I took them home.
Bob, Wade and Derek waited for us anxiously at the front door.
I waved them away, shaking my head as we walked in. They understood and flocked to the two victims that trailed shamefully behind me.
They're really not the victims... I know they hurt and I know they hurt (Y/N) on accident, but they can't just believe that it's her unwellness. Watching them made me undeniably mad. Jude handed them the gun and they pulled the trigger.
"Hey, I'm going to go do something. I'll be back in a while." I walked away from them without another word, closing the door behind me.
Gazing to the sky, where the moonlight meets the light pollution, I felt this sort of sinking feeling in my chest... I'm... sad?
Why?
I don't even know this girl and I feel like I just pulled the trigger, sending a bullet through her head.
Deep in my heart, I want to believe she will be fine...
I know she will be fine...
But why does my soul still beg for her life?
I know she will be fine...
Keep telling yourself that, Jack-a-boy. It will just magically unhappen.
Damn my inner demons.
I know you care. But do you really care that much? I mean, come on. She's a girl you don't even know the last name of.
It doesn't matter. My eyebrows pushed together. I care alot. I really, really, really care.
If you really did care, why didn't you hold her tighter?
Leave my thoughts alone about that, Anti. I huffed, staring at my feet.
Bah. You're no fun.
Neither are you.
I know. I'm not supposed to be, remember? I'm all your fears and negative feelings, coming with the bonus right of your thoughts.
This is ridiculous. I'm just arguing with myself.
No. You're arguing with your negativity that you hide so well under that mask of yours.
Well, if I didn't have my loving fans that I care for, you would be in control of my life. I proudly responded.
I would've ruined it sooner. He sighed. But I'm not giving up yet. I felt the chill his voice gave me as he said it.
You should so I could be happy.
Where's the fun in that?
Stop being a smelly. I puffed my cheek like a pouting child.
You make no sense sometimes.
Good.
Silence took over my mind, nothing being heard.
I have a question.
I was enjoying that.
What?
Silence.
Not anymore.
Whatever, bro. I shrugged. What's your question?
Do you like her?
(Y/N)? Yeah, she's cool.
I mean do you have feelings for her.
The warm fuzzies feeling?
Yeah.
No. I don't like her like that.
Cough, cough, liar, cough.
Why did you say cough instead of doing it?
I'm the one who asks the questions here.
Okay... go on.
Think about it. You hurt because you love her.
But not in that way.
Then why are you at the very same park.
Looking around at my surroundings, I came to the realization of where I stood.
I'm at the same park where I met (Y/N)... I didn't realize I walked so far...
The swings slowly moved.
Why do you care?
I just do.
I sat down on the same swing I did earlier, lazily pushing back and forth.
You're stupid...
But I'm right.
No, you aren't.
Then why are we here?
Guilt. That's the one thing I feel for her.
That's a ton of malarkey.
...Well... You're stupid.
But right. What do you know about her?
When Mark texted Wade, I read the text to him.
And?
She was abducted and abuse by this guy who really wanted to be her boyfriend, but she only had feelings for Mark.
What else?
Right now, she isn't sure... she's not the same as she was, no one would be, she just wants to be normal again... But she's different. She developed some serious anxiety.
Naaaaaw, really? I had no idea.
The sarcasm has been noted, ya jerk.
If I am a jerk, then what are you?
I paused.
... A Jack...
... I should've seen that coming...
I grinned with satisfaction at my pun.
You do realize you're smiling because you countered yourself.
Shut up. Let me have my glory.
Whatever makes you happy, buddy.
So you'll stop talking?
No.
Smelly...
Jack, what if you could have a relationship with her? Would you?
Where is this coming from?
I'm just curious.
No. I wouldn't. She is going to need alot of therapy before she could get involved with another human.
You say it like you aren't.
But...I'm irish...
What alcohol are you on?
Yes. The seriousness that laced that three letter word makes me wonder about my life.
Okay then... but why wouldn't you?
Because her heart belongs to someone else.
Take it.
No.
You're such a bore.
As long as I don't do as you say.
Don't kill yourself.
I'm not planning to.
What?! I thought it would work. The voice laughed.
Not only are you the opposite of me, you aren't smart as me. I joked.
Jack.
What?
Stop. Just, just stop.
Smelly.
In all seriousness, if her heart belonged to you and she loved you for the longest time, would you be with her?
I don't know... that would be a different world...
Do you think you could love her?
I could.
Really? The voice perked up.
But I won't.
No fun.
You're no fun.
Okay. If I find a way for you two to be together, would you go for it?
For the last time, Anti, no.
Smelly.
I smirked.
What?
Smelly.
The voice of idiocy paused.
Awwwww! You have me doing it now!
I win. I felt the victorious smile creep on my face.
Will you stop?
Will you go?
Silence again.
Got my answer...
Yeah, you did. I answered back triumphantly.
You really are an idiot.
An idiot with awesome fans.
The voice sighed. How come you won't think about rescuing her?
Because she doesn't need me. She needs time and space.
What if she does need you?
I highly doubt that...
Why do you?
I have my reasons.
It's because of her, isn't it?
The voice of mine quieted.
Hey, Jack... I'm sorry to have brought that up... I didn't mean to rip open that wound.
Even so you're evil, I'm glad you understand...
I may be a jerk, but even I understand the weight of that pain. I mean, I am you, so...
I'm not letting you take over. A small grin tempted my lips.
Damn it. The voice chuckled then exhaled in amusement. But really, Jack, it's over. Just try and move on...
I stayed silent.
I know I'm not helping, but for God's sake, try.
Nothing.
Look, I'm sorry.
No words.
Jack, I'm trying to make things right.
You can't make anything right by doing wrong... Even I know that much.
Silence.
I'm sorry, Jack... I know you loved her.
Don't worry about it... She's gone anyways...
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Yay!
I'm not sick anymore!
TWO CHAPTER UPDATE!
Crap chapter... I'm sorry. ;-;