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- Blue -
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Harry had said his last goodbyes to his mum and sister over the phone about an hour ago, and now we were here, sat in the London airport.
So many travelling in just a couple days, yuh know?
Harry was asleep next to me as we sat at our flight door, waiting for our plane.
New York.. New Year's. It felt as if it was all happening too fast. But then again, I think it's just how time worked.
Completely bored, seeing Harry was completely knocked out, I sighed as I slouched in my seat.
What to do?
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Since I was bored out of my mind, I took out my phone and took a selfie with Harry, as I stuck bunny ears behind his head.
Chuckling slightly, I smiled.
I posted the picture on instagram, twitter, and everything really.
I smiled, my caption just as simple as it could get.
'Oh hey @harrystyles ;)'
In just seconds, my phone started to blow up, as I looked through the comments.
Refreshing the post, it had already gotten to 6k likes.
What the hell.. I mean, yeah sure people knew who I was.
But who knew I'd be getting that much publicity?
Well.. That's what I get for dating Harry Styles.
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"Harry." I whispered, shaking his shoulder.
"Mmm." He hummed, yawning as his eyes drowsily fluttered open.
"We've got a plane to catch." I chuckled, motioning.
"Oh shit, yeah. Let's go." He nodded.
We both walked over, paps and of course more paps just bombarding us.
I narrowed my eyes at the bright lights, looking down as Harry had wrapped an arm around me protectively.
"Hey Blue, it would be awesome if you could take your clothes off again for us!"
"Yeah, Blue!"
Harry tensed, angrily turning around. "Fuck off!"
He was about to say something else, me stopping him. "Hey, it's alright." I tried to calm him down. "Just let it go."
He sighed, nodding once.
Reluctantly, we had easily gave our tickets as we finally passed the load of paps.
"They need to fucking understand, that I can be the only one that can see you naked." He frowned as we sat at our seats.
I chuckled, my eyes hinting amusement. "It wasn't a big deal, okay?"
"Yeah it was! God, they piss me off.."
I smiled at him.
He sighed, shaking his head. "One more time with those paps, I'm.. I'm breaking their cameras."
I laughed. He knew exactly that he couldn't get into a fist fight with any of them or it's another problem with publicity.
"Yeah, that'll make a difference." I spoke sarcastically, raising my eyebrows.
Harry smiled. "I feel better now."
"About what?"
"Yuh know, reuniting with my mum and sister.. It made me feel better about things."
I smiled. "I'm really proud you got yourself to do it."
"And same with you."
I silenced, looking out the window. In a few moments, the plane had started to run.
Before I knew it, I was blinking, and then a tear streamed down my face.
"You know, I miss them Harry." I whispered, looking down as my lips trembled. "I miss even having a mom and dad. I felt so alone." I cried, not getting myself to look at him.
His eyes were on me though, I could feel it.
"I'm so sorry." He muttered, his hand on top of mine as I slowly look up.
"But I wasn't completely alone. Because you're here. And Tyler. And Hannah. And the boys." I started listing off the people who were important to me.
Harry smiled. "You're never alone, alright? Remember that."
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- Blue -
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New York was a pretty sight--Times Square to be precise.
Me and Harry had just arrived, once again after a long plane ride as I sighed.
"So what do you wanna do before tonight?" He grinned.
"Can we take a nap? Harry, I'm so tired. And my legs feel like they're gonna fucking fall off." I groaned.
He laughed. "Blue, you seem to have a case of the jetlag."
"You make it sound like it's a bad thing." I chuckled, yawning.
"Management wants us staying at a particular hotel, I don't know why, but yeah. We could.. Take a nap." He spoke uncomfortably, me smiling.
"Do you want a lift?" He asks me nonchalantly, as I grin, nodding.
"Could I try and get on your shoulders?" I asked.
Harry smirked. "Yeh."
We literally just do it in public, Harry getting on his knees as I quickly sat on his shoulders, my hands on his head.
"Alright, I'm gonna stand up." he awared. "Hold on."
I screamed, wobbling slightly as I gripped his curls.
"Ow! Fuck, my hair!" He shouted people looking at us weirdly as I cackled, me finally gaining my balance and simply having my hands on his head.
