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I was so close to drifting off into a sleep, when a guard had harshly banged his gun at the bars.
My head shot up as I gasped, my eyes opening.
"Get up, you've been bailed out." He cocked his head.
"What?" I asked in shock, him smiling smugly.
"Yeah, you've been bailed out. It's your lucky day."
"Oh my god." I whispered as I was lead out.
Thank god, no more baggy clothes and dirty cells. I've only been here for about six hours and I've hated it completely. I mean.. It's prison.
Gathering my clothes and belongings, the cops seemed to be glancing at me once in awhile.
"Erm.. Could I ask who paid for the bail?" I spoke up, the lady at the desk smiling at me.
"This wonderful young man, named Harry. Styles, it was I think." She nodded, my eyes widening.
"What? H-he paid to bail me out?"
"Yes, but he didn't seem happy.."
I didn't even get to process what was happening in my head.. Harry.. He bailed me the fuck out of jail, after what just happened?
I thought he'd leave me forever, but.. Then he still did this for me. I couldn't at all cope with it.
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As soon as I had finished getting ready, I was easily let out by the guards and I guess that was it for my prison adventure..Not really an adventure.
Dialling in Hannah, I pressed it to my ear as I sat down on the steps of the police department.
"Hello?" She answers. "Blue, how did you get your phone back?"
"Hannah.. Harry bailed me out." I spoke, not even getting to believe it myself, either.
"What?!" She exclaimed, me nodding heavily. I realized that she couldn't see me though.
"Yeah." I breathed out. "Well do you want me to pick you up? Because I--"
"No, I'm good.. I'm going to go see Tyler again." I bit my lip, my heart feeling as if it just suddenly dropped.
To think that he had less days, killed me inside.. I never wanted any of this to happen, at all.
"I'm so sorry, Blue." Hannah whispered lastly before I hung up.
Sighing, I slipped my phone into my jean pocket and crossed the street.
The hospital was a couple blocks away, so I guess I could just walk it.
Jamming my hands into my pockets, I realized that it was such a cold afternoon, the clouds in the sky looking grayer then usual.
It might rain, so I guess I should hurry up.
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As I walked in, I immediately knew where I'd be going as I took the elevator.
Pressing the button for the sixth floor, I patiently wait.
Tapping my foot, the elevator doors slid open sooner then I thought they would as I stepped out.
Looking around, I looked down briefly after as I crossed my arms over my chest.
The surroundings were the usual busy hospital with nurses and doctors scattered around, in conversation.
Weaving through them easily, I had found Tyler's room and walked in, closing it behind me.
Tyler was still asleep from the last I saw him, as I smiled.
"Hey." I spoke quietly, sitting in the seat beside his hospital bed.
Although I noticed something was different.
He didn't have an oxygen mask on anymore.
And the monitor..
The line was no longer moving.
I gasped, closing my eyes as I held a hand to my mouth.
"No.. No." I cried, biting down on my lower lip.
Choking out sobs, I had felt myself grow weaker.
He was no longer breathing, as I checked.
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Stumbling, I had ran out, crying out for a doctor to help.
Fuck, but it was too late.. Why would they not even bother to fucking check if he was alright?!
I fell onto my knees, everything happening in a slow motion as the doctors urgently rushed in, along with some nurses.
Crying, a nurse had tried to comfort me.
I could no longer feel myself breathing much either.
"Please.. Do everything you can." I barely got the words out because I was crying too much.. It just hurt so much. I've never been this broken ever since my parents passed away..
It was so hard to just.. Lose someone so important in your life.
The lady nods, looking at me sympathetically.
She had also headed into the room, closing the door behind her.
Bringing my knees to my chest, I knew this would come sometime, but I just.. I wished I could've said goodbye.
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It seemed like a long matter of time before a nurse had came out.
I had gotten a slight peek of what was happening inside.. And I didn't like it.
I closed my eyes, painfully. I had wished I didn't see what was in there at all, now.
Imagining it, I imagined that he was still alive, still happy and relieved that he was revived. I imagined myself so happy that I'd get a chance to tell him everything I had to.. But I only ever got to see him one last time, without knowing he'd be gone after that..
