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She don't wander in, don't wander in here, she
She don't wander in, don't wander in here, she
You hear one of the Winchesters sigh from behind you. You know that they're probably having a conversation with their eyes, a talent that both of the brothers had, much to your annoyance. It never bothered Cas, though. You sigh at the thought of him and curl up into a tighter ball.
The direction of the eye, so misleading
The defection of the soul, nauseously quick
I don't question our existence
I just question our modern needs
Why did this happen? Cas was never anything but perfect. He fought Raphael with the best interests of the world in mind. So why did he die?
She don't wander in, don't wander in here, she
She don't wander in here
"(Y/N)," comes Sam's soft voice. "We're going to the cemetery. Do you want to come?"
"No," you say harshly.
I will walk with my hands bound
I will walk with my face down
I will walk with my shadow flag
Into your garden, garden of stone
"Are you sure?" Sam's calm tones frustrate you.
"Yes," you growl. Yes, you are sure. It'll hurt too much. It'll be too hard.
After all is done and we're still alone
I won't be taken
Yet I'll go with my hands bound
I will walk with my face down
I will walk with my shadow flag
Into your garden, garden of stone
You hear Sam and Dean's footsteps get quieter and you sit up in your bed. You can't do this. It might hurt you, but it's not fair to Castiel. He would want you to be there. You force yourself out of bed and call to the boys, "Wait!"
I don't show
I don't share
I don't need, yeah
What you have to give
When you're there, you fight the emotions on the inside. You can't let it show. You can't let it out. Because the only thing that will happen is that it will hurt.
"He really loved you, you know," Dean says to you as you stand above his grave.
Every piece of you shatters when you say, "I know."
I will walk with my hands bound
I will walk with my face down
I will walk with my shadow flag
Into your garden, garden of
I will walk with my hands bound
I will walk into your garden
Garden of stone
I don't know
I don't care
I don't need you for me to live