I felt so tall though, and somehow I felt like a little kid.
"I'm going to fall off I know it." I spoke anxiously, him laughing.
"Oh woah!" He joked, slightly tilting.
"HARRY" I yelped, my legs nearly choking him as he gasped.
"Blue don't do that!" He bit.
"Well stop tipping over!" I argued, smacking him on the cheek.
I feel him slightly lean his head back so it'd be brushing my crotch, as I gasped, my lips parting.
"Harry, not in public." I hissed slightly squirming.
"Mhm babe, your legs feel warm. I like it here."
"Fuck." I once again felt that familiar tingly feeling when I was being pleasured. "Harry I'm serious."
"Come on baby. Show me your wild side." He hummed teasingly.
"Oh. You want a wild side? I'll give you one, you just wait."
"Well that's my girl right there."
I chuckled, smirking.
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* ONE HOUR LATER *
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Shoving Harry down onto the mattress, I climb on top of him.
"Here comes the wild side." I whispered into the skin on his neck.
"Is it bad that I'm actually excited." He murmered, me smirking.
"I'm feeling a bit.. Of the teeth, today."
His lips parted, and then shut as he blinked his eyes, astonished.
"Bringing out the chompers, huh." He winked.
"But then my hand's feeling a bit jumpy today." My lips ghosted over his, as I feel him tense once I slightly put pressure on him, with my crotch.
"I like that." He whispered, his eyes suddenly an unexpected, darker shade.
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"Fuck, Blue. Faster." He groaned in pleasure, his head thrown back as his hands remained firmly on my shoulders.
I did my handy work well you could say as he shakily breathed out.
Soon, once he had reached his high, the familiar white substance had came out, me mischievously looking at him with a smirk.
"Fucking shit, oh my god." He breathed out once I withdrew. "I like wild Blue."
"And I like vulnerable Harry.'' I hummed, me nearing him as he heavily kissed me as soon as our faces were in close proximity.
"You know how to make a boy happy." He smiled, our foreheads touching as I chuckled.
"Yeah, I know.''
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- Noelle -
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"I don't want Blue kissing him tonight." Kendall raged right in my own office as I frowned.
"For the last time, Jenner. I didn't plan this! If you hadn't known, Blue isn't only working for us, but for One Direction's management as well. So it's actually a bit complicated."
"Complicated? Bullshit. If they kiss, then I don't know what anymore."
"Kendall, do you really want to hurt Harry that badly?"
"No, I just want to prove to that bitch that I get what I want. And that's Harry in this situation right now."
I sighed, running a hand through my hair. "Blue isn't a bitch. For all I know, Blue is probably one of the most caring and brave girls I've ever met. And I know that Harry looks at her, in a way that he'll never look at you, ever. If I wasn't forced to manage you to mess up their relationship, I'd fire you and let them be fucking happy." I gritted my teeth, sending her a menacing glare. "And you know who's the bitch? You are. So just.. Stop flaunting in front of her, stop torchuring her. She's already been torchured enough." I sighed, setting my head in my hands.
Kendall said nothing, just huffed. "I actually thought you were on my side."
I scrunched my nose in such disgust. "Never. I'm forced, so I don't really have a fucking choice."
She snickered, glancing at me. "And that's why you, have to help me sabotage that kiss tonight."
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* THAT NIGHT *
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Nervously, I had fiddled with the hem of my top, as I cuddled towards the pillows.
Harry was somewhere in the suite, probably in the kitchen.
It was getting closer and closer tonight, and I was just.. Full on anxious.
What if Tyler sees? I mean, the whole world is watching us tonight.
If he does, I wouldn't even know what to do anymore. Even though I told him this was all fake, I just knew he'd hurt inside if he saw me and Harry kiss. Hurt was the last thing he needed right now..
Sadly, I stared at the wall at my side, sighing.
"Blueee.'' Harry holds my name out, as I hear him come towards me.
"Yeah?"
"You alright?" He asks, slipping into the covers beside me and wrapping his arms around me, basically spooning me.
I slightly nodded. "Yeah, I just.. I have this gut feeling.''
"And..?"
"I just.. I feel like something bad is going to happen."
