Hiya!!
This chapter isn't long but I wanted to just focus on August and Grey in this chapter. Its not everyday you wake up after a magical night to find out your soul mate hasn't marked you!!!
As for me I just found out that Terra Nova has been cancelled, and lets just say I'am not happy. Yes, I will agree that it got off to a slow start but towards the end it was really good. So finding out that I won't get to see anymore has annoyed me!!!
Oh does anyone watch Being Human on BBC three?? I love that show and have fallen in love with Hal xx
So back to the story, the song for this chapter is 'Breathing' by Jason Derulo. Awesome song!!!! >>>>>>
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My eyes opened ever so slowly to welcome the warm sunlight stream through the trees above me. I could feel Grey’s warm breath wash over the back of my neck and I couldn’t help the smile that played on my lips as I felt his possessive arm wrapped around me and the pure skin to skin contact.
I snuggled further into his body and warmth as I looked at the trees that surrounded us. The blue sky peaked out between the tick leaves and branches, and on the wind was a light scent of deer. This place was perfect.
My whole body buzzed with the after effects of mine and Grey’s mating. Then a sudden thought struck me and once again my hand flew to the un-marked skin of my neck. Tears burned the edges of my eyes as questions and sadness filled me completely, was I not good enough for him to mark?
I didn’t understand and I didn’t think I ever would. Grey has my heart completely and last night I had given him something so precious… but he hadn’t taken the leap to mark me as his and show the world we belong together.
Didn’t he love me as much as I loved him?
That thought shook my very soul. Tears fell silently from my eyes and soon the bond that connected us didn’t stop the thoughts of running away and hiding my pain. I wiped away my tears, and then slowly and carefully I pulled back his arms and slipped away.
I looked down at my naked body and suddenly felt very dirty and empty. I mated with my soul mate and should be jumping for joy but instead I felt useless and alone. My own mate didn’t want me and he had proved that by not marking me.
I took two steps away when I felt strong hands wrap around me from behind. “Where do you think you’re going angel?” Grey whispered the words gently in my ear and my wolf howled at the huskiness in his voice, but I was still feeling worthless.
I pulled away and didn’t bother looking at him. Instead I stared at the ground, occupying my mind with counting the blades of grass.
“I have to go home and sort a few things, so I will see you later”. I did my best to hide my shaky voice but I knew he sensed my sadness the moment he grabbed and turned me to face him.
“Look at me Angel!” I wouldn’t because I knew if I did I would crumble in his arms and ask why he didn’t love me as much as I love him.
He spoke again and this time it was forceful and undeniable “look at me August”. So I did and when my tear filled eyes met his hard stare I broke down and cried. I clung to him as tightly as I could and allowed the tears to flow from my eyes and dampen the skin of his chest. As I cried Grey held me and whispered comforting words that eventually calmed the fires of sadness inside of me.
Silence had enveloped us both until he finally pushed me back and held the sides of my face. I was shocked to see the evidence of pain and confusion deep within his eyes, and I realised he had no idea why I was crying.
“Tell me what’s wrong… please”. The desperation in his voice shook me and I suddenly felt so guilty for acting this way. “I’m sorry it’s just that….” I couldn’t say the words because speaking them would force him to tell me why he hadn’t marked me and joined our souls as one... and I was so afraid as to what his answer maybe.
His lips quickly pressed against mine and once again Grey made me feel alive. I kissed him back desperately allowing his strength to flow into me. I had been put through so many emotions in such as short space of time that suddenly I felt exhausted. Would there be a moment in my life when everything would just fall into place?
Grey pulled away, allowing us both to catch our breaths. The kiss had been deep and passionate but still hadn’t been enough and I realised, looking into his blue eyes that every part of me belonged to him.
“I love you Grey.” My words were strong and true, and as I watched happiness sparkle in his eyes I knew that there would be no one else for me. Grey was it and the pain of him not loving me would eventually break me…completely.
“I love you too my angel”. I gasped and clutched onto his shoulders as I held back the tears. Those words filled my very soul and my wolf purred in happiness, but I was still so confused.
“Then… then why didn’t you mark me?”