Instead, I saw him being hid under the white sheets, dissappointed looks on the doctors faces.
I didn't even feel myself crying at all, just a pure numb feeling throughout my whole body.
There was a loud ringing in my ears as I felt the wetness streaming down my face.
My hands were shaking vigorously as the nurse had grabbed them to calm me down.
"I'm so sorry, sweetheart.. H-he's gone, and we.. We couldn't do anything about it." She spoke so gently, I almost wished that it was Tyler talking to me instead..
"I.. I-I never got to, say goodbye." I winced, looking down because I knew my eyes were both bloodshot and puffy from all these tears.
"He's in peace now, hun. Let's just remember that he won't have to fight a battle he'll lose later on. He's at peace." She spoke softly, me sobbing.
"H-he.. I never got to tell him.." My voice was so unstable, I could barely get one single sentence out.. "I.. I never told him how much he m-meant to me." I cried, hugging the nurse as she hugs me back.
As I hugged her, I could see the doctors talking.
And I heard only a few words being muttered.
Tyler Walters, 12:48PM, February 6th, 2014.
That was his death hour being cited.
"I.. I need him." I whispered, my head feeling a bit light.
I gasped when I felt myself slowly black out.
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- Harry -
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Management had called once again, asking me about Blue, and no one else but her.
The last thing I wanted to do was talk about her.
"Blue isn't working with us anymore, two months are over and the contract's done." I spoke bitterly over the phone.
"Oh yes, yes. But aren't you two closer than before?.."
"No, only more distant." I responded, shrugging.
Still, this small part of me didn't want her to be in such a dangerous place, like prison.
And so I bailed her out. That didn't mean I wanted to see her again right now, though.
"Harry, did you get the news?" Louis tells me, coming into my room.
I held a finger at him, signing for him to wait a second.
"Well I gotta go, Dave. Thanks. It really got the public thinking I'm a good guy, thanks." I spoke forcefully.
Yeah, this whole thing with Blue made me seem like a good guy to the public.. But still, no one knew the real me, except for the boys, and Blue.
So what was the point? Is this really what fame does to a human?
Hanging up the phone, I looked at Louis questioningly.
"T-Tyler passed away recently, we got a call from the hospital.." He spoke sadly, as I sat there in shock.
"Where's Blue then?" I asked.
"Sh-she blacked out a few minutes after his death I think, but the nurse said she'll be fine, she just has to clear her thoughts. Blue was really devastated.."
Again, this part of me wished I could be there for her to hug her and comfort her, while he was gone.
But.. Tyler was gone. The boy that Blue had gone hours talking about to me, and the boy that made her happier than usual.
He, was gone. We all knew that we would reach this point somehow.. But it just came too quick. If it affected me slightly, then of course this would've affected Blue drastically.
"Is she okay?" The words left my mouth, me looking up at him.
"I promise, she's fine." Louis smiled reassuringly. "Me and the rest of the boys and Hannah are gonna go see her, see how she's doing. You can come along if you'd like."
I didn't say anything, just watch Louis leave my room and close the door behind him.
I wasn't going to see her.. At least not today. Today was too much for me, to just find out she's been lying to me this whole time.
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I woke up in a hospital bed, my eyes fluttering open as I took a deep breath.
But then I realized what had happened, just today.
I wished it would've just been a bad dream, but this was why I was lying here.. Because I had blacked out in so much shock and devastation that..
Tyler was gone.
Not just gone temporarily, but forever.
"Why'd you have to leave Tyler.." I sniffled, looking down at my hands.
My eyes felt slightly sore from all this crying, but then.. I just couldn't help myself.
"You're too good a person.. So why d-did this have to happen to you?" I sobbed weakly, my hands over my face.
"I can't even go a singly day..Without seeing you. So how do you think I'm supposed to go an entire lifetime?" I weeped, my heart hurting.. A lot.
"I'm so sorry.. For not saying goodbye. I-I really wish you're listening to me." I sighed shakily, wiping at my eyes.
A knock had come at the door, as I looked up.