He shook his head. "I'll kiss you with tongue it's alright."
I chuckled, shaking my head. "No not that, idiot. I mean.. Tyler."
His eyes softened at the mention as he pursed his lips. "Are you in love with him?"
I slightly coughed, looking at him. "What?"
"Are you in love..You know. With him?"
"Love is a strong word."
"I know. Do you feel it for him?"
I bit my lip, my eyes training on him. "I don't know. It feels like something's stopping me, to be honest."
"What's stopping you?" He whispered, his eyebrows furrowed. He seemed to determined to get the answer.
'You.' My mind seemed to speak to me. It was probably just my conscience.
I shook my head. "Nothing important."
You know when I said I might actually like Kendall?"
I kind of cringed at the thought, but then nodded.
"I.. Something's giving me second thoughts too."
My phone abruptly rang as I gasped. "Just a sec." I whispered, slightly shifting as I glanced at the screen.
Niall. What could he possibly want now?
Picking it up, I pressed it to my ear. "Hello?"
"Blue! Blue."
"Yes, Niall?" I chuckled, rolling my eyes as Harry frowned.
"What does he want?" He mouthed, me ignoring him.
"I just wanted to wish you and Harry good luck tonight. It's a hard job, I know. Tonight might probably be the biggest night for you two."
I smiled softly. "Thanks Niall. But I don't think it's luck I need.."
"Well.. You can do it.''
Nodding once I breathed out. "Well thanks again. Tell Hannah hi for me, alright?"
"Okay, bye Blue! Tell Harry the same."
"Got it. Byeee," I say lastly before hanging up.
"What did he wanttt." Harry groaned.
"Chill! He just wanted to say good luck for tonight."
"Oh..Wow. Is it really that hard?"
"No, not at all. I mean kissing you is like saying the alphabet. But then it's just risky."
"Saying the alphabet huh." He rose his eyebrows. "I bet I could say it faster than you."
I laughed. "Is that a fucking challenge?"
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Harry apparently won the alphabet challenge, probably because I died laughing.
I was getting ready now, just getting into some nice and warm clothes.
It was cold out..Especially at night.
Adjusting my beanie, I sighed.
"Ready?" Harry smiled, his beanie actually matching the shade of mine.
I chuckled. "Heeey, we're twinning!"
"Fuck yeah." He laughed, high fiving me as I grinned. "You look cute with your little beanie and scarf." He slightly tugged at my scarf, me smiling.
"You don't look too bad yourself, Mr. Styles."
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Wow, it was so beautiful outside. The lights coming from all the billboards and the high tower was just.. Wow.
LA never really had this type of view, that's why it surprised me so much. Harry was probably used to it, he just casually stood there, an arm around my shoulders.
"10 more minutes, til' 2014." He sighed. "Oh well, 2013 sucked ass anyway."
I giggled. "Well, you could say that."
My stomach churned at the thought of not having him in my life.. He'd probably never even want to speak to me again once he finds out what I did, or.. What I lied about.
"Harry? Could I ask you something?"
"Sure." He looks at me, smiling.
"Would you ever just abandon me, like you did in high school?"
His eyebrows etched in thought as he licked his lips.
"I.. I don't know. Why?"
I shook my head, waving him off. "It was just a question."
"Oh. Okay."
I slightly craned my neck to see who was the next performance.
"Oh shit." Harry's eyes widened. "Ariana Grande is smoking hot tonight."
I laughed. "I know right."
He looked at me weirdly as I smirked. "What? She is."
That is I suddenly had heard some shouts and hollers from behind.
"OH MY GOD IT'S KENDALL JENNER!"
"HI KENDALL!"
Shit.
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"Harry.'' I whispered anxiously. I knew she was here to start something.
"Shit, I didn't know she was going to be here."
I frowned. ''Are you sure? Because I didn't know either.''
"This can't be happening. She can't find us. Or at least we'll have to stay away from her til' the kiss is over."
"You think we can last ten minutes without her finding us?" I spoke with disbelief. "Seems tough."
"Well.. 8 minutes, now. We can hold back."
"Okay." I nodded. "Let's go this way." I pointed the opposite direction from where she was heading.
