So I'm sorry it took so long for an update, I've been obsessed with AHS recently and I also had a bad case of writer's block :( I honestly thought this was shit, and I think I'm losing my touch, I'm so so sorry :(
And also, I would appreciate a little feedback from you guys? It would be really awesome if you told me what you think of the preference :)
Ashton: "Months have passed, it's still dark. I have loved you from the start"
You were lying awake in your bed for the past three hours, staring up at the ceiling as your thoughts clouded your mind. The tears that trailed down your face have dried up by now, but the thought of him would make more fall, replacing the dried up tear stains on your cheeks. You took a deep breathe and wiped the remaining tears that fell and sat up, hugging your knees and burying your head into them. It's been three months since that fight you had with him, and he hasn't even apologized for it. You fell out with him, just because of a stupid bitch who couldn't help herself. You fell out with your own best friend - the boy who grew up with you, and the boy whom you have loved since the very beginning. You couldn't understand why he chose that bitch over his best friend, and at the same time, he chose her over you, the person who has always been there for him in his times of need and the person who has always been in love with him. Your fallout started when this beautiful girl came into his life - he was blinded by infatuation, but you knew well what kind of girl she was. From that very moment you laid your eyes on her, you knew that she wasn't in it for his affections. She was in it for his fame, and that's exactly what she was after. She made him think she was in love with him, but in reality, she just wanted him for his fame. You've always tried to warn him, but he just wouldn't listen to you. You closed your eyes and remembered that day, it was still fresh in your memory. "You don't understand Ashton!" you yelled, tears blurring your vision as you struggled to keep them from falling. You were scowling at him, but he was just as angry. "What don't I understand, huh? You don't think I understand what you're trying to do to my relationship with Marie?" Your eyes widened and you felt sick to your stomach - he thought that you were trying to ruin his relationship with her? Wow. "I'm not trying to ruin your fucking relationship-" "Oh, that's rich, Y/N. I've always known that you were obsessed with me for a long time!" You froze in place upon hearing those words and the tears you struggled to fight were now streaming down your face. You stared at him in shock for a few moments before you turned away, hugging yourself with a sad expression. "Y-you knew that I loved you, yet you still loved that bitch in front of me? Don't you know how painful it is to watch the person you love, love someone else? The painful thing is that you just watch from the sidelines, and you couldn't do anything about it. What's worse is that I know that she's only fucking using your fame, and that she doesn't really love you!" You yelled at him. You felt your blood pressure rise, but you just didn't care - you needed to get this out of your system. "She loves me, I know it," he retaliates, and you grew even more upset at the fact that he's still so blind. "Whatever. I can't take this anymore," you turned to leave but you stopped, exhaling a deep breath. "I'm just so tired of trying, Ashton. I'm letting you choose this time. Me," you choked in a sob. "Or her. I'm gonna walk out of your life forever, but if you ask me to stay, I'll take it as your promise to break up with her." You shut your eyes when you heard nothing but silence, your heart pounding wildly in your chest as you awaited his reply. You didn't want to do this, but you needed him to stop seeing her, because you know that she'll only hurt him in the end. You have always been there for him, and there was no way he wouldn't choose you over her. But a tear escaped your eye when you heard him reply, making your heart shatter into a million pieces as you walked out of his house, and his life forever. "Goodbye, Y/N," his last words still rang in your head as you cried yourself to sleep, like every other night.
Michael: "Cause baby you and me, we could always be, I just wanna call you mine"
You looked up to see his emerald eyes staring back at you, and one eye shut to wink at you. You rolled your eyes at him in response, turning away as you tried to hide the smile on your face. The smile then faded in a matter of seconds, and was replaced with a sad smile instead. You pulled on the hem of your shirt as you closed your eyes, trying to ignore the aching in your chest. Michael Clifford - a name that would make you heart race in a matter of seconds. The owner of this name was your best friend, but at the same time, the only person who could make the butterflies in your stomach run wild with just one smile. Yes, you were in love with your best friend. He doesn't feel the same way you did though, and that's what sucks. You began to tap your pencil on the table rhythmically, scrunching your eyebrows together with a frown. Don't you ever just get that heavy feeling in your chest when you see the person you love, and then you remember that he doesn't love you back? You've always wanted to call him yours, but he was making it really hard because he doesn't like you the way you like him. You needed to try to forget about him, at least for now. You took a deep breath and heaved out a sigh, trying to push back all your thoughts because each one of them was about Michael, and you didn't need him in your head right now. "Hey," you groaned when you heard the said boy's voice behind you. He took a seat next to you and he propped his elbow on the table, setting his head onto his palm as he stared at you with a grin. You looked at him with a puzzled expression, "What is it?" His lips curled into a smirk, and he just shrugged lazily as he continued to stare at you. He hummed, as he continued to stare and you averted your gaze, tucking a loose strand of hair behind your ear, suddenly feeling uncomfortable and insecure. "I've just realized something," he says with a smile. He shifted a little bit so he was now sitting up straight, and he took your small hand in his, intertwining your fingers together. "I just realized that..." he wiggles his eyebrows. "You are everything I want, and everything I need, I just wanna call you mine," he sang, his voice sending shivers down your spine and goosebumps to appear on your skin. You've always loved it whenever he sang, because he sounds like an angel. "Wait, do you mean-" "Yes, I mean that I think I'm in love with you. I've wanted to tell you for a long time now but," he casts his gaze downwards. "I wasn't sure of my feelings for you yet. But when I saw you over there, looking so damn beautiful even when you smiled, I just knew." He fixed his gaze on you this time, cupping your cheeks. "I love you," he whispers as he leans in and places a soft kiss onto your nose. "I have always loved you," you replied with a smile. "Sorry it took a bit long though," he smirked and you hit his chest playfully. "Took you long enough, dork,"
