused.
I go home after a while of reflecting. Perhaps over thinking it all while I was at it.
I go home, not to hurt myself, but to play myself a song.
I've tried so hard. To hard. It's useless.
I pick up my guitar, the only one who hasn't left me yet.
I just strum for a moment. Soft strumming to calm me. But something is playing way louder. Loud and clear to me.
It's loud and throbbing. And it's not something I've heard before.