He nods before we started to weave through the rest of the people. And let me say.. There were loads.
"Fuck." Harry cussed.
"What? What is it?"
"I think she saw me."
I face palmed. "What the fuck Harry!"
"Duck."
"What?" I hissed, that is, he sunk down to his knees, tugging me after him as I slightly shrieked.
We were now camouflaged, not to be seen. Well finally he does something right.
"Just stay here for a bit. At least until she's lost again."
"You care about your career this much..Don't you." I mumbled.
"I don't want to mess it up anymore. And if that means faking a love for you, then I'd do that.''
My heart somehow dropped at his words. I felt myself just emotionally fall, though I remained stoical.
Why did it make me feel.. Sad?
"Yeah." I simply replied, faking a small smile.
Fuck. Why did my heart suddenly hurt. He smiled lopsidedly at me, his green eyes being luminated by the many of bright lights out tonight.
I pursed my lips, not knowing what to do..
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Why was that?
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60 seconds were on the clock. And miraculously, Kendall was that fucking stupid to not find us at all.
"60 seconds.'' Harry breathed out, holding my hand. "You ready?"
Tyler.. All that was in my head right now, was him. Where was he? What was happening? Was he alright?
There were so many questions, but barely any of them were answered.
Slowly nodding, I looked at our hands that were connected.
I face him, my arms wrapping around his neck. "Harry I'm scared." I spoke into his ear, seeing everything was really loud around us, as I stood on my tippy toes.
His hands were on my waist as he slightly swayed me. "It's going to be okay, alright? I told you didn't I?"
I sighed. "It just doesn't feel right at all.."
"It will in the end."
"Now look a bit happy, we're on camera."
I obeyed, putting a smile on my face as I looked at him.
"Better?" I asked, him grinning.
"Better." Harry responded, my fingers combing through his hair as I smirked slightly.
"Is this believable enough?"
"Mhmm.'' He hummed, his lips ghosting over my cheek as I could feel his warmth.
Pretty soon though, I could hear everyone chanting the ten remaining seconds.
This was it.
Ten.
Nine.
Eight.
Seven..
As the loud chants got even more louder, everything around me seemed to silence as I looked at him.
All I could see was his smile and his stunning eyes.
My lips parted ever so slightly, the silence being way to comforting. Get me out of it.
Before I knew it, three words were hollered in celebration.
Happy new year!
Immediately, Harry tugged me closer to him, our bodies firmly against each other's as his lips had slowly met mine.
My eyes squeezed closed, me kissing back.
Instead of a staged kiss, it felt more..
Real.
But right now, I couldn't really tell what was real from what wasn't. What the hell was wrong with me?
The kiss ended up longer than expected, as my stomach had slightly tingled.
What the hell, that felt unfamiliar.
My palms started to sweat as I tilted my head a bit.
We had pulled away once I kind of ran out of breathe my eyes slightly widened.
Harry had pulled me into his arms into a hug.
"Happy new year, babe."
I nodded, hugging him back.
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I swear to god, this has got to stop. I can't keep feeling this way whenever I kiss her, because whatever I want, will never happen.
I can't like her, and she can't like me. Yeah, complicated as fuck, am I right?
She had looked at me with wide eyes once we pulled away, the similar expression on my face too.
"Tell me you didn't feel that." I spoke up, furrowing my eyebrows.
"Y-you.. You felt that too huh." She squeaked, anxiously looking at me. "Oh my god, Harry.. I--"
Her phone brightened from her pocket as she had noticed the light as well.
"Take it.'' I waved her off.
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- Blue -
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I picked it out with the flick of a finger, as I read the screen.
Hannah.
Well here she goes again, calling at the wrong time, and the wrong place.
"Fuck." I grumbled, sliding it and pressing it to my ear. "What is it Hannah?"
"B-Blue.'' She choked out a sob, her voice slightly faint.
"Hannah? What's wrong?'' I asked, covering my other ear so I could hear better.
"I.. Blue. Tyler, h-he was rushed to the hospital.. He collapsed with n-no warning, and he wasn't breathing.. Tyler was.. He was rushed to the hospital, Blue. I'm so sorry.."
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