Calum: "But you're so beautiful and you're incredible. Irreplaceable, I never wanna lose my baby"
You squealed as you jumped on his back, and he put your hands on the back of your thighs, and began to run around the beach. You were out on your occasional dates with your boyfriend, and he rarely gets a day off. This was one of his rare days off, and instead of resting, he decided to spend the entire day with you. You wanted him to get some well deserved rest, but he really just wanted to spend some time with you. You weren't gonna deny him, he has been so busy these past few days and deserves time with the people he loves, and he chose you for this day. You decided to make the most of today, wanting to create as many memories with Calum as possible, before he tours again in the near future. Calum then stepped into the water and began to head deeper into the water, splashing water on you as he did, making you giggle. "Stop that!" You say, splashing water on Calum as well. He dropped you into the water and you ended up soaking. You retaliated by pulling him into the water with you, and you laughed. You two ended up wrestling somehow in the water, and chasing each other around like little kids. It feels really amazing to be able to do this with him again, chasing each other around without a care in the world. There were only a few people in the beach today, maybe it was because it wasn't a particularly hot day. But the people would still stop and stare, making you a little uncomfortable being under the public eye. You decided to ignore them, because today was your day with Calum, and being with him is what matters. After a little while, the two of you decided to just sit down on the sand and watch the sun sink into the horizon. You took in the smell of the beach and smiled, you just loved the beach, especially the sound of the waves crashing on the shore. It calms you down, making you feel at peace. You took in the beautiful reflection of the sun sinking into the horizon, it's beautiful orange rays reflecting onto the ocean water. You glanced to the side and proceeded to examine Calum's profile. The orange rays of the sun made him look extra attractive somehow, and you admired how sharp his cheekbones were. He had a cute nose and his tan skin looked so bronze. His hair was really fluffy, making you want to run your hands through them. You loved everything about Calum, every little thing about him. He was the sweetest person you could ever meet, and he's such a gentleman. He was so hyperactive and really friendly, and he was talkative as well. He was just an absolute rayball of sunlight, and you just couldn't explain how much you love him. You just didn't want to lose him, because he was literally just everything you've ever wanted. You smiled once more as you felt him intertwine your fingers in his. You bit your lip as you watched the beautiful sunset, setting you head on his shoulder with a sigh.
Luke: "But you are everything I want and everything I need, it's all because of you, I could barely breathe"
Define Luke Hemmings. Tall. Blonde. Blue-eyed. Seventeen. Guitarist. Singer. Band member. Intelligent. Awkward. Dork. Silent. Hilarious. White girl. Perfection. He was literally everything you have ever wanted and even so much more. For years, you have been searching for that one boy would make you feel this way, and you finally found him. You just couldn't believe that someone as perfect as him actually exists. Every time you touched, it felt as if electricity was running through you veins. Every time he would laugh, it would seem like it was the best sound you have ever heard. Every time he would smile, it would make the butterflies in your stomach run wild. Every time you would look into those beautiful blue eyes, it would feel like you could get lost in those ocean colored gems forever. You could actually still remember the day you first laid eyes on him, it seemed like yesterday when it actually was a year ago. You were running around the streets of Sydney with your best friend, when you noticed a group of girls squealing in the corner. You stopped to see what was all the commotion about, and there, blue eyes met yours. You could still remember how you felt when you met his gaze, it was like everything froze in that moment. You just stood there, watching as the fans dispersed slowly, until the blue eyed boy and his companion were left alone. He was together with a black-haired boy who had tan skin, and they were both really tall. You recognized them as Luke Hemmings and Calum Hood from 5 Seconds of Summer, a band that came here. You remembered how he walked up to you with a huge smile and muttered a "Hi," under his breath. You could also remember the first time you heard him laugh, it was so much better hearing it personally than in the videos, it literally sounded like the a beautiful melody. You also remembered the way he looked at you when you caught him staring, and the blush that crept onto his cheeks when you did. You remembered the first time you ever tasted his lips - you remembered how they tasted so much like popcorn and Dr. Pepper, mainly because you were watching The Notebook at his house, and one thing led to another, and you ended the night with a goodnight kiss. Every single memory with him is still fresh in your mind, and he just takes your breath away. He was literally just everything you have ever wanted and will ever need, and you still can't believe that he was yours. "You are everything I want and everything I need," you sang as you pushed the blonde hair out of his eyes with a smile. "It's all because of you, I can barely breathe," you continued as you pressed a kiss onto his forehead.