Just waiting, a nurse had came in, with a clipboard and a folded sheet of paper in her other hand.
"Hey sweetheart. How're you feeling?"
I didn't respond, just looked down, as tears clouded my vision.
"That boy, Tyler. He wrote you something before he passed. He told me to give it to you, if he couldn't give it to you in person." She smiled weakly, her cold and pale hand on top of mine as she held the slightly crumpled sheet to me.
I nodded slowly, my lips trembling. "Thank you." I whispered.
"Yeah, no problem, Blue. He never wanted to leave you, you know? He genuinely loved you, hun." She reminded me, nodding reassuringly as I tried my best to smile, but then it fell back into tears.
Shakily taking it from her, my fingers brushed over it gently.
The nurse nods once before she turns around and leaves the room.
Sniffling, I look around before I slowly unfold it.
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My dearest Blue,
If we've gotten to the point where I'm not breathing at all, I want you to know that I will always be with you. I know that you can't see me, and you might feel that I'm not here at all.. But just speak to me. Call my name. I'll respond somehow, because no matter what.. I will always find a way to make you smile, make you happy. Blue, ever since the first time you got into my cab, I knew that something would spark. I felt incredibly happy with you, and you made me feel the happiest I've ever been in awhile. If I don't get to say goodbye.. I want to tell you, that right now, as you read this. I want you to know, I loved you so much. I fell in love with you, and I'm not afraid to say it, at all. You're not like other people, and it's what makes me complete, Blue. I never want you to change.. And I don't want you to hold me in your heart for too long. I want you to set me free, and be with someone else that will make you happy. Now that I'm gone, I won't be there to keep a smile on your face anymore.. But, I know someone that will. I want you to remember our promise okay? You, will be with him, and he with you. I want to see you smile, always.. And if you ever need something else to give you a boost, just call my name. I'm going to be watching over you, seeing you grow old with someone special. It'll make me happy to see you live an amazing life. And finally when you reach your final days, I'll see you again, up here. Maybe finally get to hug you and smell your strawberry scented hair again. I'll miss it for centuries, up here. Forever. I wish you all the best Blue. I love you.
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Love, Tyler :)
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I closed my eyes, smiling as I hugged the letter to my chest.
Tears had left my eyes again, but this time, they were not tears of grief and sorrow.
It was tears, knowing that Tyler would still be here. With me, spiritually.
I'd keep him here, forever, even if I couldn't see him.
Just as said, love is like the wind.. You can't see it, but you can feel it.
And I think that's all I'll ever need.
Tyler, was one of the best things that's ever happened to me.. And will always remain in my memories, and in my heart.
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Another knock had came at the door.
"Come in." I spoke gently, my voice slightly cracking.
Hannah had walked in, along with the boys.
I smiled, my eyes probably still glossy with tears.
But there was no sign of Harry.
My face slightly fell, in slight disappointment, but still.. He had every single right to be angry with me, and every single right to never talk to me again.
"I'm so sorry, Blue." Hannah, sighed, hugging me as I hugged her back, burying my face in her shoulder.
"It's okay."
The boys had took me into a group hug as I lightly chuckled.
"You're so strong, Blue." Liam tells me, squeezing my arm reassuringly.
I smiled at him.
"We're sorry Harry couldn't make it.. He didn't really know if he could do it." Louis sighed, me nodding.
"It's fine.. I accept that it's my fault, and that he can't talk to me at all right now."
They nodded.
"And hey, it isn't your fault, alright? We know how it was back then, it was a mistake.'' Niall smiled.
They all sat around my hospital bed as I sat up, smiling.
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"Thanks for coming guys, it really means a lot."
"No problem! We were so worried about you." Hannah gushed.
"And we.. We're really sorry about Tyler. We knew how much he meant to you, Blue."
I nodded once, biting my lip. "I'm sorry about it too.."
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Another knock had came at the door. It was the nurse again.
"Come in." I spoke again, sighing.
The boys and Hannah looked at the door as it opened.
That sure wasn't a nurse..
It was Harry.
"Blue." He spoke with a sigh, as he looked at me sadly.
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