His eyes widened before closing tightly and pressing his forehead against mine. I took the comfort he offered me from his touch and waited for Grey to speak. His breath washed over my face and I could feel the tension in his hands that sat on my shoulders.
Then his eyes opened and Grey spoke “I have made so many mistakes but know this you’re not one of them. Meeting you has made me realise that everything else in my life useless and unimportant.” He sighed and wrapped his arms around my waist “when I wake up all I think about is you and when I go to sleep you fill my dreams. There are so many things I need to tell you and in time I will but for now know that I love you with every fibre of my being.”
His words caused my heart to dance and sing but I still didn’t understand his hesitation in marking me. “But why didn’t you mark me as yours??”
He smiled and kissed my lips “because when I mark you it will be after a night of me spoiling you and seeing that gorgeous blush light your cheeks when I do.”
He kissed me again “when I mark you it will be in a large bed complete with satin sheets and your beautiful naked body lying on top.
He kissed me one more time “when I mark you I will be making you feel nothing but pleasure.”
When he kissed me again it was long, deep and had my head spinning… soon enough Grey had me forgetting the question I had asked him and the tears I had been crying. All that there was in the worlds was Grey and I.
“I know I took your virginity and you have no idea how honoured I’am but can’t mark you knowing that there are so many things we have to talk about… like why you were crying last night?”
I groaned and turned my gaze away from him, but Grey placed his finger on my chin and turned my face back towards him. He smiled “don’t think you’re getting away from me that easy Angel” then his face turned serious “I felt your pain last night and I want to know what happened”.
I lightly traced the ring of his nipple and smirked slightly when I felt the immediate shiver in his body. “Do we have to talk about that now?” I took at him through my eyelashes and flashed him a cheeky smile that resulted in deep and low growl in his chest.
His placed his hand over my mine to stop it naughty movement and I pouted like a child not getting the toy they wanted.
“What happened?”
I took a deep breath before letting go of the load that had been weighing me down. I told Grey every detail about the phone call from Macy revealing the truth, the argument with Gloria and all the way to the point of me meeting him in the woods.
Through it all Grey listened and watched me silently, but when I finished he embraced me in tight hug and I heard his faint whisper “this is all wrong”. There was so much anger in his voice that it scared me but I knew this reaction was expected from a protective mate. So to sooth his anger I gently stoked his bare back and ran my fingertips down his sides and drew patterns on his hips.
Grey sighed and his embrace lessened until a paper thin gap formed between my breasts and his chest. I immediately missed the friction of his skin against my nipples but enjoyed his relaxed body more. He looked at me and sighed “god, you just found out that the woman who bullied you your whole life is not your mum, and you’re comforting me”.
I kissed his lips “being here with you now is all the comfort I need”.
He gently stroked my cheek and even that simple touch sent electricity flowing through my entire body. “How do you feel about it all?”
I glanced down and traced the creases of his abs, needing the distraction as I spoke. “I feel hurt and betrayed. I knew Gloria hated me but knowing she has been punishing me for something I knew nothing about makes me feel so… so angry and” I sighed “and hurt”.
I looked back into his eyes and felt myself drown in their clear blue waters “my dad has a soul mate out there who is my real mother… but I know I will never meet her”.
That thought hurt me deep inside. My birth mother was my dad soul mate and that meant she would be more like him in so many ways. They had been made for each other and I was the only thing that connected them… but my mum wasn’t here and my dad was dead.
“Why say that angel? You can find her if you really want to”.
“What’s the point when she couldn’t stay to be with her soul mate let alone raise her daughter?”
Grey sighed while pushing my loosely flowing hair behind my ears “there is a reason for all actions, good and bad. So I wouldn’t write your mum off just yet”.
I bit my lip in thought before crumbling under his gentle eyes. Grey smiled “good but is there anything I can do?”
Before speaking I breathed in his delicious scent, stroked his warm skin and allowed both senses to fill every fibre of my being. “Yes there is”. Grey cupped my face and whispered gently against my skin “what is it?”
I brushed my lips against his “love me”.
And with one kiss, Grey didn’t just steal my breath away…. he made all the pain I had felt just disappear.
Grey was all I needed.